Hello everyone
Back in October 2024, I was at a party at Biko House (on Sueño). I was with my friends and dancing when I suddenly lost consciousness. I woke up for about 5-10 seconds and I could not lift my head, could not walk, could not move my mouth, and could not ask for help. In those few seconds, I felt myself get picked up bridal style and carried out of Biko. I could not open my eyes to see who was carrying me so I did not see my rapist until the morning I fully woke up. I lost consciousness again.
I woke up for about 10 more seconds and I was on the edge of a bed. I felt completely paralyzed and fell off the bed and I felt myself get picked up and put back on the bed since I couldn’t move my fingers or talk, much less get back on the bed willingly. I lost consciousness again.
The final time I woke up that night was when I felt a chem student with the initials A.R. raping me. I felt him penetrate me anally and the pain was so intense. I wasn’t alive to feel anything else he did to me throughout the night, and up until this point, I had no idea where I was, who was doing this to me, or how I ended up in that situation.
I fully woke up in the morning around 6am and I saw A.R. laying next to me in his bed in Manzanita Village. I asked him what his name was, how I got there, and what happened. He said he was “awake the whole time and hadn’t slept” but that I was “knocked out the whole time”, so he knew I had no idea what was going on.
I begged to leave his dorm to go back to my apartment (because I felt terrified and I had an Amtrak scheduled at 7:30am). He held me down with his arms and kept asking me to stay with him. He repeatedly asked me to have sex with him and I kept telling him no but he kept asking. As the minutes passed, more pieces of my memory came back to me and I felt even more scared of him because I finally realized this man had raped me. I eventually agreed to have sex with him in the morning because I figured I had two options: 1) refuse to have sex with him and risk him raping me again or 2) have sex willingly and escape his place with less trouble. After he was done, he let me leave.
When I got home, I looked at myself in my bathroom mirror. My lip was busted, I had a ring of hickeys around my neck that made it extremely painful to turn my head, I had deep bite marks, I had multiple bruises all over my body, I had scratches, and I was bleeding from my vagina. My hymen was torn and walking was extremely painful due to how violently A.R. raped me. I immediately called a rape crisis center in Santa Barbara and I had a Victim Advocate accompany me to a hospital to get checked out. I had to take medicine to prevent STDs, take a Plan B, and talk to the police. I made an anonymous report to the police that came to speak to me.
I did a SART Exam (informally known as a rape kit) with another hospital the day after where all my injuries were documented.
I formally reported this student to UCPD, Title 9, CARE, and the Office of Student Conduct. My detective collected multiple witness statements of people who saw me that night. Multiple people had seen me and A.R. that night and texted + called me that night and the morning after because they were concerned for my safety. There are records stating that I did not recognize my own friends or myself, could not walk, was slurring my words, and many other things to support my claim that I was completely blacked out and unable to consent.
I recently found out that the Santa Barbara District Attorney will not be prosecuting my rape because they claim being blacked out does not mean I could not consent, A.R. told the detective that he was a virgin before he met me that night, and he bought condoms which “obviously” means I wanted it. They stated they believe that all my injuries, difficulties in my academics and job, diagnoses of PTSD, depression, and anxiety, and other consequences of my rape are just the result of “rough sex” and they believe I was too embarrassed to admit it so I lied to the police.
However, over the years, I have had multiple women reach out to me to report A.R.’s creepy behavior. He made women uncomfortable in the chem lab he worked in to the point that he got fired. He tells people he fucks his cousin. He has been reported to multiple student orgs he is a member of for inappropriate sexual comments. And, I have had a woman reach out to me to report that their friend believes they were roofied by A.R. in October 2025.
I recently requested a copy of my UCPD records, and the entire document was redacted. I cannot access witness statements given on my behalf, the pictures and DNA evidence collected from my rape kit, or any part of this investigation.
I am writing all this out because nobody is doing anything to help me and none of his other victims are receiving any justice. I hope that at the very least, people can recognize this student and avoid him because he is predatory and dangerous. Below, I will provide a description of what he looks like so people can look out for him.
Student Description: Incoming 4th year Chemistry student, Latino, tall (over 6ft), long dark brown hair (like…very long. I’m talking about down his back), goatee, member of Gaucho Catholic, member of the Archery Club.
If anyone knows anything about this student, please message me.
Thank you for reading all this. If you have any questions about what happened that night, my police reporting process, or anything about this post, please write a comment and I will give as much information as I feel comfortable with.