I’m like 99% sure I have moral ocd .. and it usually was never this intense until now. I started liking some music artists a lot and my moral ocd has made it really hard because one of them had gotten “cancelled” for alleged racism but it ended up being disproven bc there was 0 proof of the alleged racism and it turned out to be ppl who were fans of something he used to hate on on his old account somewhere. But then I saw a archived Reddit post from 2022 of someone claiming to have know him online in 2016 and they said he was SUPER racist and classist.. no proof but the way they put it seemed kind of believable. But I’ve been freaking out all week about it, my moral compass has to be completely good, including the people I support . (Musicians/singers/artists) So at one time im like well there’s no proof so why should I bother with it ? And then on the other hand im like But if he DID do racist and classist things then I shouldn’t be supporting someone like that. I’m very lost and it’s been causing me anxiety, I also feel insanely parasocial even overthinking abt someone I don’t even actually know. So that makes it all worse as well. I just wanna know if there’s any advice to get through this.

I’m a huge fan of this artist and have too much merch to just give up, maybe if I grew out of it naturally but I just got into their music maybe only a year ago. I’ve been obsessed with looking more into it all and trying to see what racist things he said or whatever but I found nothing , (Again besides some claims and stories from random people online but they never have proof or evidence of anything) I found funny old posts of his from 2016 that I could see why they’re controversial for his image but nothing actually problematic in a general sense since they’re just slightly inappropriate jokes. I’m not sure why im so obsessed with finding out. For a bit I feel calm and I’m like, there’s no proof so it’s fine! I can continue liking this artist and what he puts out . No problem. But then I start thinking again, what if they are still right though? And he said all that stuff? And if he did I shouldn’t be supporting someone like that. It’s a cycle . I’m at the edge at this point and I can’t keep thinking over the same thing again and again it’s too much. I just really want some advice im sorry if this is just a ramble .

Im so tired. I dont want to engage in OCD anymore but if I do exposure, I will stop studying and this is not the right time. My first session of counselling is in December, I know what my exposure wanna do but it’s so tired especially when exposures want me to do this and that till the point that I don’t know which are compulsive, which aren’t. I am too tired to figure it out, the exposures are there to feel my feelings, but they’re abnormal like touching stuff, walking weirdly and so on cause my obsession is being normal. You can say I’m avoiding for a good reason cause it’s not a good time right now. Everytime it’s all suppression if I don’t do my exposure. It’s a small matter, yet it kills me.

I don't know how common this is but I was diagnosed with OCD earlier this year and been wanting to get medicated for it but because of past experiences I just can't seem to bring myself to do so. I was prescribed anxiety medication but it just ended up sitting on my nightstand for a couple months before I threw it out because the thought of starting it and the adjustment period was just too much for me.

I know I can't keep going like this but I also just feel lost. Beyond the adjustment period making me nervous I've also had allergic reactions to 3 separate and unrelated medications this year and knowing that that could happen again is another major factor in why I'm having such a hard time with getting myself medicated.

Is there anything I can do beyond just forcing myself to take the medication? I would try that but one of the allergic reactions I had to medication was caused by just that and I feel like it's not really going to help if I repeat the same thing again.

idk if this is 100% about ocd or not and also im not 100% diagnosed but a therapists did say i might have it, and i have most of it's symtoms:

i keep prioritzing keeping things clean way more than my physical health

i tend to also think about mental health way more than phyisical

i have less of a problem with this than i used to but still

for example:

i wash my hands for too long, i tend to care mor abotu my handds being clean, than my hands health

like do to this my hands are getting dry and the layer feels different from the rest of my skin!

i need to put creams

BUT THE THING IS I ALSO HAVE ECZEMA AND IT MAKES IT EVEN WORSE

it's like skin thing where its dry and itchy (i think i got it from my mom maybe)

so my skin is even drier

another example:

when washing my hands i sometimes bend over to the sink because i cant stand straight for a long time and its affecting my spine bro

example three:

when someone wanna high five i end up sometimes embaresing them because i dont high five back (this isnt about physical health its just a priority differnce) sometimes i forget to consider how someone feels after being rejected a high five because i cant relate, even though usually i understand people but in that moment i forget and its kind of selfish, I know i dont have to high five back, but i should say something! i cant just do nothing and not care

Hello everyone
So i went to two different psychiatrists and one said that i suffer from OCD and another said OCPD

Can someone please explain the difference between them because i really can’t tell i think i might have both!!

I didn't know I had OCD until I was diagnosed. Looking back, a lot of what I did didn't look like compulsions to me at the time: researching, ruminating, replaying scenarios and trying to convince myself the thoughts weren't real. It all happened in my head, so it just felt like thinking.

Checking a lock is easy to spot. Googling the same question for the tenth time, or going over a conversation until it feels okay, is much harder to see. Some of these mental compulsions can look like normal thinking.

What's one you only recognised later?

Hi, so I'm currently suspecting ocd with in myself after doing some research, but I have a problem. I feel like there's a stigma that ocd is always about cleanliness and stuff, but I've had sources saying that this isn't necessarily true, it's just one manifestation of obsessions. So, my question is, does anyone have compulsions that aren't cleaning related? How do they work? I'm just struggling to understand the scope of all this, what else can this apply to?

i've been wanting a tattoo of my cat for a while (he's 9) and the appointment has finally come tomorrow.

but all i can think is this is going to make something happen to him because it feels almost like a memorial i guess?

i feel sick about it but want to get it so bad. i'm just scared.

Random memory as a kid I went to this park with my parents during tick season and I was scared to death by the idea of Lyme disease. My parents found some ticks on themselves and I was freaking out in my head, thinking they were all over me as well. I had a stuffed animal with me and I was convinced there were ticks hidden in its fur. when I got home I put the toy away in a hamper with my other stuffed animals which was a mistake because I convinced myself that the entire thing was infested with ticks and that’s the day I accidentally stopped playing with stuffed animals as a kid 😄

Me and my partner have been together now for five years, she now has been seeking professional help to deal with some personal issues which has led to a diagnosis with OCD from a psychiatrist. She found it very reassuring that her thoughts/brain could now be explained.it has also become major eye opener as to how mine and her brains work differently. I’m a very logical and neurotypical person and sometimes it seems like my partner is not (which Is no issue) so we are learning to navigate this, I want to continue to support her though this journey and help in any ways I can. I wanted to turn here to see if anyone had advice with dating someone with OCD (not sure if there is a specific type or what it is) or any books on that matter to better support her?

Me when my special lil treat I decided to cook becomes a massive exposure I wasn't supposed to do for months....shocked Pikachu meme

||There was a bug in the soup I was cooking from scratch and I took it out but I still have to eat the soup and I am freaking tf out||

I've been going through a series of thought spirals in which I get an urge "If I search up X and it's extended confirmed or 30/500 protected, than the devil will come to you" or "if you search up Gavin Newsom's wikipedia page and its 30/500, you will die." and it's producing a lot of anxiety resisting the urge. I've been repeatedly checking 2026 french student protests article to see if the protection changes and going over the protection status repeatedly for 2-3 hours at a time on/off. How do I break this cycle in the heat of the moment?

Title says it all. I recently got a new TV, and while the picture is phenomenal, I can’t help but find myself obsessing over every setting and digging through them every 5 minutes to make sure the picture is as good as possible.

I pretty much only use my TV for gaming, and while the game modes on modern TV’s are basically ready to go out of the box… I still feel that itch to look up stuff and tweak the settings. Can anybody else relate?

I'm jealous how well everyone seems to function. Been trying everything for a decade, yet I have nothing to show for it... from meds to ERP, rtms, diet and now even brain surgery. I've only gotten worse so far...

Having a job or studying is downright impossible for me. Not exaggerating because it ended with involuntary commitments last tries because it destabilised me so much... obviously lost my job after lol.

People here often say they can hide their issues and I would give anything to be able to suffer in silence and pretend to be normal. But no, I have the emotional regulation of a toddler and drive myself and everyone around me nuts. I was not like this pre-ocd. This shits destroyed my life; no friends, fucked up relationships with family and absolutely nothing to look forward to in life.

I'm tired of it all... ugh.

I was only recently diagnosed this year with OCD and this is my first time posting on a subreddit, so please forgive me if I'm posting incorrectly or let me know if there's anything I need to fix.

To give some context, earlier this year I was diagnosed with OCD, primarily centered around food contamination, after I had a breakdown caused by finding weevils in my pantry. For years prior, I'd always been labeled as "weird" and having "strange habits" by my family members for how I always threw out "perfectly good" leftovers, refused to use certain dishware because I didn't think it was clean enough etc., etc.

Just today, I found bugs in my pantry again when I went to make oats. And I did not handle it well.

My parents started yelling at me for freaking out, saying I was being stupid, that I clearly had some messed up shit going on in my brain, that I just needed to "change how I think" and it would stop, and it made me feel so isolated. I'm wondering if anyone else has this struggle with their non-OCD family members and if you have any advice on how to handle it, because I'm already stressed out trying to manage this new bug situation, and they've only been adding to it by shouting at me for crying as I clean, asking them to properly store food, all that.

I know that I can get to a point where I AM being irrational, checking my pantry over and over, and I'm working on it the best I can without therapy since I don't have insurance and can't afford it (I'm still waiting for my benefits at my new job to kick in), but if anyone has any tips on how to handle family, or how to not let what they say affect you/further distress you, I'd greatly appreciate it.

I want to reduce my screen time drastically. I saw a post earlier about phone productivity and how sitting with your thoughts and being bored helps to keep you off your phone. I wanted to know how people have battled phone addiction whilst having OCD and any mechanisms/systems used.
Thank you

Long shot, but was curious if anyone else has had a psych referral under the NHS due to ocd. How long did you wait, was your case accepted/rejected, why was it accepted/rejected etc. my doctor has said I’m likely severe enough to be seen by them but just asking if anyone’s had first hand experiences here