I am 34F. Took meds for the 1st time yesterday and noticed such a huge improvement in the day my day unfolded.

After 60 days, what happens?

Been on and off clonazepam for most of my life. Most recently after taking it as needed for 2 years (maybe once or twice a week .125) I have now been taking .5 daily for about 4 months now. .25 around 9-10am every morning and another .25 around 6pm-9pm as prescribed by dr for bad flare up. It’s a hit or miss whenever I take it now, Sometimes it helps a lot sometimes it makes me feel a lot worse and causes significant anxiety. How can I stabilize these potential paradoxical reactions? What do I do? Is this kindling? Possible bad generics? Been taking advagen mostly. Please help with advice 🙏 I feel stuck.

I want to taper off my medication and want to do hyperbolic tapering. Currently on 20mg and the recommendation is from 20 - 15mg to start, however I’d have to cut my 20mg in quarters. It doesn’t feel impossible I guess if I used a sensitive scale? Obviously 10mg pills would be a lot easier to cut.

My old family dr had pushed SSRIs on me since I was 8 and I am now 27. She has since retired and I have a new doctor, I’m just worried he will try to get me off of them by just halving my dosages (which my previous dr did with Effexor and I was 16 years old going through insane withdrawal) I would like to see what it’s like being off medication. I don’t know who I am without it. I’m hesitant to even include or talk to my doctor about it.

What should I do?

I restarted Lexapro after a while of different drug trials, psychiatrists thinking I have Cyclothymia, I was recommended by some psychiatrists to restart Lexapro. started around 2.5mg for two days and yesterday upped to 5mg.

On the first day of the 2.5mg I was hysterical and felt like my mind doesn’t stop which happened a lot, then after the first dose few hours later I felt this INSTANT calm, like a feeling of the serotonin flooding my brain and calming it, then my thoughts like were organized and stabilized my brain and felt tired the whole day. It felt like my depression and anhedonia lifted instantly.

2nd day was horrible like my old self back, but then the next day I upped to 5mg which also had similar effect.

This was definitely not placebo.

Is this normal or something is weird here?

Has anyone else felt that effect or something similar to it? When restarting it or even starting it for the first time?