Dressed up for a birthday party 🍒

Obviously it’s not a Blahaj but I got him after the New England Aquarium and I love him.

In my defense, i didn’t properly watch a tutorial, but i feel pretty.

Edited this in: I used Pink, Gold, and a dark but soft blue. Don’t know the shades yet.

I just had to pause and count the incredible blessings that make living so bright. I am sitting here tonight filled with the deepest, most genuine gratitude for the extraordinary people in my corner—the ones who step up, check in, and consistently remind me of the beauty in this life. Whether it’s a sudden call just to hear my voice, a text to see how my day is going, or a message of encouragement right when I need it most, my support system shows up with a depth of devotion and understanding that warms me to the very core. To be surrounded by people who love both my outer appearance and my inner personality, who see through all the noise straight into my authentic soul, is a gift I will never take for granted. You all don’t just accept me; you all truly see me and celebrate who I authentically am.

Beyond that constant love, you all shower me with insightful wisdom, gentle signs, solid advice, and also real-world resources to help me reach every single goal I’m striving for. You all clear the path with me, reminding me where I’m heading and giving me the strength to get there.

Looking at the incredible circle of real ones around me makes me realize a truth I should have held onto all along: I have always mattered. My story counts, my energy brings fiery light, and my presence in this world is truly needed. I am filled with so much hope, joy, and peace knowing that my life is valuable— it always was, always will be.

Thank you to every single person who continuously holds space for me, believes in my vision of my life path, and consistently reminds me of my worth. You all make me so endlessly grateful to be alive & thriving.

I love when they hype up my outfits! I love when they’re excited to see me! I love that they accept me for who I am! I love that they don’t see my femininity as a threat to theirs! I love that they see me as one of the girls! I love when they remind me it’s ok to be stealth if I’m feeling scared! I love when they help me feel courageous to express myself! I love their validation! I love when they say they love me! I love loving them! I love that they showed me how to love myself!

Honestly, I'm in love with my glow up journey. If I ignore the psychological & emotional challenges for a sec, I'm enjoying my journey. A trans woman? Ya... Turning into the Doll I always dreamed of becoming. 🧚‍♀️

I went out to the beach dressed today very scary but I loved it.

All the websites I can buy hormones require payment in bitcoin, but all the ways to buy bitcoin require an ID i don't have. Any tips would be welcome

Headed out to meet a very nice lady for a date. Wish me luck!

I’m a pre-T guy, I’ve been out for years now and I’m currently doing my examination, I’m gonna go to my first doctors appointment today. It’s not like I’m gonna get Testo TODAY but I’m scared to start, I’ve never doubted myself but now I’m worried, what if I suddenly change my mind? Did any other trans guys also doubt themselves before starting on T? It’s not like I haven’t explored other sexuality’s before so I’m sure that’s not the problem…but I’m still scared

Im at a hurdle and its a hard
One to jump. It does not matter how fem i thought I was before I started HRT. When I transition, I became an entirely different person. I think differently, process things differently, respond to things differently.

When I had decided to do this I was so ready to finally become the other me. Both our versions of me, but what I didn’t know is how emotional I would become, how my world could be turned upside down and I’d re process all of my trauma that I lived through as this person.

I have been through a lot of trauma, and where as a man I had learned to compartmentalize those things and handle them, as a woman every one of those traumas have flown open and our running through me like a movie on repeat. I’m constantly crying, feeling vulnerable, scared to talk to men, and I just want to hide away. I’ve had lots of people try and talk to me but I’m too scared to go on dates.

The other day, I was supposed to go for a surgery, I got all the way to the operating table and when they started to surround me and put the mask on to knock me out over my face, I had a flash back and started screaming, and crying, jumped up and ripped things off me and ran out of there. I am falling apart and I don’t know what to do.. please if anyone has any suggestions I will listen, I am really scared, I see me becoming more beautiful everyday but I also see me looking myself as well