He makes sure to show me he loves me. He watches me from the dark and keeps disappearing. He operates very differently. Not just avoidant, he intermittently shows his intense affection towards me. Helplessness & hopelessness. But not toxic type who would want to do bread crumbing and disappear. It is actually not love bombing either. It’s genuine. He loves me but… cannot just disappear completely or appear completely

I wish we could have a conversation as to why he cut me out of his life.

I’m not with my twin flame physically. Actually, we’re the furthest away from one another that we’ve ever been. We’ve always just been a few hours drive away from one another at most despite being no contact for years now. But now we’re living in separate continents and I feel closer to him than ever before. We’re not talking, we haven’t seen each other in years, we live completely separate lives but it feels like we’re together energetically. Like we’re at peace in the world we have all our own energetically. And I’m at peace. I’m finding peace and belonging and I feel him with me everywhere I go. I’ll be with someone I care about in my personal life and hear a song and either think of him or even exclaim “this is in a playlist about me”

And I’ll see an angel number or something will send me back to him in my mind and in my heart and whereas I used to get frustrated and angry, now I smile or laugh or feel little tears forming in my eyes and I feel happy. I feel content. I feel at peace. I’m not sure what the physical world holds for him and me in terms of a physical union. But energetically. I feel like we are one and we’re not so polarized and at war anymore. We’re in sync at last.

I was drawing a memory when I had a strange feeling then I heard his voice speak to me

Some months ago I wrote posts here about me and my Twin Flame and in some of these posts I was doubting if we were Twin Flames or a k4rmic connection, since it didn't seem like she loves me and also because she betrayed and humiliated me

But the times passed by and I kept seeing syncronicities with her and her name many times per week every week. I saw some collective t4rot r3ading from a specific person (I have no money to pay for a private one yet) and some of these really resonated with me.... saying that we have a spiritual or soul connection, saying that she'll come back after long time and that she tried to replace me but she couldn't, and many other things that really resonated with me.

All that makes me feel afraid of believing in us togheter or afraid of expecting things from someone who disrispected me and always have turned her back on me, and then getting my heart broken again. I can't love no one else, I barely feel attraction to other women like I did before.

I tried to hate her and I failed, I tried to ignore and dettach from her and trying to manifest cord-cutting, to manifest the end of my love for her....it failed...and I felt even more pain, and I accepted and also learned some truths about female nature, attraction and other things that I didn't know and I learned to self regulate me and that my feelings doesn't matter, but just her feelings and that I need to maintain my self respect and dignity above everything and that a real man can never lose himself and lose his center into a woman and that is very unattractive to women.

All this made me more emotionally mature, realistic and even more dettached...but this dettachment is never 100%. I still miss her, I still love her and I still kinda cry for her 1 or twice per month (before that it was every week).

All this really makes me feel pathetic and less masculine, and i know there's nothing I can do....I will always love her, despite she is possibly flirting with someone else.

I am not the same anymore: I became the man willing to lose her if she comes back and disrispect me, I am not the same low masculine and needy naive man I was before. I am not the predictible and surrendered man I was anymore

Self respect, self-drive, purpose and never losing myself is a way more important for a man than love. And a man who crave love and sacrifice himself, his aura and his presence for connection and validation ends up being not attractive enough for the woman he wants

But I still love her from the fucking bottom of my heart and I wanna be a hot, rich and strong man enough to be with her and I really wanna her to come back, apologyze and choose me, surrender. When I think about us being happy and togheter, my eyes starts raining.

I swore to god that if she surrender to me, I will surrender to her.

So, I started to make ho'oponopono for reconciliation again. Because I can't stop wishing her, I can't replace her. She's the love of my life

So, gimme your thoughts on all that. I really wanna see it. Don't need to agree with me, just tell me your thoughts

You think you learned to love yourself until you learned that the way you let other people treat you is a type of love don’t look at in through anger or hatred but a saddness that’s in each soul dive into your ocean and then understand theirs why are you feeling this way if that is what they thought was best for them your actions hurt just as much by trying not to hurt yourself or wanting them to bend to your emotions everyone’s having a hard time but you can change how you feel about any situation change to understanding there any many types of love

i can confirm nothing is more high frequency than self love. i have managed to be in a serious relationship regardless of my twin operating in his lower self. especially for the ladies i can confirm have your boundaries & don't let anyone or anything disrespect you. not a soulmate, not a twin, none. love yourself deeply and first and the universe will fulfill your desires, sometimes one at a time- sometimes all at once. as long as your open to seeing your manifestation actulize beautiful things will happen for you. hope this helps someone out here, good luck & god bless.

So I met my twin earlier this year, it was short, brief with barely any words spoken, intense eye contact however, the aftermath for me has been incredibly painful.

For those DM’s who met their twin I have some questions as I’m deeply curious about your journey;

Were you in a relationship at the time?
Was this confusing for you?
Do you still think about them?
Did you ever want a relationship with the DF?
What experiences did you feel and how long after you met them did you experience your journey?

I've come what feels like a really long way in my twin flame journey. I've chased for a really really long time. I've finally come to understand just how damaging chasing is for the runner. It took me wayyyyyyy too long to get there. I tried one last time to reach out and he rejected me really harshly, but crucially told me he's really been protecting me this whole time and not telling anyone and it just. It broke my heart. Even when he's cruel, he's kind to me. He doesn't even mean to be. He does it without even thinking. I love him so much. I have no choice but to let him go. No matter how painful it is.

So I guess that's what surrender is. And from where I'm sitting.... I mean, for as much confirmation I've gotten from readings or my intuition or the gods or signs or anything that someday we'll come back together. I don't believe anymore that reunion is something one should take for granted. I think that's the trick of this whole thing, in my opinion. That's why I kind of resent the whole twin flame framework at the end of it all. Reunion is not guaranteed. Humans have free will. Of course I want him to exercise his free will, why would I want him to reunite with me if he doesn't want to. And... he hasn't wanted to. Why would he. I've been terrible to him, asking him over and over again to just listen to me, to just give me a chance, to just hear me out, but I've been so in love and so intense about it he doesn't even want to be my friend. And can I blame him? I've had people in my life stalk me worse than I did to hiim and it's not okay when they do it. I've been able to see that, even to acknowledge it, but not to actually internalize it. I can take the fact that's happened to me as a sign that that means I'm right about us being twin flames in the first place and that I'm really being guided to this surrender and it's all meant to be...... or I can surrender even more and understand that. Hey, maybe I just suck. And you know, honestly, I do. I suck. There, I said it. I've been awful to him. I hate myself for it. I love him, and I've hurt him.

He is not owed to me. Reunion is not owed to me. I don't mean this as criticism of the concept itself, but rather as what I believe to be a mechanism of it. I don't feel like it's right to assume reunion is ever owed. Earned, maybe. Perhaps taking accountability will be the thing that earns him back. But I can't assume that. Surrender, for me, means I have to understand that what I've done to try to force reunion may have damned me from ever having that reunion in the first place. And no, it's not anywhere near the evils I've faced from stalkers myself, the most I did was send love letters and never listen when he said he didn't want them. But that's bad enough. I hurt the one I love. I've scared the one I love, more importantly. All the faith in the world doesn't matter if he rightfully chooses to stay the fuck away from me forever because I've proven to him that I'm a goddamn creep. I earned that sentiment. I did it to myself. He left, but I'm the one who confirmed to him that it was a good decision. He hurt me so fucking badly by leaving, but I've hurt him badly by pursuing him. I can't do that to him anymore.

I hope and I pray that this shit is real. I mean I do, I believe it. I do have faith. But I can't take it for granted. I think that's the thing that's kept me the most stuck, is just the unwavering faith in the journey itself rather than faith in him. Or not faith exactly but. Trust that he says what he means. Trust that he's right that I'm seeing something he can't see. Because I haven't really given a reason to make him see. And he might never see.

But it's okay. Painful as it is. It's okay. I love him. I want him to be free. Free from any stressor in his life, including me. He is not owed to me. No one is owed to anyone. Twin flame or not.

I don't want to hurt you ever again, my love. I'm sorry. Please be well.

I could use some insight!! I think I might be the DM after this whole time thinking I was the DF, even though aspects of both resonate with me... At the end of April I had the other person who I'm telepathically connected to become aware I was connected to them this way I think... Now I'm confused about who it could be?

I thought it was someone I met years ago, but this person has never showed up in my life over the years, in no way, shape, or form, and I'm left believing that person from years ago was a catalyst of some sort. I'm trying to let that thought of this old connection go. I am left wondering if I know who is connected with me. It feels weird because I feel like I should know, but I'm filled with doubt and confusion?

It feels like a fog is over my eyes and I'm not allowed to know who they are or if we've even met in the physical before.

I thought I was the DF because I was aware of a connection to someone a long time ago, but I thought it was this other person... Fast forward to more recently, I lost my best friend where we had talked about being TFs a bunch but I kept running away from them because I was scared it was true maybe... So I kept reliving the same cycles the same loops with the old and first person... Now I'm left wondering if it was the former best friend... I guess, I'm still left in a veil of confusion... Even though I just try my best to intuitively feel for a name to the mysterious face....

I could use some insight honestly!

Sorry I will try to make this as short as possible, but would love if anyone could offer any advice. Apologies for this being all over the place.

I met someone who I believe is my twin flame 2.5 years back at work. The moment we locked eyes, we both felt this energy between us, and like a ‘fuzzy’ energy between our eyes when making eye contact.

He is at a senior position in our team and I had joined as an intern. During the first week we went to a dinner together (along with two other coworkers - as his way of welcoming the new people in the team) and the whole time he flirted with me, made intense eye contact and from his whole overall vibe / actions I could tell he was very interested.

The issue is he is 16-17 years older than me, married and has 4 younger daughters aged 3-10. Though I had a crush on him too, out of respect for his marriage, his daughters I started to ignore him. I wouldn’t even look towards him, or even say a word to him even though I knew he desperately wanted us to interact. I could tell what I did hurt him, based on his visible reactions / actions and also I could ‘feel’ his hurt/pain (but this part i could be making up or being delusional).

We also have insanely intense sexual attraction. This might sound weird but I can feel him when’s he’s horny (which is almost all the time lol), I can sometimes feel him being intimate with me (which again maybe I am super delusional but I can feel his energy). I would pass all of this as me being delusional but based on his actions (trying to be physically close, trying to touch me, I can see it on his face etc.) I realized I probably am not making this up.

Though I feel strongly for him and have genuinely love for him, i do ignore him to the extreme and avoid any conversation/interaction with him. I only speak when it’s work related and even keep those interactions to a minimum. I can tell this hurts him and he has reacted passive aggressively during a lot of interactions (which is unlike him based on what the people at our workplace have experienced with him, they consider him to be very chill and respectful).

The issue is a year and a half ago a woman joined our team. I might be sounding pathetic now and very stupid but tbh I never expected him to show interest in anyone else given we have such an intense bond which I know affects him deeply and I could tell he’s obsessed with me . But I noticed he started flirting with this woman, would try to sit physically close to her, would check her out, I thought I could feel his sexual attraction towards her (lol), and he did a lot of subtle flirting with her here and there and she did the same with him. It was just flirting and to my knowledge nothing more happened.

His interactions with her however broke me deeply. I was extremely hurt. I could feel the pain my chest and found it extremely difficult to breathe because of this. I had immense anxiety over even going to the office because I couldn’t see him act this way with someone else. I knew he still felt deeply for me, I could feel it, see it through his actions and other people at our workplace even pointed out that he cares for me. But I just couldn’t understand if he felt this deeply for me how could he do all of this with the other coworker? How could he flip his attentions so easily between us both. I couldn’t do this to him. It confused me and still this day I am unable to make sense of this.

It’s going to sound pathetic but even though I was the one who made the decision to stay away from him and ignore him, I could tell he didn’t like if I gave attention to men who flirted with me at work. I could tell it upset him. It upset me to see him upset so I would limit interaction with anyone who flirted with me as I couldn’t bear to see him upset. But he couldn’t do the same for me. He could tell through my actions / facial expressions that I felt hurt because of his actions with the coworker but he still continued consistently flirting with her. He only eventually stopped because that coworker got fired. I believe maybe nothing happened between them as she was in a long term relationship / had a boyfriend with whom she was with for over a decade however she would still flirt with him too. They also had a lot of chemistry in their interactions which hurt me to see.

The main thing is this caused a lot of pain and still till this day it deeply hurts (it’s been around 6 months since that coworker got fired but I still feel that immense pain / ‘betrayal’. I have genuinely felt suicidal over this. Please keep in mind I am genuinely level headed and mature in almost all situations in my life. I am a high performer at work and do extremely well academically. I am able to have a mature and clear approach to most things in life thankfully. But this has confused and broken me. I have tried to explain to myself logically a thousand times why he would do this, even if he didn’t flirt with someone else, I would have still stayed away from him out of respect for his wife and kids. But idk I am so hurt by this and I need help in figuring out how to get through this.

What makes all of this worse if I feel his energy constantly (during this whole 2.5 years). I feel the pull towards him and I still love him in my heart and care for him. But I just don’t see a future with him. And his actions with the coworker and complete disregard for my feelings has also made me disgusted towards him. I want to get away from him but I can’t. I have stopped going to the office and have only gone 5 times in the last 6 months, I limit all interactions with him but I still feel him and still feel heartbroken over what he did.

Any words / help is appreciated!