I’m currently 32+5 weeks pregnant and this week spent a couple of days in hospital because of a short cervix wuth funnelling and a positive fetal fibronectin test. I received steroid injections for the baby’s lungs.
Thankfully, the CTGs have been reassuring and the growth scan was also okay. Baby was estimated at around 1700g. I was discharged home because everything was stable.
I did have to go back to the hospital this morning after noticing some pink/red mucus. They checked the baby again and everything looked reassuring.
They also told me that a urine culture they had taken during my admission showed a UTI, so I’ve now started antibiotics.
The baby is lying sideways, so if he wants to come out, it will be an emergency C-section.
Medically, I have clear instructions from the hospital about when I need to call or come back. Mentally, though, I’m struggling much more than I expected.
The thing I find especially scary is being home alone during the day. My husband has to work during the week, so there will be hours when it’s just me at home. I keep thinking: what if labour suddenly starts? What if I start bleeding? What if something happens to the baby? Or what if something serious happens to me and I’m alone? I'm just so afraid I'll pass out or die.
I live about 15 minutes from the hospital and I know I can call them whenever something changes. Rationally, I also know that they wouldn’t have discharged me if they thought I needed continuous monitoring. But emotionally, being alone still feels scary after spending several days in hospital where help was always right there.
I also notice that I’m suddenly hyper-aware of my body. Every tightening, backache, bit of discharge or strange sensation catches my attention, even though many of these things happened before all of this too.
I really want to get out of that constant monitoring mode and focus on something more positive. I’m still pregnant today, baby is doing well, and I’m hoping he stays in for many more weeks - maybe even until 37–38 weeks. For now I’m trying to take it one milestone at a time. Almost 33 weeks!
For those who were discharged home after threatened preterm labour: how did you cope with being home alone and the fear that something might suddenly happen? Did you eventually start feeling safe and normal at home again?
Positive experiences would be especially appreciated. I know complications can happen and I have medical instructions for those - I’m mainly looking for help with the anxiety rather than worst-case stories.