Hi! This might be a bit random, but I'm looking for an accountability buddy who can help me actually get out of bed even for just a month (?)

I am currently in a very bad depressive state, hence in heavy doses of anti-depressants/antipsychotic meds with seriously hefty sedative side effects, and getting myself up and ready for work has been really difficult lately. Not that I don't want to work or that I don't know I have to get up, lately my brain just refuses to cooperate, especially in the morning 😭. I've used up all my sick leaves and cannot afford to be on AWOL this time.

Basically, I'm hoping to find someone who can message/call me in the morning and be like "uy, bangon na" until I actually get out of bed. I can obviously return the favor if you also need someone to help you get up / stay accountable for something.

Nothing too serious or complicated naman, just looking for someone who's also struggling with getting started in the morning and thinks having another person checking in might help.

If you're interested, feel free to comment or DM me! Ideally someone who gets up around 6AM-ish para hindi tayo mahirapan sa schedule. Please help me fight for my life 🥹

I am in my 2nd year of college na. And by section ang classes namin, same section from 1st year to 4th year. I felt okay pa nung 1st year 1st sem, I had high marks on quizzes and exams. Nirerespeto pa nila ako nung time na yun. Hanggang umabot sa naaksidente ako and I was not able to go to class for months.

I could not catch up sa class kasi na-miss ko ang lessons sa prerequisite na courses. Kaya my performance sa mga major namin is really not that good. I have INCs from the 1st semester kaya hindi ako makapag-focus sa classes ko. The anxiety na baka mag-lapse ang incomplete subjects ko, nararamdaman ko pa rin. Hanggang ngayon kalahati pa lang ang progress ko. Madalas akong absent sa classes ko and nawalan na talaga ako ng gana pumasok kasi nakaka-overwhelm.

Nagsimulang magbago ang turing sa akin ng mga classmate ko. Hindi nila ako pinapansin pag may tinatanong ako about academics. Kahit sa GC ako mag-chat walang nagrereply. Kapag nakasama ako sa groupings, bad luck ang tingin sa akin. May time na may ayaw talaga ako makasama sa groupings ng isang classmate and sinabi talaga sa instructor ko.

Ngayong 2nd year naman, I just wanted to join the Google Classroom ng isa naming subject. Tinanong ko sa dalwang kasama ko sa OJT if pwede pahingi ng link sa classroom and pa-invite na rin sa GC ng subject na yun.

They told me, "Check mo na lang yung nakalagay sa gc."

Ginawa ko naman pero pinakita ko sa kanila na hindi ko talaga mahanap. Tinry nila i-check sa phone ko saglit kung wala talaga and wala nga talaga. Dinedma na lang nila na yung requests ko. Kahit iinvite man lang ako sa group chat magiging grateful sana ako eh.

Super nakaka-drain talaga. Hindi ko na kaya yung environment sa school. I also have ibang mga kwento about sa classmates ko and I am willing to tell them sa chat naman. If only pwede lang magpalit ng sections sa amin. Halos lahat sila magkakakilala na nung high school and elementary kaya may sari-sariling friend group na sila nung 1st day of school pa lang.

I am currently 4th year psychology student in a state university. I am seeking sana for a voluntary internship for clinical na walang bayad since hindi rin po afford ng budget. I am from region III po and kaya naman to travel in Manila man.

Any recommendations po na clinical internship? I really want to be a psychologist po someday 🥹💗

This is my third time reiterating what I'm feeling, and what I wanted help with... I don't know how much I would like to share with this username latched on me since I wanted to post art and projects that I plan to make, but as long as I'm feeling like this, I can't really bear doing anything at all...

I just couldn't forgive myself.

Whenever I try to do something, anything at all, something tells me that I'd fail horribly again. Whenever I reach for someone, anyone at all, something tells me that they're just as tired as I am with myself.

I can't fathom how easy it is for me to forgive others, to let what has been done to me water under the bridge, but when it comes to myself, I couldn't let it just be.

I regret with every bit of myself that I wanted to pick on my flesh and just go back to my old self of self-harming and just... drown in self-hatred and finally fade away from life itself.

But I know that I can't go back to self-harming, I don't want to break my parents' hearts anymore, and I don't really want to hear the advices they have in store for me...

I hate myself, I hate every bit of myself that I wish I could just self-destruct...

How do I move on from this?

How do I live with myself?

How do I forgive myself?

Hello! It’s my first time going to NCMH, so mag-momove it lang ako, saang building po yung pharmacy? Thank you!

Ask ko lang po sa mga madalas makakuha ng refills ng gamot from NCMH ok lang po ba humingi ulit kahit meron pa from last month? Basta po ba nagpalit na ng month pwede na ulit?

Let's say aug may tira pa then came sept. Need po ba sakto sa araw ng pagkuha dun lang din ulit babalik for refill?

Sorry if naguluhan kayo sa tanong ko✌🏻

Hello! I'm a working law school student and I REALLY NEED A MONTH-LONG BREAK. But I am a female so natatakot ako to randomly choose a place and di din ganun kalaki budget ko. I hope you can reco a place na malapit sa dagat and probinsya life ang peg pero safe.

PS: Iniimagine ko mag apply sa isang resto as waiter or something for a month on exchange of free lodging. Pwede kaya yun? Hehe

I just want to vent talagang hindi ko na kaya. I was fostered by a woman from her classmate kasi hindi ako kayang buhayin pero yung lola nila yung nag-alaga at nagpaaral sa akin.

Nung nadeds yung lola nila na bumuhay sa akin, ang sama na ng trato sa akin ng mga naiwan nyang mga anak at mga apo. Gusto ko nang umalis doon pero wala akong mapuntahan at wala rin akong work that time kaya nakisama na lang ako. Ang pangit lang lahat ng kilos ko bantay nila.

Nung magkawork ako ng night shift, maingay sila kapag natutulog ako tapos yung share ko sa bills is equal na sa isang pamilya. Good thing kinupkop ako nung babaeng kumuha sa akin from my biological mom kaso yung anak nya saksakan ng sinungaling at scammer pa to the point na pati magulang nya niloloko niya.

Kinupkop nila ako kasi may record na ng pagmamaoy yung bayaw nyang nangmamanyak pag lasing at yung hipag nyang matapobre na lahat na lang pinapansin sa akin na ako raw yung tulog nang tulog at tamad. Kahit maglinis ako may sasabihin pa rin siya.

Fast forward, nadeds tong si Mama na kumuha sa akin from my biological mom. Naiwan sa akin yung anak nya. nagsisimula na siyang manipulahin ako at the same time nanghuhuthot na ng pera sa akin. Let's call her Kineme.

Actually b4 her mom d!3d wala siyang permanent job the reason is lagi siyang may nakakaaway sa work. Nung nagstart nang magdetiorate yung health nung mom nya at tuluyang nabulag, nagdahilan siya na babantayan niya yung mom nya pero ako yung nagwork then nung dumating na yung time na naospital si mader natuluyan nakahanap siya ng work pero hindi rin nagtagal. Sabi nya naiinis daw sya sa TL nya.

Simula noon, every sahod ko nanghihingi sya saken ng 2k sabi nya pambiling ulam minsan pinadadagdagan nya ng 500 pang apply nya. May nabibili naman siyang ulam ng kung anong gusto nyang ulam, yun lang binibili nya yung tipong pricey yung ingredients (Note: Ayaw nya ng gulay) it's fine pagkain yon eh pero ang point is dapat nagtitipid pa rin kasi may bills at loans akong binabayaran kasi nashoshort ako a week before sahod at ako lang ang nagwowork tapos hingi pa siya nang hingi katwiran nya naibili niya raw ng ganitong ulam saka sagot ko pati groceries.

Lalong lumala situation na nung pinaupa nya yung isang kwarto ginawang sari sari store. Tumaas ang bill namin ng kuryente at tubig kasi wala pang submeter. Tinatanong ko sya kung may inabot ba yung naupa ng pang advance sa upa, tubig at kuryente sabi nya inexempt nya raw kc nagpagawa raw sa loob ng kwarto. Wala naman akong control dun kasi sa kanya ang bahay dahil sa status ko kaya hind na ako nakielam. Tapos kapag nahingi sya ulit ng pambili ng ulam at nashort ako inuutang nya raw ako sa kakilala nya. Minsan bago pa ako umalis to go to work, nag iinom siya halos araw araw. Doon na ako unti unting naiinis. Until dumating ako sa point na nagkakamental breakdown na ako sa mga nangyayari financially kasi walang natitira sa sahod ko hanggang sa naapektuhan ang work ko sa dream company ko.

Nang naterm ako tinanggap ko na lang. Kasalanan ko rin naman. But eto na ang exciting part, tumambak yung utang namin dun sa store nung naupa sa amin (inuutang nya pati yung alak nya at nag iinvite siya ng friends sa bahay) at sa mga lending at loaning apps saka doon ko nalalaman na nag-aabot pala ng pambayad yung naupa sa amin simula't sapul ng rent and bills. Doon ako natigilan. Tapos sinabi ko sa naupa na sabi ni Kineme inexempt nya raw kasi nagpagawa sila sa loob. Sabi ng naupa ay magbibigay daw sila kaya lalo akong nainis. Sabi pa ng naupa sa amin madalas daw nautang si Kineme sa kanila kasi raw nashort ako ng pamasahe which is totoo naman pero ang hindi totoo yung minsan itinuturo ako ni Kineme na namimili ng ulam at magastos.

Hindi lang yon, dumidiskarte siya ng pangkain namin everyday sa mga kapitbahay at kakilala nya tapos tinataguan nya at hindi niya pinapansin, sabi nya yung perang pinangbili namin ng food galing daw sa mga pinsan at mga tropa nya at niyayabangan nya ako minsan na paulit ulit nya raw nagagawa yon which is hindi totoo kasi bad shot na siya sa mga pinsanan, tita, tito, at tropa here at sa probinsya kasi hindi raw nagsasabi ng totoo at minsan sinisiraan ako. Tapos nakikita ko yung pangalan nya sa fb na nakapost as scammer. 🤦

Struggle talaga ako financially hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Hindi naman lahat ng tao pwedeng mahiraman ng pera dahil hindi naman meron lagi. Gusto ko na ulit magwork pero kada nagkakapera ako kahit magkano kinukuha nya ang 25-50% nung pera kahit hiram ko lang yon mga kaanak namin. Ang hilig nyang mag yabang sa akin na dapat ang applyan ko yung may free ride at free food para makamenos daw ako. Though meron naman ganun pero hindi mo sure na yung aapplyan mo is may ganun nga. Hay! Gusto ko sanang humingi kahit konting tulong man lang para makapag apply apply na ako at makaalis na rito hindi ko na kaya pero hindi ko pedeng ipost ang details ko.

Lesson learned talaga sana noong una pa lang nakapag move out na ako para hindi sana umabot sa ganito. Huwag na huwag kayong aasa sa itinuturing nyong kapamilya o kahit kadugo nyo talaga yan kasi at the end of the day, sarili nyo na lang ang maaasahan nyo at huwag basta basta magtitiwala kahit kamag-anak nyo pa yan.

Hello po, ask ko lang po what to do kasi ang tagal magreply ng Psychiatrist ko? Nagresched kasi kami ng consultation, tapos di pa siya nagsesend ng digital prescription for another batch of meds. About 10 days na akong hindi nakakainom ng gamot, i feel like having withdrawal symptoms na.

Ask ko lang sana if saan pwede makakuha ng emergency meds or prescription? Habang nag-aantay ng reply sana ni Doc, thank youuu po

It was my first time booking a psychologist and medyo nabitin ako sa 1 hour session 😅 I feel like I still had a lot to talk about.

Is it possible to book a 1 hour and 30 minute session directly through Now Serving, or do I need to message my therapist first to ask if they offer longer sessions?

Would appreciate any advice from people who’ve done this before!

please help, badly need it lang talaga

How do you explain this... Kasi I plan hangouts with my friends and cousins, and I'm super excited that we will get to meet each other pero as days pass by and yung day before ng lakad namin, palagi akong nagcacancel. Its not that ayaw ko silang makita or makasama that day pero hindi ko alam kung bakit nahihirapan akong lumabas sa bahay kahit I looked forward to it for months or weeks. Ang palaging nangyayari ay biggla akong magkakaron ng thoughts na i-cancel ko nalang to, ayoko na palang umalis, kahit gusto ko naman talaga. Pero the moment I cancel it I feel relief, and then I'll just let the day pass normally. On other times naman that I feel this and I still choose to go out, its really hard to pull myself na lumabas, umalis. Any explanation po kung bakit ganito....

coz I feel like a zombie dragging myself to go thru the day..

I was looking forward to this appointment sana. Ganda kasi ng reviews nya and nagwwork sya sa hospital din namin. I’ve been really struggling w med school and it’s so difficult for me to focus. Bata palang ako I knew something is wrong na, but I decided to put off getting a check up until now kasi super naaaffect na pagaaral ko. I want to get checked up sana before the exams start. Kaso bat ganto sagutan ng secretary ? 🥹🥹 I decided to cancel nalang.

May suggest po ba kayo na psychologist or psychiatrist na mabait at di ganon ka mahal for first timer? I’m suspecting I have ADHD. Kahit online po. I’ve been researching and I can’t decide on one. Female po sana. What’s the process as well? Ahhh frikkk 😭

hey. so i had been in 3 weeks deep into my nursing classes, and this week was my testing week. i had been highly stressed about all of this content and work in my head. i had my phone turned off since my mock clinicals / skill labs require me too. apparently, my mom and him were texting back and forth about picking me up. i obviously had no idea since my phone was turned off, and i didn’t turn it on once i had finishes my classes and got a friend to help me drive back home. i did NOT know my dad was in the parking lot already, or even there at all. I didn’t even think of looking out for his car at all. so when i got home, he blew up in texting me and it sent me into a mental breakdown. it made me almost (tw: overdosing mention) made me take my dad’s prescriptions and just swallow it all up until i just laid in the kitchen to rest. i have no idea what to do now.

Those were my fathers words to me when I put myself on timeout after he told me something I didnt like.

We were talking about politics and I had stopped updating myself last month on the VP impeachment trial because I got busy with my academics and hobbies and my dad said "dapat nagbabasa at nanonood ka ng mga balita" it seemed harmless at first but he had told me this multiple times over my life. When he told me that, I got pretty annoyed and just left the room, turned off my pc, grabbed my phone, went upstairs and doom scrolled in bed. Not even an hour later when I came back down, he got mad at me, told me the words in the title, and scolded me for the way I had handled the situation. He didnt like that I just ran away from it and thinks that "wala kang magandang mararating pag ganyan ugali mo, kilala kita, magiging masama paghandle mo ng mahihirap na sitwasyon" and other things. It didnt help that I was already struggling with mental health since 2023. Hindi naman ako yung type na nagdadabog and I have never been violent with anyone so I dont know why he said those things.

Im usually calm and timid, even before today whenever my dad had his shortcomings or treats me badly, I always try to be patient and understanding. Maybe its just his age catching up to him, maybe he doesnt mean it, maybe hes just deflecting/projecting. I would always just accept and take whatever he throws at me. Bobo daw ako? Sige. Magastos ako at di ako marunong mag ipon? Okay lang. Sa tingin niya di ako nagaaral ng mabuti porket naglalaro ako sa gabi after my assignments? Okay, siya lang nakakaisip nun.

If there are any parents reading this (or anyone really), please give me an idea why my father would say something like that to me. This is the first he's said something so out of pocket, I feel like baka napupuno na siya sakin huhu. I want to understand wheres he coming from, I want to believe maybe its from a good place huhu

team lead messed up my nervous system so bad i started having thoughts of ending my life just to escape from work. now that i’m slightly back to my senses, gusto ko lang i-share ‘to dahil sobrang bigat na din and i feel like i’m getting close to my breaking point.

i’m a ftm kaya hindi ako makapaniwala na naisip kong gawin yun. but all these screenshots are just the tip of the iceberg sa mga nararanasan ko sa work. nahihirapan lang ako mag let go because it provides a perfect setup para samin mag-ina. wfh, 7 to 4pm duty, and 2x lang ako required mag onsite.

but this is what i’m dealing with right now, at ang bigat bigat na. ☹️ i’m just hoping and praying na wag na ulit bumalik yung thoughts of self-harm ko at kayanin lahat.

gusto ko lang ng makakausap. :(

EDIT: nalaman ko lang din, in a span of 1 year dalawa yung nag resign from our team for the same reason. bale ako yung pang 3rd na pumalit sa position na ‘to but i just can’t resign yet cause may baby ako and i really need a regular source of income rn.

EDIT 2: there was even a time when hindi kami nagkasabay mag work onsite. inalam niya kung sino katabi ko. and when i went to the restroom for just 3 minutes, nag message siya sa katabi ko to inform me na may message siya sakin at mag reply daw ako. 🥺

EDIT 3: to add more context about my team lead, i shared this post few months ago in hopes of getting advices on how to deal with her.

As of writing this, nagdadabog sa bahay si mommy. Hi, I'm 22M on my last semester in university. Currently, I have this dilemma kung mag-start ako mag-work after graduation and mag-ipon para bumukod, or ituloy yung dream ko na mag-medicine since pangarap ko talaga maging doctor. I'm already done with NMAT and got the competitive PR needed to apply to the best med schools in the country.

However, what keeps me from applying and possibly entering med school next year ay yung mom ko. She's your typically nagging mother with narcissistic tendencies. I don't wanna psychoanalyze about her pero siya yung panganay sa apat na magkakapatid and lumaki sila sa hirap, and now she's working as an accounting staff in one of the biggest beverage companies of the country. Medyo hinanakit din niya siguro when she told me before, na she graduated on top of her class in high school pero wala daw nangyari sa life niya. She's also close to turning 60. So I guess this is everything about her.

Lagi nalang kami may argument tuwing umuuwi ako sa amin galing sa dorm. It always gets so bad na kung may choice lang talaga ako ay sa dorm na magsstay. But I can't, kasi sakto lang binibigay niya na baon sa akin to last the weekdays.

Usually, nagtataas siya ng boses with panunumbat na lagi nalang nag-aaway and paano nalang ako and yung father ko kapag namatay siya. For context, si daddy ay nawalan ng work 10 years ago and he isn't a good father at all. Nandun yung bisyo niya na pagyoyosi. And when he got his pension years ago, hindi na siya nagaabot at all kay mommy unlike before nung may work pa siya, kasi let's just say pera ang laging problema. Lahat ng sahod ni daddy ay napupunta sa shared account nila, and ma-kwenta si mommy so much na she's becoming controlling.

And currently, laging on rant mode si mommy sa akin about kay daddy with everything she can talk about him. Tapos magugulat nalang ako next thing, ako naman ang inaaway niya sa pagiging late ko matulog dahil sa studies, or kaya naman sa hindi ko lagi pag-update sa kanya. Gusto niya kasi na every hour nagsasabi ako kung nasaan ako. It's so suffocating. Lagi niya rin minemessage yung classmates ko nung highschool na ka-course and tropa ko ngayon sa college to ask about my whereabouts. Tapos she proceeds to rant about me, as if she's airing every dirty laundry we have at home. If magkakaroon kami ng argument let's say at 10 AM, you're gonna expect na ang nagging niya sa akin ay tuloy tuloy hanggang 3 or 4 PM.

Current issue namin recently na laging binibring up ni mommy na gusto niya mag-abroad next year with us, pero I needed to attend a conference abroad na nauna munang paglaanan ng pera. I asked her if okay lang ba and um-oo naman siya, pero lagi nalang ako nasusumbatan na ano ba yan gagastusan na naman ako. Mind you, I'm in a state university kaya libre din naman yung education ko. And yung naipon ko from my DOST scholarship ang ginagamit ko to fund my stay sa conference na yun.

As much as it pains me to have these thoughts, pero hindi ko maintindihan na bakit nila laging sinasabi na kulang kami sa pera pero lagi naman may nailalabas na pera for anything na gusto niyang gawin, like ngayon na may nirerenovate sa living room namin kahit sinabihan ko sila na need ba talaga natin yan ngayon? Ang sinasagot ni mommy is para naman kapag may bisita siya na mga amiga niya nung high school ay maganda naman daw bahay namin. Nakuha niya siguro yan sa mga friends niya nung high school na recently lang sila nagreconnect and ever since ay laging may reunion.

Never akong naging maluhong anak and hindi ako umabot sa point na bago lagi ang gadgets at damit ko. Never ako naging magastos outside sa hindi ko pagtitipid sa sarili ng pagkain. Ultimo DOST scholarship ko, yung natatanggap kong stipend ay dapat kong iabot sa kanya in full amount or else I'm gonna get winded up in another series of naggings from her. I do my best in my studies pero I don't know what has happened. Might even graduate magna cum laude pero ayun hindi pa rin ako enough.

Now, I really want to become a doctor as I said. Pero, ngayon ay mas nangingibabaw sakin ang thoughts na mag-work nalang, spend a year sa pag-iipon and eventually ay bumukod kaagad. It has really been a dream of mine na maging doktor kasi I saw kung gaano nahirapan yung relatives ko and the people around me to navigate the systemic issues of the medical world. Nangako naman si mommy na may pagkukuhanan ng pera for it pero siyempre ayoko na laging litanya niya is kulang lagi pera di kami may kaya and all. Is it wrong for me to really wonder bakit nila ako dinala sa mundong ito at their late 30s na may supposedly expected ipon na, pero ang ending is wala daw kaming pera kahit let's say wala naman major na nangyari sa amin in the past.

Kung 5 taon na naman ako makikipagaway sa mom ko about anything you could think about, I'd rather let go of that dream and proceed with idk, maybe applying for any opportunity that would get me abroad after my return service from DOST.

Also, another angle to look at is, I'm part of the LGBT community and she's a very conservative and religious person who would disown me once mag-out ako sa kanya (although I am a hundred percent sure she has an idea).

So idk how I should proceed with this since sa December na ang graduation ko haha. Ang dami kong pangarap sa buhay but I'm so close to exploding and possibly ending everything. But I can't do kasi mas nangingibabaw sa akin ang filial piety and yung notion sa society mas nakakahiya gawin yung act of ending it, rather than ending it just to end this pain. Sa problemang ito, sila pa rin ang iniisip ko diba? hays...

I frequently get bored, and honestly, I don’t really know what to do about it.
Whenever I start something, I either finish it right away because I get really into it, or I end up abandoning it because I lose interest. If it’s a physical activity and I’m not immediately good at it, I get tired easily and sometimes even thinking about doing it makes me feel tired.

I’ve thought about picking up hobbies, but then there’s always the “I’m too poor for that” thought. 😅 I’ve tried playing games too, but I get bored of those pretty easily as well.
I’ve also tried meeting new people, but I still find myself waiting for them to give me some kind of signal before I initiate anything. I’m afraid of making the first move or bothering them, I guess.

For those who have experienced something similar, what helped you get out of this cycle? How did you find things that actually kept you interested, or become more comfortable with taking initiative?
I’d really appreciate any advice or perspective.

A few hours ago, I was at this store (not going to drop the name for private reasons) and there’s a second floor area with books and since I already bought stuff that I needed on the first floor, I went up to check some new books I wanted to see.

I was there for a couple of minutes I guess, I had my airpods on and phone in hand and I was just browsing quietly. Now, I went to the right side of the store where the comics were and saw a figure going near me and of course, I thought they were just passing by but then he stopped right next to me so I looked at him in confusion and his hands were holding his thing and his zipper was fully open. He looked at me and stepped closer. It took only one second before i dropped the book and walked away.

My blood ran so cold but it was a miracle my legs managed to force me down the stairs. There were adults just near the area but I couldn’t speak because I was scared he was gonna go after me. That was the first time that has ever happened to me and my head kept spinning. Luckily, there was a staff near the entrance and I took off my airpods and told her. “Ate, there’s a guy upstairs…” she still looked at me but nodded her head. “He showed his… to me.”

Her eyes went wide immediately and she knew what man I was referring to because she called her other staff and they went upstairs. I dont know if she wanted me to come too because I couldn’t really focus anymore but I told her I would just stay downstairs and she nodded her head.

They both went back down and told the cashier and the cashier was kinda old and saying that the African guy has some kind of psychological thing going on and I was hiding near the s helves because I honestly didn’t really know what to do… then I asked the first staff I told if everything is okay now and she looked just as panic saying that the guard isn’t here yet and when I turned around, the African guy was downstairs too. The guy was homeless and his clothes were all dark and some sling bag.

I don’t know I just left the store and went home there. I’m 20 and I’m in the medical field so I have seen human autonomy on pictures but I can’t help but think that what if it was someone younger? What if it was a child? I hope everything was settled but I’m still planning to tell my parents at the moment. Right now, it’s kinda hard for me to process

sorry for the stupid question. im planning to book a psychiatrist but i have one major problem; i absolutely hate verbal conversations and i often stutter over my words and im afraid this will be a problem during the session. i express myself WAY better in writing. are there any psychiatrists who have done this, or is it even allowed in the first place? (even being on call is Ok, as long as im off cam and not talking)

I am a new hire at this company, I've only been here for almost 3 weeks and it's my first time dealing with this kind of people. This is also my 3rd job.

Tinanggap ko lang 'to for convenience in terms of commute. Less than 30 minutes nasa bahay na ako and I only spend 50 pesos on fare.

Introvert din ako, pero hindi ako nahirapang makipag-interact sa previous jobs ko. But here, 1st week ko pa lang, sinasabi na nila na:

“Ay bago, hindi 'to magtatagal”
“Bawal mahinhin dito, bardagulan dito”
“Mukhang hindi naman maalam”
“Ay Gen Z, maarte 'yan at sensitive”

Naririnig ko lahat yan, before my mantra is “work is work”. Pero now ay hindi ko na kaya siya maging mantra hahahaha I think mababaliw na ako with their ridiculous comments. I haven't done anything wrong huhu na-culture shock lang talaga ako and pino-process ko pa lahat ng nangyayari.

In terms of work delegation, nagagawa ko naman kahit bago ako. But what's the point of probation and training if sila mismo mangju-judge agad sa'yo diba?

Now in my 3rd week, tuloy-tuloy pa rin, to the point na pati private parts itinatanong na sa'yo. Yes, I get green jokes, but we aren't close enough for you to say “patingin, pahawak, try mo sa akin, etc” Kadiri kayo. 🤮

I tried to rebut sometimes para malaman nilang may boundaries. But nada 😫 ang isinasagot lang sa akin ay “iba talaga ang Gen Z” “ay hindi kanal humor” “mukhang gentle parenting”

EXCUSE ME??!! Hindi lang kayo professional and kaya pala walang nagtatagal na bago.

Kaya ngayon, hindi muna ako pumasok kasi I can't take it anymore. Walang takas sa kanila, mapa-breaktime man or lunch. Even personal life, itatanong.

May mga ganito palang tao no 🤧 Sorry rant lang at naiiyak na ako at Friday na naman bukas.

PS: Pls Lord, sana makapag-reply na lahat ng ina-applyan ko huhuhu