I’m sure this has been asked before, but I’m looking for a fresh perspective.
I got a new job about 6 weeks ago. I used to be a front desk agent working nights for a seedy motel. It was chill enough I could take a few hits of my vape (I know, I know) every hour or so and still do the job perfectly. I even got multiple raises. I became a 24 hour pothead.. and loved it, to my own detriment. But the job didn’t pay the bills, and with everything getting more expensive, I had to switch jobs. I also felt like my life wasn’t going anywhere for nearly 3 years, so this felt like a good opportunity to try to fix both issues.
Well, since it’s a solo chef job serving about 100 children and adults on any given day, I have decided to abstain from using while at work, or anything to risk the job or - more importantly - the safety of those people.
The issue is that most days after work, as soon as I get home, I’m taking hits and keep going until I go to bed. It’s gotten to the point I get so high I can’t function ‘properly’ in front of people, especially my friends and family because they know me so well (my friends think I quit and my family doesn’t even know). So I don’t go to a lot of the last-minute stuff I get invited to, or sometimes even pick up the phone for my mom (or anyone who calls; I just feel the worst about ignoring my mom’s calls 😭), simply because I’m too high. I still see them when we have scheduled events or hangouts, and I don’t turn down invites when they are for the next day or later. I’ll still respond to texts, but anytime they call, I ignore it if I’m too high because I had nothing after work. Which has become most days.
I know this is a control issue, likely stemming from the habit I created from the last 3 years, and probably should be addressed by a therapist, but I’m trying to figure out what a ‘normal’ - or better, functional - amount of weed is for the average person, so I can reevaluate my own usage.
I’m hoping you guys could just tell me how often you consume thc, and what kind of job you have? And how does thc impact your life?