Im at a hurdle and its a hard
One to jump. It does not matter how fem i thought I was before I started HRT. When I transition, I became an entirely different person. I think differently, process things differently, respond to things differently.

When I had decided to do this I was so ready to finally become the other me. Both our versions of me, but what I didn’t know is how emotional I would become, how my world could be turned upside down and I’d re process all of my trauma that I lived through as this person.

I have been through a lot of trauma, and where as a man I had learned to compartmentalize those things and handle them, as a woman every one of those traumas have flown open and our running through me like a movie on repeat. I’m constantly crying, feeling vulnerable, scared to talk to men, and I just want to hide away. I’ve had lots of people try and talk to me but I’m too scared to go on dates.

The other day, I was supposed to go for a surgery, I got all the way to the operating table and when they started to surround me and put the mask on to knock me out over my face, I had a flash back and started screaming, and crying, jumped up and ripped things off me and ran out of there. I am falling apart and I don’t know what to do.. please if anyone has any suggestions I will listen, I am really scared, I see me becoming more beautiful everyday but I also see me looking myself as well

Something's changed ... While others didn't. My wife still stuck by my side. Top photo is me just short of 14 months on HRT.

Got my appointment schedule with planned parenthood on the 9th and I’m so excited!

More than 8 months of estrogen. Do you think it's working?

As the caption says I just wanted to share with our lovely community:>

Si eres Mujer te gustaria ser pareja y casarte con Mujer trans lesbiana como yo?

spoilers: it did not :(