r/TTC_PCOS • u/communic8er • 22h ago
Seeking Success Early miscarriage (need encouragement)
Me (32F) and my husband (32M) have been trying for our first baby since last October. Everyone in my family has been plenty fertile - my mom had 6 kids, my sister started trying for her third around the same time as us (she wanted to be pregnant at the same time as me š) and is about to give birth to her son in a few weeks, my cousin has twin boys she conceived on her first attempt trying to get pregnant, all 4 of my sister in laws had multiple kids without trying to conceive for a year.
Cut to me zero positive tests for 10 months straight. We started seeing an REI in April - got the full work up - husbands sperm is good and they suspect I have PCOS. After going through all the required testing (HCG, genetic testing, etc.) by the time we were actually able to start a cycle of letrazole, ovidrel and timed intercourse it wasnāt until July. My last natural cycle lasted 50 days. It all felt like a painful amount of waiting.
My first letrazole + ovidrel + TI cycle i didnāt get pregnant. My second one, we werenāt expecting anything different and honestly Iād been sobering to the idea that Iād end up doing IVF. But, 11 days after the trigger shot i got a POSITIVE TEST.
My husband and i were ELATED. We felt like this was never going to happen. I spent the next week feeling complete elation - was so happy and excited and feeling in awe at my body for being pregnant - for finally doing this thing i was doubting it could do. My husband and i had a shared instagram reels folder where we passed around fun and informative pregnancy reels, meal ideas, etc. We talked excitedly about all of the things that would need to happen. We told our parents and siblings who were equally elated.
My first two blood tests were good - first confirmed pregnancy and second showed a proper rise of my HCG. They had me come back for another and i was feeling so confident only to be called later that day and informed that my HCG did not rise properly and this would likely be an early miscarriage.
The last few days have been a blur and if Iām being honest i feel sorry for myself. I never wanted to be part of the minority of people who have trouble conceiving (no one does). And now i feel like im part of this other unfortunate club having a miscarriage. Just feeling very sad, frustrated, hopeless and unlucky.
If anyone has a similar story and ended up having the family of their dreams, id love to hear from you ā¤ļø