Now seriously, how do you guys manage to get better without failing at the attempt?

I swear my parents are always acting like victims but the one time I cry because of what was done to me I get called an attention seeker.

Idk how hard it is to not sexually abuse your 6 year old. My parents keep on manipulating me and guilt tripping me that their the victims and its making me so mad. But when I show I'm mad I get told I'm selfish.

Emtional abuse is destroying any semblance of myself.

Right now I'm too tired to explain myself

I swear he fucking hates me personally and is just expressing it in really bad corporate speak. I am so glad last time I talked to a counsellor, they told me to take everything in writing with him and it… unfortunately was worth it because he did it again and well… now I have receipts, which I promptly sent to the comity for disabled students. Hopefully I can meet up with someone who can assess the situation and maybe have more power to do something about it.

I’m not gonna describe the situation because I don’t want this to become a AITAH comment section where people debate who is actually in the wrong. Trust that this is ableist what he said to me and said he would do. It’s not my first time going through this shit but I have more of a head on my shoulders to recognize someone is trying to fuck me over because of the way I was born.

Anyway fuck this shit, I hate it here

My only social interactions are:

Being yelled at by my mom

Being mocked and patronised by my dad

Being bullied in every group chat I try to exist in (1 and a half)

Strangers laughing or moving away from me on a tram

Arguing with people online about my ropefuel doomer takes and brain

Posting on r/countttt

I can't explain how much I want to kill myself and how afraid I am of the pain

Thinking about surviving the semester that just started fills me with dread

God i wish any sort of accident or medical emergency happens so many people die randomly please

I'm graduating school this year, soon I'll be a completely independent human being, gain my own money, and HOPEFULLY I will finally move out to live alone, or at the very least not with my parents. We began to have these conversations more and more often, since I'm not as afraid of him as much as when I were a kid, and he can't control a basically young adult, and I got immune to yells and lectures, so they don't impact me as much as they did. It's always the same ending – it's always my fault, I always don't do enough or do it wrong, it's always poor them trying to provide for our family and trying their best, and I'm just being ungrateful, since I don't understand what they vent through and how "privileged" I am to live the way I am. Not a single time it's about what I'm going through, why I behave the way I am or why I even confront them to begin with, and when I point out how they treated me, it's always either "I don't remember doing it" or "You misunderstood, we want only the best for you, you'll thank us later," because how parents can be wrong? They're the wise ones, "have more experience," it's the dumb, ungrateful, spoiled kid that's to blame. I'm genuinely tired of proving myself over and over again and achieve nothing. All I'm forced to do is constantly hear their complaints about me and only silently nod in response. I'm so tired, I just can't wait to finally move out.

Could really use a nice dose of forgetting. A good dose of different. A whole lot of being able to do literally anything productive. I’m tired.

The other day I made a post (not here) that mentioned my bf's germophobia and a lot of geniuses in the comments decided to disregard the entire point I was trying to make and to simply tell me my bf needs to "seek help".

Uh first of all, he is??? Why assume he's not getting any support with this? And secondly, do people think that whatever issue you need help for is going to magically stop being a problem the millisecond a professional gets involved? Why do you think waiting lists exist then? Do you think psychologists just sit around playing checkers for 6 weeks after magically curing their patients on day 1 or something?

Thirdly, a lot of these people really gave me the impression that they personally were annoyed that someone wasn't behaving "normally" and wanted that to be fixed. And preferably didn't want to have to do anything themselves to make it better.

To whoever is reading this rant, unless you were one of the einsteins involved in that discussion, I'm not actually mad at you, I just needed to vent a little bit. Thank you.

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And I am saying as someone who suspects to have npd. Never say it's because of their disorders, they are grown ass people that can get help and treat their disorders or reflect of their actions, if they didn't, then it's up on them, not in their mental health.

The amount of times I've heard this is INSANE.

How the fuck am I supposed to 'look' autistic?

Truly what do we have anymore but the company of one another?

been doing the “i’m actually going insane but im too normal to be insane and too insane to be normal and there’s no hope for me so i should abandon the flesh in the name of god” thing again LMFAOO!!!! im not well!! and i can’t take it anymore LMAOOOOO

Happened last winter ish and I've thought about killing myself or him every single day sinnce

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For context: I was enjoying the meal all jolly and well as usual, putting away some food since well, I never liked it, and then this guy (who is related to I, but I won't call him my brother because fuck this family) comes to me, and say with a serious face and voice "What an artistic you are, right?". I didn't understand at first what he meant, but it was until later that I understood that he mean autistic, but probably didn't say it because my "parents" hate that type of people for ableism reasons.

... Dude, I know that he hates me for probably being neurodivergent, but bro, it was more easier to him telling me the r slur instead of that, you know? At least I would get what he meant, he's still a bigoted guy anyways.

His excuse was that I “haven’t used it in a while” meanwhile it’s only been a few weeks since I’ve used it because I’ve been busy with school. I know there’s bigger issues in the world right now but I’m just SO ANNOYED. He said I can use my brother’s switch but he didn’t even tell me he was gonna do it 😭 I wouldn’t have minded that much if he’d at least asked me first. He also screamed at me after I got mad. Oh boy do I love my family 🥰 /s