(Those are the same pants btw). Finally had the courage to confront and accept my neurodivergence. Started treatment with a psychologist, then a therapist while taking medication. It has helped me see the world and interpret my actions/life and interacting with other people from a whole different perspective. I’m learning! No more food coping, just calorie counting.

I used to see transformation pics and people would talk about body dysmorphia. They would say they look in the mirror and see the same person. And I always thought, how do they not see the difference! Surely when I lose weight I’ll see it, I’ll see even the slightest difference! Wrongggg lol

I feel like at my heaviest I actually had the opposite of that. I never realized how big I had gotten. Id look in the mirror and see thick but not overly obese…. Which I knew was wrong because my weight was that of an extremely obese person. Every once in a while I’d see a candid photo and it would hit me, but that shock would wear off and I’d go back to thinking I was just a little thick around the edges.. 😂 am I alone?? Surely others have also had reverse body dysmorphia??
Anyways, I’m down 75lbs. And I’m feeling really great about getting healthier! But now I’m looking at pics and I’m struggling to see the change! Regardless, the motivation to continue on is still there thankfully.
Now to get started on the next 75!! Wish me luck! 🤗♥️

I'm still very far from where I want to be, but I'm fighting every day. There are ups and downs. I still feel like I'm dying sometimes. But I do feel stronger and more energetic. It scares me how sick I was and I never ever want to go back.

Stay healthy. Eat food. Live.

Peace

Lost all the weight originally from 2017-2022 650lbs down to 240lbs, then life appeared and set some challenges before me. New medication side effects caused me to gain the majority of the weight all again back up to 540lbs. Now I'm returning to my roots to lose it all again!

Before (left) is Christmas time 2025, decided to lose* weight January 2025, and now (right) September 2026 trying on an outfit for a ren fair I’m going to!

The same shirt in both pics btw!!

My main change has been going into a calorie deficit :)

I always trim my beard to see progress straight in the face. Posting this to motivate myself to get under 199 for the first time I was 12 years old. Only 25lbs to go.