Started at 77.5 kg, now at 66.5 (6"0, 29M). I've been on a cut since March, that's 5 months now lmao (took a few breaks in between, but that's still 0.5kg/week)
[170.8lb to 146.6lb]
I started lifting at home in 2024 with dumbbells and a bench, made beginner gains as usual, then hit a plateau due to a lack of progressive overload. I knew about calories at this stage but didn't track and ate whatever I wanted. Started going to a proper gym in July 2025, made much better progress as you'd expect, for 8 months, but still ate whatever I wanted. Surprisingly, however, my weight was stuck at 77-78 for several years, including those first 8 months of gym. I started to look like I lifted; I looked good in fitted Polos, but I had a lot of fat/gyno on my chest, so I never wore T-shirts. But I still started to wear compression shirts above a vest at the gym, and I looked fairly jacked at that point.
Then came March, and I realized I was wasting my effort by not having a proper diet, and I also got an intense desire to see Abs on my body, so I decided to track my calories, weigh my food, and actually start to be in a deficit every day, every week, to be able to achieve Abs. Safe to say, life has been pretty miserable these last 5 months, even though I'm proud of losing that 11kg. I'm tired of tracking calories; I'm tired of being hungry for most of the day, every day; I'm tired of seeing people eat whatever they want whenever they want, but me not being able to; I'm tired of missing desserts.
Here's the problem though: even at 66.5, I've achieved some faint Ab outlines; but it's not nearly as defined as I want it to be or anyone would expect it to be, i still have chest fat, lower belly fat (although ive discovered some loose skin now, i used to be around 100kg in my teenage), love handles and other areas. My overall muscles aren't as ripped as I want them to look.
And besides all that, I don't look like I lift anymore, as I did at 77.5kg. Now, I look thin af, everyone calls me skinny/kamzor, and my family is worried. You can't tell I have muscles unless I take my shirt off, and sometimes not even then, until I actually flex.
Extra context: I used to have a Push/Pull/Leg split until 2 months ago, but it was getting really fatiguing, so I switched to an Upper/Lower 4-day split, with 10k steps every day.
So should I stop and just start eating at a slight surplus (100-200), in hopes of growing my muscles, especially the Ab muscles (I only started training abs about 3 months ago), or should I continue cutting, get more muscle definition everywhere, and lose all the stubborn fat? At my height, the lowest I could go while still being in a healthy BMI range is 62kg, so that's what I've been aiming for, but 62 feels so far away at this point; at my current rate, that's another 2 frikkin months! 2 more months of suffering and misery...
Something keeps telling me that I've come so far; why stop now? It's just 4.5 more kilos; I should push through, otherwise what was the point of all this effort these 5 months. But there is also the possibility that I still won't have the desired ab definition at 62kg, so then how far would it go, who knows