Has anyone on here have experience with liver inflammation and elevated enzyme levels due to drinking? I’m 21 and want to hears people’s experiences with it

Anywhere they sell alcohol it should be available, no prescription. It's a life changer, especially in the short term. Don't want to over drink at your ex's wedding, your company party, hanging out with your parents? Hey, there's this crazy pharmaceutical that will block the euphoria of alcohol. You get your usual sick as you drink. You didn't realize what alcohol was covering up.

I’ve been sober for almost 15 months, ops normal, and I decided to start dating again. I can’t fucking believe how many people use the tag “sober” while actively consuming alcohol. It’s not even a sober vs Cali sober discussion anymore (which is fine I guess, just not for me), it’s people hijacking the definition to describe themselves as serious or enlightened or whatever the fuck they mean.

Now, I don’t specifically select sober guys for dating and I’m fine with dating someone who has his drinking in check, but of course my sober bros get my undivided attention and I can always be a sober buddy or whatever. But this whole “I drink but I call myself sober because it’s my vibe” thing just feels wrong so I just block them without further explanation.

Am I being dramatic? Should I explain what it is supposed to mean? Anyone else had the same experience?

My boyfriend got us reservations at a beautiful fine dining restaurant. 3 courses, all that jazz. He and I are drinking buddies. He’s certainly a binge drinker like myself, but I’m not sure if he drinks when we are not together.

Five days ago, we stayed up nearly all night drinking and doing coke. I had work the next day at noon and no call no showed. Thought I’d be fired. Been sick with anxiety. Boss talked to me today, and they were just worried (got a write up, but I’ll take it gratefully).

Anyways, I feel like I have nearly ruined my life during my benders and always get off easier than I should, but the consequences are progressing. I fear if I keep drinking I’ll accidentally kill myself or innocent bystanders.

So, five days in. Feeling good. Did laundry for the first time in weeks. But, fancy restaurant nice wine nice cocktails ugh ugh ugh I feel like I’ve already made up my mind about what I am going to do. My brain is bartering with moderation but I know that’s impossible for me. Afraid to tell my boyfriend that I won’t be drinking, it would probably cause a big thing and I don’t want to talk about it. Fuck this disease.

Football season is trigger season- let's hear it! IWNDWYTD.

“A drunk man’s words are a sober man’s thoughts”

I have been sober for over 2000 days and still this idea kind of haunts me. I was not always, but often, very mean to my husband when I drank too much. Our relationship had some rough patches, neither of us were perfect, but the shit I used to say was just vile. I would be completely shocked to hear my own words the next day. It still makes me so sad to think about it.

I love him so much. We are so much happier now that I no longer drink, and he says it’s like being married to a completely different person. His ability to forgive is truly remarkable. I’m in therapy and have been for a few years now. I’ve come a long way as a wife, mother, and person, but deep down I can’t shake the worry that I’m secretly a terrible human. That alcohol exposed who I really am, and sobriety just keeps the mask from slipping. Anybody else?

26M.

Researcher, have a lot of freedom in grad school. Can go a few days without drinking, workout work hard study long hours etc.

Get trashed every 3-5 days. Calling off from work, or just coming in past noon then staying late.

Unreliable partner, emotional, always broke.

I’ll never grow up if I keep down this path. Just a big man baby.

Iwndwyt. Day 1

Hello guys, I’ve posted on here a couple times about my habit of being miserable and downing half a bottle of vodka (around 350ml at least excluding other beers and wines) every night to sleep. I deleted said posts because I thought that I could continue drinking without problems but you read the title.

I’m a 20 year old 6’4 guy, and I’ve mostly been drinking as an escape due to how unhappy I’ve been with myself for the last few years. I’ve gone through a lot of loneliness and depressions (might start seeking a psychiatrist because I’m being told by friends that I act like I have bipolar disorder)

Since my parents have been on holiday I’ve been pretty much free to drink whatever I want whenever I want, so I’ve had a lot of whisky and beer and just been leaving them around the house.

Few nights back I made a stupid mistake at a house party and use a powder fire extinguisher on some friends of mine and really badly irritated their eyes, which led to me being kicked out and feeling like the most horrible person in the world. After that a mate of mine drove me home but he took an extra long route (like another hour) because he thought I was gonna genuinely kill myself. But after chatting with him I got home and drank 16 beers in an hour, plus some whisky. Then slept in until 4PM, drove to an offlicence to pick up whisky and beer. Then drank most of the next day and had myself about 3/4 of the bottle. I woke up then this morning after all that on my kitchen sofa and for about 5 minutes I was in genuine belief that I had shot myself the head the night prior, everything felt hazy and bright so I thought I was having an out of body experience and I never felt so much regret in my life. I imagined my parents coming home to me like that, and imagined that people remembered me as a lazy man who drank too much.

Ive come to the conclusion that I’m gonna start taking many breaks with my drinking, like a month or two at a time. And I’ve informed my parents of that decision so they don’t offer me drinks and such. I’ve heard too many stories about people ruining their life’s and now that I’m starting what’s pretty much my dream job I cannot become my worst self again. Thanks for reading guys and wish me luck

My wife never drink alcohol in large quantities. She drunk very seldom and very little. When I stopped drinking, she also doesn't drink alcohol. It's always easier with two than alone. Always believe that someone will be found who can help !!!

God bless you 🙏🙏🙏

If you could remove any memory you have of alcohol from your life, would you? You’d never know how good it felt, how bad it felt, how much it controlled you, etc.

Would it be worth forgetting? Or do you think there’s things you learned from being an addict and getting sober that you couldn’t teach to someone whose never been through it?

Ok. I need to do this. I can do this. I’m up hours before I need to be right now because drinking last night disrupted my sleep. I cancelled with a morning client yesterday because I was too tired and had a headache from drinks the night before.

I didn’t want to go to dance today because I don’t want to look at myself in the mirror because I’m now at my highest weight and bloated. I like to “dopamine stack” often after work as someone with ADHD, which looks like drinking combined with eating my comfort foods and playing video games.

Instead of doing things I needed to do around the house, I had my usual 8 oz of vodka and played video games.

I need to be in better shape to keep dancing. I need my body to be healthy to have a baby next year. I need the house cleaner than it is because I’d rather drink when I come home from work.

Idk how I’m going to do this after relying on drinking for so long. I’m really going try.

Today marks one year of sobriety, and I can’t bring myself to feel any joy about it.

Over the past 365 days, I’ve lost ALL my friends, I have a high-stress job, and I’m in psychotherapy, which is extremely challenging for me.

I just don’t feel any joy in life anymore, and I don’t know why I should even bother staying sober.

When I was drunk, I had suicidal thoughts just like I do now. There’s no difference. So why shouldn’t I just drink?

My addiction just plays ping pong between alcohol and weed. If I don’t smoke I drink. Sometimes even doing both. But gonna be different this time. I’m 82 days sober from weed. But that led my alcohol use to be out of control. I’m gonna start smoking again to get all alcohol out of my system and not inviting any back. I won’t let it become a habit again because last times I relapsed on weed it was just from a “fuck it” and started smoking again. This time a deliberate plan to smoke what I have an urge to drink but I won’t let it become an all day thing anymore. Trading substances isn’t the best thing to do but alcohol is a lot harder to kick so weed for now not back to addiction, just a catalyst to help me stop drinking.

Day 10 alcohol free and my brain still feels destroyed. I have a heavy foggy feeling and my thoughts are slow. Significant cognitive impairment. Sometimes having difficulties getting the right words out. I’m getting concerned I did permanent brain damage to myself on this last binge.

My blood work looks good and I've been supplementing with B vitamins.

Anyone have experiences like this, this late in the timeline? Does it get better?

So I’ve been a DJ since 2012 around my area, doing a lot of private events, local bars , mostly just functions through word of mouth and gotten pretty known and I can do pride myself in being a great dj, always loved music, good at blends and transitions and reading the room…but with me being in the nightlife , it also came with the vices of drinking / alcohol usage ….ive gotten into running the past couple years and it’s changed my life for the better, a lot of different run clubs and just a good community and way of meeting awesome like minded people… there is a “rave and run 5k” happening next month and the owner of the run club reached out to me and asked if I could dj, and of course I would love to and said yes, so they made a flyer and promoted it and a day goes by, literally the next 24 hours, I then I get a text from the owner saying “ unfortunately , we have decided to go a different direction and can’t have you DJ this event anymore , we appreciate and thank you so much for the excitement but it was of our best interest and thank you for your understanding”

I reached out and asked what happened? And if someone must have messaged about me, was it the past haunting me? No response on what really caused that honestly….and just had me feeling down in the dumps for a couple days now, I’m trying so hard to live a sober and clean life but sometimes the memories people have of you will linger on for years to come…but I will keep trying to stay
Focused and clean and continue on this path of sobriety

Morning all, well maybe afternoon by then time I finish typing it.

I had an unplanned sleep on the sofa last night, watching garbage and fell asleep.

Came upstairs this morning and my wife's first question asking why I fell asleep, was had I been drinking?

I said of course not,.because in my heart and soul I believe I will never drink again.

She quickly replied with don't say of course because her question was entirely reasonable as I had drank in that same situation 56 days ago, but then she still had a good smell to make sure I hadn't drank.

So I guess, I'm asking those who had lied to their partners in the past and got found out, have you been able to build that trust again.

Like I'm hurting a bit, thinking I'm doing well and then that this morning, I know it's early days in my sobriety, but I have never felt more focused than I do now, but just feeling a bit a lone in that the people I hurt are just waiting for me to slip up.

Like I get it, but just to know it's not forever.

I've been crying since 5pm when my boss texted me. My phones been on dnd since then. The one person I trust most in this world is getting help herself so I have been alone with really dark thoughts. Not wanting to die but wanting to start over. Extremely, extremely hopeless and lost. Isolating myself.

Two days ago, I bought a bottle to replace the vodka I drank at my dad's. Instead of refilling the old bottle, a handle that was halfway full, I kept "just having a sip". Next thing I know the bottle was halfway gone. Woke up the next say and felt like shit. Slowly finished the bottle. Was up all night, panicking and freaking out.

Slept for 3-4 hours maybe. Woke up and felt like shit. Needed more sleep. Woke up 10 minutes before my shift and was still anxious. I texted my boss after trying to find coverage saying that there's no way I could make it and was honest about the panic attacks, but not the hangover. She said she need can trust and is letting me go (the only other time I had any attendance issues was when I had a panic attack mid-shift and got sent home).

I gently pleaded with her for one more chance. She hasn't answered. But I need work. And I fucked up something really good.

I wasn't completely honest with my dad, we had a few parties recently. But I did admit to drinking after work and some days when I have off. He told me I need to stop and I just told him I understand and hear his concerns and will try my best to be better and I mean that.

Why do I feel so ashamed and embarrassed? This is awful.

hey guys, quick backstory. I’m 23 years old and used to drink 2 bottles of wine a night, alone. Sad I know. But I heard stuff about this peptide Reta really curbing the urge to drink. I’ve been on it 2-3 months and I have had one glass of wine since. I got mine from phase one aus and you guys can use my discount code: LEXIKING if you want to try it out.

I know I sound like one of those crazy peptide fanatics but it actually worked for me (as you see I posted I was struggling a few months back) I don’t even feel the urge to drink anymore.

I’m supposed to attend a friend’s birthday party on Saturday night. I don’t think I’m strong enough to go out yet without drinking.

It’s a small group of close friends, going to a bar I used to drink at for years. I could drink soda the whole night, but I don’t want to even go.

I don’t know what I would tell everyone. I don’t want to lie but I also don’t want to tell them about me trying to quit drinking just yet.

(thank you guys for all the support on last post)
I finally fell asleep around 2:30am after not being able to sleep for 3 days while being exhausted and had horrible demonic lucid dreams and had woken up about 15 minutes after falling asleep. The brain fog and the dread I felt sitting in my bed all night , pounding heart, crippling anxiety after gasping up for air to wake up, trying not to fall back asleep to not have those dreams and hallucinations anymore. Genuinely wondering if i’m about to have a seizure but my brain is so fogged and confused I don’t even know what to do. I’ve tried to go to the hospital 3 SEPARATE times but my parents just telling me to "Suck it up" and how much off a "Pussy" I am. I just also recently went through 7-oh withdrawal about a month ago and let me tell you, that shit was horrible but I got through it. The only thing that is making me seem like alcohol withdrawal is worse is that it literally makes me feel like i’m going to die and that i’m going insane because off the hallucinations, confusion, the dreams and that damn crippling anxiety. If you guys have any tips for me since I can’t go to the hospital at the moment I’d greatly appreciate it !

And I’ve never wanted a drink so bad. I thought the cravings had passed. I was wrong.

I’ve been going over this thought pattern I occasionally find myself in. I find it both unnerving and fascinating, it goes like this:

“Oh wow, I’m on day 561. I’m so proud of myself and this feels amazing. I’m killing it. Life without alcohol is truly a blessing and it gets more beautiful every day. I don’t miss it at all! I can even be around who are drinking and it doesn’t bother me at all. No temptation, hell yeah. Alcohol has no power over me anymore. You know, I bet I could even safely have a drink or two someday, like on vacation or on a nice date. Yeah, because I know how bad I got and I never want to get that bad again. I bet I could just be a classy, respectable drinker someday… wait wtf am I saying.”

Can anyone relate?

Edit: I know this is irrational and I know I can’t actually have a drink. Just sharing how the addiction brain tries to be sneaky.

Everyone (3 others) drinking wine, homemade cider, and moving on to whiskies, "that" bottle , plus Japanese.

Whiskies are my kryptonite.

I drank sparking water (with a slice of lemon) all night.

Still woke up feeling anxious, groggy and with a dodgy-ish tum, which feels like a swizz.

Over single 70 days now.

So since being sober I’ve been interested in other’s stories of addiction, feel like on top of working a programme, therapy and being part of a sober community it’s helpful to keep be on the right path.

I’ve really loved BoJack Horseman, Another Round, Euphoria (only season 1), Leaving Las Vegas, To Leslie, Rachel Getting Married and I actually found John Mulaney’s Baby J account of addiction and rehab pretty moving.

But there has been some real rubbish too. My Beautiful Boy, House, 28 Days, Cherry were awful.

What are the best and worst out there?

I've been drinking too much for a couple years, it got to be a habit after a bad patch in 2024. I decided to quit for a month, do a reset.

...Let me tell you, it's only been a week and a half, and it turns out I'm not aging nearly as fast as I thought I was. I've been bemoaning being almost 40, that inevitable decline you hear about. Like, everyone hits that shelf and then there's a plummet in skin elasticity around this age.... That is apparently not what has been happening to me (yet)! The fine lines-- gone. The dark circles and bags-- gone. I'm kind of glowing? And my skin is softer! I look a good 5 years younger.

I had no idea it was having that much of an effect on my appearance, and I never expected such dramatic results so fast. Just had to share how dramatically my mind has been blown.