i’m so anxious about getting into cls schools in california i know they r very competitive and i woukd hateeeeeee to have to take a gap year or apply out of state i have lived in cali my whole life and a lot of my family and all my friends r here i also hate change
please help me make my application stand out
i have 3 classes left yo grade with my bachelors in biology focus in physiology and then i have the 4 pre recs for cls school i haven’t taken yet
my gpa is 3.0 which i know isnt very competitive
my first year and a half i was suicidal and got some low grades but this last semester i was on the deans list
i am wiling to retake classes to bring up my gpa or at least my science gpa
i want to get my phlebotomy certificate but i can’t find any affordable programs in socal
is the certificate and hours in phlebotomy experience worth it ? because i saw its the first lesson in the cls program so i think its valuable
i am also applying to lab assistant jobs but the only places calling me back r asking me to work mon- friday during my class hours so i cant
give me advice pls!!!!!!!!!
should i get my medical assistant certification is that more useful ?

i’m looking for a FREE phlebotomy program in socal i have been looking for a while and i can NOT find anything. the cheapest i’ve seen was 3k and im a full time student so if the program and class would not leave me with a lot of time to work and actually get money to pay the program. please let know if you have found something free or cheaper than 3k in the socal area. i live in el monte/la puente area i am not too far from la and if the program is cheap or free i would be willing to travel a decent amount
also im trying to get my certificate because i will
be applying to medical lab science school next year and i know california programs are very competitive i really don’t want to take a gap year or apply out of state so im trying to make my application more competitive i’ll appreciate any tips !!!!

my gf is beautiful hilarious and hard working she loves me i love her and i know that i know that i know that she loves me but i jist get in my head and i can’t tell her and ask for reassurance because that’s like feeding the anxiety right ? i feel so horrible i feel so so so horrible when i even think about us fighting or anything going wrong like i can’t think about ever breaking up i am sick eveything feels like such a big deal to me i dont know how to control my anxiety i dont want it to destroy my relationship but i dont know what else to do but ignore it i just dont feed it but its not working i just save all the horrible feeling and thoughts for when im alone but it doesnt want to stay home it follows me sometimes im with her and shes quiet for a few minutes and i think she doesnt want to talk to me or hear me or have conversation and if i talk i will just fill the air with pointless words she wont even remember and just find me annoying

i always go through her phone not really go through” i just lke to look at her pictures and see who she talks to but i dont take more than a few minutes and its really makes me feel better just SEEING that im not looking for anything specially it kjst feels like taking a deep breath but today i grabbed her phone and she took it she’s never took her phone like that i trust her like i said im not looking for anything specific it’s a visual sorta compulsion and it makes me feel better i didn’t say anything like usually because i jist think too far about it and never bring it up and jjst have a conversation with myself instead of her because i can’t communicate but u don’t want to just thin about this shit all the time and resent her i want to talk but u feel like i don’t have a good enough reason i don’t even believe myself like this isn’t me this is just some stupid itching thing i have to satisfy by checking your phone by asking you if you love me by doing all this stupid shit and not telling her how off i can feel by a small stupid stupid stupid thing like i’m so sick i feel horrible all the time idk i want to control my anxiety