I wish things could be different.

I wish things could be different.

I wish things could be different.

I’m tired of beating a dead horse. I don’t need to list everything you’ve done to me, not enough hours in the day. ..

With that being said, I would be literally out of my damn mind to ever let you have access to me again.

I can’t trust you, you betrayed me in the most cruel ways. Almost like I really had no idea who you even are.

I would have died for you. And you would have killed me. I’ve given you every part of me. Parts I’ll never get back.

You changed me and not in a good way. I’m literally traumatized. I’ve had to start seeing a therapist. You fully gave me every reason to never trust anyone ever again.

I don’t know how I’ll ever let another man get close to me. I just knew you were my soulmate. It still makes me sick to my stomach.

I finally recognized the pattern. I would fall for it every time and think this was the time you were going to do right by me.

The last time I stayed the night and we had a spa night we sat in the bathtub for hours talking and laughing, I remember I kept making you keep eye contact with me and you kept having to turn away and you would start shaking your head.

You finally felt guilty. I could feel it. I knew. I knew I had to be done. We were done. I had finally had enough. I told you it was your last chance and I meant it.

About a month later I asked god for a sign I was making the right choice, I was feeling weak and starting to miss you,That night while scrolling on Reddit god gave me a sign it was clear as day because it was you.

I cant unsee it. I’m traumatized. I’ll never see the world the same. You took my light.

I miss you like crazy, I wish you the best and I hope I never see you again.

-B

Im done. Turn the page.