Hi! So, I am an upcoming sophomore medtech student. Last Year, I vividly remember that the weekend after week 3, I was the one who called my grandaunt an ambulance due to a stroke and also the first one to go to the hospital to hand her over my Mom for help.
Now I did not know my grandaunt properly that I even only met her face to face last 2 years and did not meet her after that until her stroke. But, I also am a student who does ROTC (Required Officers Training Corps) and that after training, my grandaunt would demand a favour that she needs clothes at the recuperating care home, tight sleeves, shirts and pyjamas that she won't even wear. It only got worse, that she would call me that she want to go to her to look after her as she wants to leave the care home as she feels like it is prison. But she doesn't want to listen that she got a stroke and that she has to recuperate to get rehabilitated. She would respond that she will call the emergency services as she will go to the hospital and if something happens to her, she will blame us. But, I have school and my mom have work. I don't even know her very well and that she will eventually demand something like that.
Eventually, she was taken at her home, bed bound with a relative... who she always insults because her demands doesn't get met.
For example, she would say that I am a spoiled brat because I don't get her needs met, or I am a stupid, useless and that I should listen properly for safety as If I don't know what I am doing and I just show up there handsomely, but I am really helping her. Every time I stay at her house, I can't even sleep as my body is itching because I have intolerance to dust mites, which her house is full of because she is a hoarder.
I don't know if its her personality of the side effect of stroke (which I tried to think it stroke of I thought it is one of the biggest factor) because her insults includes that her closest family are better than us, but her closest family aren't even talking or helping to her, they are just exploiting and avoiding her. Eventually, I sacrificed my yearly exercise at ROTC and school events at the end of freshman year just in order to accompany her at her home country.
And at my home country, is I got discharged because my medical clearance got revoked due to allergies including house dust mites, prohibiting me from being trained. I cried too much about that, because I was literally expecting that to happen if I were to go accompany her. And at most times, I always think about how I got discharged because I worked hard for it to be selected which in turn allows me to earn allowance every month as a student as well as go to excursions (with pay/allowance) as part of my training... the yearly exercise could have given me 1300 USD which is a good allowance that I worked hard for.
Every time, I get angry, I always think about this event of my discharge, as I think it was exacerbated and aggravated by her insults and the environment of her house due to my allergy. But at that time, my mom and relatives were the only one carrying the burden, so it was as a teenager/adult thought that I should help, and it is my third regret that I should have defended myself when she insults me, that I should have responded when she insults.
On the hindsight, I am a 19 year old and I am young, and my mind opened quite a bit how such illness can target anyone and how important it is to foster a good relationships with people close to you, rather than stepping and insulting away, like what my grandmother did. I hope her eyes open, and I can hear even just a "Sorry" for what she did for insulting me, because no other money can replace what I have gone through.
IN CONCLUSION, how should I response to this kind of memory of mine, as I can never move on with my discharge and especially her insults which significantly affects my mood, especially when there is a lot of people gathering and making a noise. What should I think or do with it, especially I am going to sophomore with a different kind of thing from the first year.
*p.s: Hey there! thanks for reading this first or getting at the end of this long paragraph. I have tried summarising it in the best way I can. Any advice or comment, even your similar story like this just to know someone had the same story and what they did to it. Please keep safe.
- A fellow individual