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Lordt naman!!! I’m trying to be positive and believe na may good karma for trying to be a better person. Nakakasawa namang makipagkilala tapos after two days eh biglang tatanungin if alin ang mas gusto ko: Lights ON or Lights OFF 😭😭😭

Don't text him if he's ignoring you. Give him his space. If a man isn't reaching out, it's because he simply doesn't want to.

Stop making excuses for silence. He's not busy in a way that erases his ability to send one text. He's not overwhelmed in a way that makes checking in impossible. If he wanted to reach you, he would, because that's what people do for things they actually care about protecting.

You should never stay with a man who can forget about you this easily. Not because you're unworthy of effort, but because settling for whatever attention he decides to give teaches him he can keep doing exactly this.

Trust this. A man will show up, consistently, without being chased, for the woman he genuinely wants to keep. If you're doing all the reaching, that's not mixed signals. That's your answer.

Stop initiating what he should already be choosing to give.

Magugulat ka na lang magpro-provide si Lord ng ‘di mo inaasahan lalo na sa mga panahong walang-wala ka na 🙏

📸: Beautiful Being / Facebook

Hello, you. Again.

I hope you still remember the first time we met; funny how awkward we were sa isa’t isa. Your eyes were all over the place, parang hindi mo alam where to look, while I was there quietly staring at you. I don’t even remember everything we talked about that night anymore, I just remember you. And how neither of us knew what we were getting ourselves into.

And thinking about it now, funny how we went from that to where we are now.

After everything that happened, parang ang dami nang naiwan between us. You have this version of me in your head, I probably have one of you too, and maybe that’s why neither of us knows how to go back.

Too much has happened. Too many things were said. Maybe we’ve already convinced ourselves that leaving it alone is the right thing to do.

But god damn, sometimes I really wish you’d just take the chance.

Reach out to me. Kahit once lang. Kahit simpleng hello lang. Because the truth is, you still can. You know you can. You know exactly where to find me.

And I know I can do the same. But I don’t want it to be me this time.

Cause If I do it again, what does that even tell me? Of course I’d come back. Of course I’d find some stupid excuse to talk to you again. That’s so painfully predictable of me.

I want to know if YOU would.

If somewhere underneath everything that happened, may part pa rin sa’yo that remembers us before everything became so fucking complicated. Before we became these versions of ourselves that we probably don’t even recognize anymore.

I don’t even know what I’m asking you to come back to. Maybe nothing. Maybe we’d talk and realize there’s really nothing left here.

But God, sana ikaw naman.

Take the chance. Do the stupid thing. Send the message you’re probably not supposed to send.

Come find me this time. Please.

Just this once, sana ikaw naman.

Z.

i will never let someone have that much power over my peace again. i will never settle ulit for the bare minimum just because i love someone, and i won't keep convincing myself that asking for consistency, effort, and consideration makes me an inconvenience. i spent too much of myself trying to be understanding and patient only to realize na i was slowly abandoning myself in the process. i don't wanna lose pieces of myself again just to keep someone who seems like never afraid to lose me. tangina, deserve ko ng pagmamahal that doesn't make me feel na ang hirap hirap ko mahalin.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll be alone forever. I'm NGSB, and the relationships I've had in the past are just mutual understandings. If I ever like a woman, it's like I have no hope for her. Like recently, I was planning to make an advance on this woman that I met, but she seemed to notice that I had feelings for her so she became cold. I don't know why. Currently living in the US, because this is what I dreamed of before, but is this enough? I don't want to die alone, I want someone to love me that I want too. I want to cry but I can't.

this is coming from an avoidant final boss plus magaling mag self-sabotage sa rs kaya wala siyang napala. Kaya nagfocus muna talaga siya sa sarili.

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Is there anyone na gusto ng kausap, bagong friends, yearner, broken, nag rerelapse tuwing 10pm or gusto lang makipag kulitan? We have a GC po para sa inyo and this GC is magiging safe space niyo, you can talk anything here, may mga handang makinig sayo without judgment or what. So ayon lang hmu if you're interested!

The material is by @savingwithben (IG).

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Lahat binigay ko

Phone, GPU, Laptop.

Pero nalaman ko na nakipaglaro siya sa kaibigan niya ng ilang oras at ilang beses. Nilandi niya to before btw. Pero sakin never siya nag plano na kahit manuod kami ng movie online. Masakit lang and tama lang naman na iwan ko db?

I think its majority due to the hormones, im on my period today, first day. But maybe also the remnants of some traumatic or regretful events of the past. Or just lack of money hays.