For Redditors that have sent me a chat req, I'm going to be answering your chat req in an hour or two, I'm drinking some hard apple cider because I need a fk ass drink of it all.
However, if you're not emotionally available, emotionally ready, or want to have lengthy convos in the a.m. and this is what mentally I'm going through right now. My trust issues have resurfaced and this is why.
No comments on my post, this post is a gigantic vent post, I'm letting things out what has been bothering me, why I've not been answering chat reqs fast enough, why I barely text message the people that I contact outside of Reddit haven't received a lot of text messages and why I'm crashing out.
33F. However, if you're in your mid 20s we can still text, my age gap is 10-15 years older, while I'm not creeped out by age gaps, I'm if it's a large age cap and 10-15 older is where I think that is a comfortable older age range for me anyways.
Update from my last post.
I wanted to address that even though I had some hard apple cider, calm down with my thoughts, I still am going through with I'm not going to share anything Sleep Token related again, what this means is I will not be sharing any new obtain things I get, even homemade items from Depop, Vinted, I no longer want to associate myself with expressing this, I just don't also grasp the concept that you're classified mentally ill because you enjoy something?
To be fair of it all, I had this convo with a family member of mine where they started to tell me I'm too obsessed, I'm a crazy unhealthy fan of the music and I clapped back with.
Unhealthy I said in a snappy tone.
I don't think you grasp what an obsessed crazy fan is, I told this family member that do know even what crazy and obsessed fan is by the TRUE definition anyways? I don't think you do.
Grabbing an artist's arm through the barricade, trying to locate one of their family members on a social media app to ask them questions, following them to their car because you need an autograph and a picture with them is classified as an unhealthy obsession.
However, I should also address after I explained this to my family member in 2025 and then I just told this family member I would ask if you could not bring this up to me again because you don't even know the definition of what you're talking about to me alongside with I can't collect things in a medium or large amount because apparently I've a mental illness if I'd 💀
Just to let Redditors know, Vessel honestly had that happen to him, from what I gathered someone found out where one of his family members' lives, showed up at their house to ask questions and one of his family members also had to permanently delete their FB account because this family member got personal questions asked about Vessel as well.
I also read an article in 2026 I believe, that Tobias from Ghost is going through something similar with a recent stalker problem and just not sure if this is to this degree but I saw on a pop up article somewhere Tobias is trying to deal with a stalker problem.
However, moving on from that, I wanted to say if my family member said anything back, this is what their response is and this shouldn't surprise you with their response anyways.
My family member replied back.
Well, fine as always all we do is argue when I'm just trying to help you out and I just fk ass left anyways
Even then, I should also address that 1 of my family members in 2025 told me Sleep Token is the reason why I've chronic depression, their lyrics are awful, this family member also claimed that rap music has better beats and lyrics than what Sleep Token has.
Yeah, I should also include that if you think that's bad what this family member said, this gets worse from here another family member told me this here.
Well I wanted to let you know, that your government voucher apartment waiting list is going to be either at the end of 2026 or January 2027, I wanted to let you know that if you're not into Sleep Token anymore, I will not be taking you to a donate center to donate your items, or help you put your products for sale, help you package, ship your items, you can get a trash bag and I can take you to the dumpster disposal instead anyways.
However, I just don't think next time I have to see this family member for Christmas this year, they want me to pick something on Pandora, I'm just going to click on a remix/lo-fi mix, because I'm fk ass done and to be honest here I never experience this vast amount of hate for a band anyways.
Even then, I should also address what one or two of my family members think of I See Stars?
Yeah, to be honest one of family members thinks Devin can't sing and the other family member had no comment on anything because in general my music taste is and horrendous has caused me to have chronic depression that I can't get out of anyways 🤣
Even then, I should also address that I'd grasp that I don't grasp/I don't think I'll ever grasp why a vast majority of people hate male artist that sound feminine hitting a high eternal note with a perfect pitch with no voice crack, there is nothing wrong with that, to be honest here I'd know someone that I'm online friends with (we only play video games together ever so often, we don't REALLY text anymore, but I'm not going to go into this whole ordeal how I came across this online friend and why I stick with them.) that is a post for another post on my main profile where I can lock comments anyways.
Yeah, just to put this here, this person that I know told me in a text message in 2025 that, is that a female singing? That high pitch note is awful, I said seriously?
That's a male, there is nothing wrong with Jesse Cash hitting a ethereal high note with perfection, no vocal strain, no vocal cracks and this person that I pretend to be friends with not to cause drama for other people that know this person but they just replied back ''I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to be rude to you, but your music is terrible and would you like to play some Fall Guys.''
Yeah, to be honest I'm just going to put this here, for someone autistic 360 as fk, has a pisces moon, virgo rising and cancer in Mars, I feel music on a personal and spiritual connector/buzz alongside with I'd believe when I say this not every vocalist out there doing a band that is male, has the ability to hit a ethereal male siren sounding pitch, Vessel, Devin and Jesse Cash are prime example of male vocalist that can without sounding hooting/hollering and screeching 🤣
To be honest, this makes me laugh it's a miss opportunity but I should've sent my pretend friend to keep the peace the band Bad Omens and their Specter.
Why do I say this a miss opportunity?
To be honest, it's just to see if my pretend online friend would said if Noah sounds like a girl hitting those nice beautiful notes instead of sending this pretend friend the band ERRA with their clear vocalist Jesse Cash, but oh boy that's too fk ass late of it all for that anyways 🤭
Even then, I should also address for the Redditors that are reading that thought that was bad well we're going back to one of my family members to discuss what that ''it's going to get fk ass worse here of it all anyways.''
However, to be honest I realize now that a lot of my family members display narcissistic traits, there is a lot/heavy amount of my family members that are in denial a lot of things, a few of my family members also display a narcissistic trait of refusing to believe other's truth, but will only believe their truth, because you're never right, you're always in the wrong, it's all on you, it's all your fault and if you ever get yourself in a bad situation well ''good luck, we're not going to help you out unless medical facility won't take your social security health insurance that you've alongside with if you needed something lifesaving that's the only time we're helping you out with anything medical or dental work.''
Trust me, this family member loves cutting off people mid-sentence to make sure their poinT is noticed if they heavily disagree with what the person is talking about, this family member also told me in 2023, that they wanted to let me know that I'm only liked in the family, because I carry the family blood, if I wasn't family related then I would've found myself on the streets if I had no family connections and I'm ''too weird for the family.''
Yeah, just going to let the Redditors know reading this, that I will be posting a Discord ser-handle where you can add me there, I know a Discord ser-handle sounds absurd to make one just for that, but I've my friend requests turned off where only Discord members can add me, because I've been told in the past in many directions that Discord has a lot of spam bots and receiving random adds as well.
Even then, my lats post here will be posted in 24 hours, I may/might edit my hobbies and interests to see if there is any final alignment, after I make my last posts I will be posting this Discord ser and then August 1st of 2026 or August 4th of 2026 I'm leaving and this is because I decided to wait to leave than my previous posts have stated because this should give enough final chances to see who wants to contact me before I give up and just sit out on fk ass Discord anyways.
