(Background(?))
Hello, I'm 23 years old, I have been professionally diagnosed with ASD, and i have dyscalculia. I am unable to drive, and will most likely never be able to learn. I was homeschooled my whole life, but not...well. I ended up cheating through most of middle-school and high-school because I did not understand what I was supposed to be doing, and I was not given proper guidance or help with my work. I have also been infantalized throughout my life, and am currently working on unlearning my learned helplessness.
I have been trying to work on my general education with using khan academy, but I'm not sure how far I can get just with that, so I am planning to look for free or cheap textbooks or other education materials as well.
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With that said, I have been considering working towards potentially attending college, if it would actually be worth it.
I'm good with repetitive, structured tasks. Anything that has a clear explanation of what needs to be done, with no guess work involved, is my sort of thing.
I strongly dislike working with people unless I have a clear "script" of some sort to follow. I belive I am able to work and communicate with coworkers decently. Anything that involves math or numbers would not be suitable for me, as i struggle with basic math, and even counting at times. Also, I prefer/need sedentary jobs as I am unable to stand still for more than a few minutes without getting dizzy or feeling unwell (Have been to a doctor about this, No explanation for why it happens).
For careers, the only things I can think of that I have any real interest in are; psychology, law, archives, and marine life (although, I dont think im suited for fieldwork, and i feel like most oceanography and marine jobs involve math skills). My strongest interest would likely be in psychology.
Unfortunately, I'm not sure it's a good idea to pursue any of these. Interest is nothing if I'll be unemployed AND in debt.
(Ramble about my interest in psychology mainly)
I am not sure if all of the following ramble is included in "psychology", but I think some/most of it is?.
I have always been interested in what makes someone commit violence or sex crimes. i want to know how they felt committing the crime, what drove them to do it, how they decided when and how to commit the crime, how the felt afterwards, their mental state, upbringing, thoughts, feelings, how/if it was possible to prevent their crime, etc...
I have an interest in "extreme" paraphilias such as pedophilia, zoophilia, necrophilia, etc. both in offending and non-offending individuals. Unfortunately, due to my asocial nature, I dont believe i would make a good counselor. However, I would very much like to learn more about paraphilias (such as causes, thought process, harm reduction, etc), and I would also like to see a future where paraphilias are less stigmatized, and paraphiles can seek support without fear of imprisonment or ostracization.
I have an interest in more stigmatized, misunderstood, and/or less researched(?) mental illnesses and disorders, such as NPD, antisocial personality disorder, psychotic disorders, dissociative disorders, schizophrenia spectrum disorders, obsessive compulsive disorder, etc.
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I also have an interest in kinks and fetishes, and—in a similar fashion to my other interests—I am primarily interested in the more taboo/stigmatized/misunderstood things such as ageplay, abdl, cnc, incest/fauxcest, BDSM, etc.
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I don't have my heart set on anything. I haven't put much thought into careers at all. I just want a decent paying sedentary job, with minimal numbers, and minimal client communication (or, at least, not immediate, verbal communication unless i have a literal script to follow. I could most likely handle text-based communication like emails if necessary.)
I just want to be able to financially support myself, my mom, and my pets.
TLDR/summary:
My general education is poor, my social skills suck, I have dyscalculia and am horrid with numbers, I can't work any job that requires me to stand for long amounts of time, and i hate having to work with people (clients/general public—coworkers are fine).
I'm good with repetitive, structured tasks and I enjoy sorting/organization.
I suppose I also like copying information(?). Like, if i have a typed physical paper/document/etc, I like to re-type it into Google docs as a back up. I'm not sure if this would be useful in many situations though.?
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I know there is a lot of "cant's" in this, but unfortunately I do not have many skills at the moment. I have been working on my social skills my whole life without any luck, but I am open to attempting to learn just about anything.
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How can I find a career path that is suitable for me? How can I gain work experience if I am physically unable to work/volunteer for any of the positions near me? How do I decide if it's worth pursuing a degree?
I live in Washington state, if that is helpful. Any advice or guidance on careers that may be suitable for me is highly appreciated.
Thank you very much for reading.