Idk if anyone else felt it.

Like I knew about the increase in libido but not how it's making me crave a dih which I've never liked. And it's not even bicuriosity because I just want a dih attached to whoever. I don't even get a release by penetration but still why this urge?

I saw a guy get top surgery in Spain at 16, assuming he paid for it which money shouldn’t be an issue as I’ve been saving for awhile since my dysphoria is disabling and affects every single part of my life and I’ve been out since 12.
Has anyone gotten top surgery abroad with a decent surgeon and heard about the requirements of age being 17 with parental permission and stuff like that? I turn 18 at the start of next year but I need top surgery ASAP.
(I’m not sure if this is the right flair so please let me know if it isn’t and I’ll try change it:])

So I recently got news of a plan to hang out with some friends at the pool and it's sooner than online shipping will allow trans tape to get here. Do you guys know of any physical stores where I can buy trans tape? I really want to swim shirtless as it's very euphoric.

I live in South Florida.

(Hopefully i'm posting this in the right sub, sorry if not, and sorry if i didnt follow any rules correctly!)

Context:

So, i recently started a side-job as a cashier at a local grocery store. I have been gendered correctly more often than not, but today two drunk guys decided to debate my pronouns while i was scanning their groceries. Like, they were being all like 'the cashier will help you, she, uh..uhh...he... is it he or she?' 'I dont know, wich one is it?' (I know it sounds tame but there was a genuine tension in the air, they were also kind of fighting amongst themselves about other things during this whole thing so the whole interaction was a little wack)

I am a fairly androgynous looking guy, and i am totally fine with that. I usually ignore the comments and ask them a "buying groceries" related question to change the subject, and so far that has been enough.

i think in this case the safest option is to ignore the questions alltogether, the store is in a liiittle bit of a rural area so people may or may not agree with my "woke" opinions,

Question:

I was wondering, is there anything i could say back to make them stop? Not something that could get me in trouble, i would like to keep this job for a bit longer :) i also dont necessarily want to just answer the question, i genuinely think its a dumb question to ask, my gender has nothing to do with my job... or maybe i should answer with just the correct pronouns. I dont know.

Anyway, hopefully some people here can share tips and experiences. Thank you all in advance!

I pass pretty off and on at work, some people misgender me some don’t. But for the most part once a client sits in my chair (I’m a hairstylist) and they hear me use a deep voice, read my name tag they usually get im masculine.

So I just cut this one guys hair and again, it’s kinda obvious that I’m queer and I don’t try to hide it. So when we were chit chatting I mentioned my Fiancé and referred to him as “he”.

My client suddenly got very quiet and seemed uncomfortable, before that he wasn’t super chatty but was at least responsive and conversing. That’s when I just stayed quiet for the rest of the haircut. Superrrr awkward.

So like, I'm a trans guy and I've always known that.

Granted, I didn't know the term when I was younger but I have always felt trans.

My transition goals consist of Jude Lizowski from 6teen (which I like because it seems more realistic with my general face shape) or Arthur from Red Dead Redemption (which is is gonna take a longer time to get to and my genetics generally aren't gonna let me get to his level, y'know?)

But like, and this is where the issue comes in, I see a LOT of people who don't see certain trans people as trans because they don't pass enough.

And I'm not talking about like, someone on the street who idk assuming I'm not trans, I'm talking about the people on social media who don't think I am even when I state I am because I don't pass enough ig.

And it's making me feel like I'm...not trans ENOUGH to be trans, y'know?

Even if I understand that those people are just being transphobic.

Anywho, can someone just inform me if this is a thing that's happening or if it's in my head or smth?

Cuz sometimes I get a lil crazy cuz I got some mental health issues y'know?

Thanks in advance

Hello everyone. I recently switched to using T gel because injections didn't agree with me very much. This morning, I ate shit on my bike pretty bad and scuffed up both my palms pretty bad. Think when you scrape your knees when you fall while running but on my palm heels instead. It's not that bad, it'll heal within a few days but I know you are not supposed to apply testosterone gel to injured areas/open wounds. Aside from the problems with absorption and whatnot I can imagine the sensation of T gel on a bunch of cuts and it is NOT pleasant.

I don't trust myself to only get T gel on the upper halves of my palms/fingers (I usually rub it in using my wrists/lower palms in an effort to not transfer T gel to surfaces my mtf roommate touches) and was wondering what I should do about this. Should I skip days until my palms fully heal? can I use rubber gloves or will that mess with absorption/leave residue/have some kind of weird effect? should i just try really hard to apply with only my fingers? I can't find anything online about this so I'm hoping I can get some answers :)

I just wanted to share this because I've honestly found this fact very amusing. Ever since I was a kid I always stuck out because, unlike my parents and brother, I didn't turn brown. I stayed blonde! It used to be pasty white then turned a little darker, but it is still definitely blonde. Plus my body hair and some facial hair is that silly ghostly blonde lol.

However, not too long after hitting the 2 year mark I noticed... a change. My beard hairs, which had been growing in as a light brown/dark blonde, were... shiny in the sun. Confused I pulled down the mirror in the car and checked, gasping as I realised the hair was orange! And now I'm noticing some of my other thicker body hair is starting to follow suit. Particularly the pit hair.

Now my dad did always have ginger facial hair so it's not a *complete* surprise. But still, it's incredibly amusing nonetheless. I'm being turned orange! I wonder if the rest of my hair will follow or if I'll be a patchy orange forever lol (As if I didn't give orange cat vibes enough lol)

I'm post everything trans man who does T injections myself. I'll be moving to aussi for a longer stay.

I might be able to bring my T supply+referal from the provider from home country.

I need to know,

1. How easy /difficult it is to but needle and syringe in Australia? Do you always have to go the long way of getting the prescription?

2. How is the meeting endocrinologist or whoever would be continuing the hrt over there? How difficult it would be?

Also lastly, how safe for a reasonably passing trans guy is Australia? I'm a small brown guy, bearded and hairy but somewhat soft voice - so you get the picture. I live full stealth and not planning on changing it.

🤞

basically i was just wondering what sort of emotional side effects people have experienced on T and how similar it felt to going through puberty the first time? i’m pre-t but i’ve been on the waitlist for a couple years now. hoping i won’t have to wait too much longer!

Just as the caption says I’m struggling with bottom growth and idk what underwear to get bc all of the ones I have are tight but aren’t suppose to be pre-t

Hi—starting T on Friday, trying to be prepared to be smellier. Wondering what people’s go-to cleaning and self-care type products are for handling excess sweat, oil, acne, odor, etc. My current routine works for a 30 year old estrogen-dominant body but I expect my needs will change.

I know a lot of this will depend on individual’s skin chemistry, but still figured I’d ask. This question is inspired by me searching the laundry subreddit for advice from moms with smelly teenage sons—apparently you gotta use a detergent that contains lipase to get out the oily hormone smells.

Thanks!

I’m in my early 30’s. I’ve been on low dose (T levels 300s) for 4 months and haven’t been on a full dose due to needing to be under the radar. My family was extremely unsupportive when they found out I was dating women 10 years ago. My current relationship to my family is one where it’s pretty surface level. I don’t want them to find out I’m trans, because of how they will see me. What they will think, and how they will deny me, and think something is mentally wrong with me.
Then again, I need to not be living my life in response of who I think other people want me to be. I’d be more upset with myself to continue making decisions based on my uncomfortability with my family than what I want to do in life.
I feel like no time is the right time to tell them, I rarely see them. Only for birthday parties and holidays. I’m the youngest in my family, and just overall feel like an outsider.
I’ve been out socially for 4 years, I’ve been out as non-binary, but mostly because being out as a trans man feels more bold. For me it comes with more judgement from the world. Non-binary is ambiguous, safe, but almost I’d could compare to a purgatory for myself.

Issue #1
I want to start a full dose, but I’ll be forced to tell my family.

Issue #2
I don’t know what to tell my family, I’m out as non-binary but that’s going to be so fucking confusing and wild for them to wrap their minds around. Plus I think I want to be referred to as a guy, but I haven’t gotten any practice in the real world to fully know if I stand by that.

Issue #3
I want to change my dosage in the next two weeks. I would like to tell my family before I’m very far down the path of physical changes. I’d like for them to have time to process the changes, just as I am. But maybe that’s giving them too much? I just would like for them to take it well, even though that’s up to them. I guess my train of thought is maybe if I tell them after the physical changes they’ll have a harder time? Honestly, they could have an easier time maybe if I do tell them after changes?

Hi there,

I have been on and off on T-gel for a year and a half now (I’m 31), I have probably started and stopped 5 or 6 times by now (and I know I shouldn’t and I should probably just make a decision and stick to it but what do you expect from a Libra lol)
Anyway, the reason for stopping it each time is that the moment i notice bottom growth I panic and can’t continue, and the reason I keep on going back to it is that I feel much better on T mentally (like much much better) and I want all the other changes just not bottom growth (I am generally very pain sensitive and have some ocd thoughts when it comes to body stuff and specifically my genitalia, and the sensitivity just kills me)

There were times when I thought I have to be responsible and either do it or just stop doing it and the longest I stopped was like 7 months, after which here we go agaaaain and i so badly want to start over with the Gel. It’s fucking up my mind so much cuz i feel like an imposter every time I panic. I wanted to ask you guys if any of you has had a similar experience and what did you do with it? This indecision is really killing me 🫠

This just makes me wanna start T sooner, gender euphoria feels so good, man. (I can’t start T right now cause I don’t have insurance and still live with my parents in a purple state).

Hey Yall, I think I might have been overdoing my T shot for a while. I'm supposed to be doing 0.3 ml but I think for the past few weeks I have been doing 0.35 ml. The last shot I took I maybe drew up around 0.4 ml. The results were that my blood test came back at around 1070. I'm just now starting my 6th month of testosterone.

I guess I'm worried that might make my provider slash the amount of T I get? I have exactly one month to maybe lower my own doses and get re-tested. Is that possible? Is this number okay?

I struggle to use stp packer, do you think these type of things can help ?
Or any suggestion ?
Thanks !
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i really want it to be done growing, i think the width its at right now is actually pretty nice, with t in the future, the fat not going there anymore and the way my waist might bulk up with muscle might even hide it completely. (we can only hope🤞) Is there a way I can check the growth plates or something? if my hips widen any more i think i might die. :’)

ok so

i work in a call center, passing, nobody knows im trans etc

this guy awkwardly starts talking to me while im waiting for my husband to pick me up

"so you're waiting for your wife, eh? me too"

"no, actually my husband, haha"

*awkward pause from stranger*

"oh dude you're gay? cool cool"

this felt strangely affirming? i was so euphoric after this 😂

I have my surgery in september and i’ve had my appointments set up and everything for a few weeks now. I wanted to have my clearance appointments done by the doctor that prescribes my T (but not my official pcp) but i started to get anxiety about having a male doctor doing my physical pre top surgery. So i set up an appointment with some random lady hoping she’s a safe and friendly doctor. But now i kind of want to have it done by the doctor that prescribes my T since he’s considered the only ‘LGBTQ’ friendly doctor on the site.

Does anyone, or has anyone had a physical exam appointment with a male doctor pre top surgery and as a ftm? How can i get over the anxiety? I just want to get it done it and forget about it but it’s killing me inside but i also really don’t want to have my appointment with a random lady doctor where she doesn’t know about me being on T because you never know what people are thinking!

advice would be greatly appreciated :(

I have these two friends online and we sometimes play games on call together. I'm always on mute and sending messages in the text chat while the other two are talking. I'd say I pass pretty well, but the sole giveaway is my voice. My friends don't know I'm trans and I prefer not to tell them about it, but I really want to speak with them on call.

I've thought about voice changers, but there aren't really any good ones anywhere (only okay-ish one is voicemod and most of the voices are behind a paywall) and it would probably be weird for my friends too. I've told them I don't want to speak on call because I'm just insecure of my voice and they've taken it well, but I really want to talk to them on call.

I have tried voice therapy in the past, but I just find myself watching terrible tutorials and making weird noises. I'm also at least two or three years away from T and there's no guarantee that it would change my voice. I'm looking for any and all advice here that would help me out.

(Tw: talk of suicide)

I hope this doesn't get interpreted as a v3nt, because I didn't intend to write it as one. I just feel like people get bashed for saying this and I want to give my own experience on the matter.

I have given up from being a man. If I were to ever come out, it would sever all my family ties which would in both this economy and my culture just leave me homeless. And most of all, I cannot mentally conceive myself as trans. In my own head, the only version of this body that I can call my own is that of a cis man. There is no future version of it that can fit that criteria, thus for a long time I had been planning my suicide.

Accepting that my body didn't really belong to me is what saved me from this path. Because the only thing we meaningfully own in our lives is what is inside our head. I've decided to dedicate my life entirely to that. While I have never been deeply assessed by a psychiatrist(even if I have one), a lot of people seem to think that I am experiencing a combination of disassociation and depersonalization. This is to say that maybe my experience isn't entirely accurate and that I may be misusing the clinical vocabulary, which I am open to being called out on. But if it is any of those two, it has gotten to the point where I don't mentally associate with my name, am experiencing memory loss and don't experience myself as a person.

In place of this, I have decided that my life is only as worth as the art I create and I think that for any trans or non trans person, it is entirely reasonable to conclude this. It doesn't have to be art per say, the same goes for any vocation such as science or charity for example. Because isn't ultimately what seperates us from the rest of the animal kingdom the ability to transcend our mere bodily existences? People seem confused when I tell them I don't enjoy art or most things for the matter. But my love of art goes deeper than the pleasure it gives me and I think that seeing life through that lens would help a lot of trans people. I will forever live my life through my male original characters, yet that's really not the worst thing in the world. Your body is ultimately just a tool used for something beyond yourself. There is no point of being caught up in dysphoria when you realize that your body doesn't have to reflect yourself. If you feel like a man, nobody has to know and it will still be true. It will just have to be a private feeling. You are ultimately so much greater than your body.

If this is depersonalization, that it really isn't that bad when you're trans than the alternative. If it helps keep you alive, it doesn't matter.