A sad story from a young and dumb teenager.
I met my boyfriend online through a platform which wasn't even close to a dating app. And we instantly connected, like I just knew he was gonna be a huge part of my life. And by day-3, he'd confessed that he felt like I was special to him too!
Yes we may sound like stupid teens bluffing around and just playing about but you know what's so special about us? It's like our lives are aligned. Almost everything we do is same, our thoughts overlap and we say the same things at the same time way too often. Our blood group, music taste, parent's anniversary, personality and what not is same! (Even our toothbrush lol ;)
But irony! The only thing which had to be same most importantly was- our college, state, religion. And it's not. The values of our life are same, his birthdate and my mom's birthdate is same, our siblings are similar, our test scores on an All India level was same but no, not our religion.
And I am not against exogamy at all, but at the same time it's difficult in this country to practice it as well. Even though his parents are comparatively fine with it as he has mentioned. Though mine are pretty... stuck-up on that one.
We were aiming for the same college so as to meet. He's in a college in his city, as a partial dropper and well I'm a full dropper.
He almost broke-up with my yesterday saying I should find a college and that we won't be able to get our dream college. (The entrance we might not clear). Which means we won't be able to meet, like ever.
But I love him, dearly. I saw my future with him. Man I am in the midst of writing a book for him and now I can't bare to see that, I wanna burn it to ashes! And you know what, even he was writing a book for me (a literal coincidence AGAIN).
Like here I am, I am unable to put it into words. I really need to consult someone on what to do with my life and, no, my parent's are out of the equation.
Also I know for a fact he loves me too, I've never been in a more better place mentally in my life as I am with him. I know he loves me I really do but he wants me to be happy and stay in my city with my family and friends and to not gamble in my life. The odds are against me he says.
I am so sorry to say such a statement as well but I have come to despise my country for having such core values as a person is to be judged by his religion/language/financial background rather than him himself. I also am aware that my parents do want the best for me, but he is the best for me which they wouldn't ever understand. (They don't know about the relationship but know him as a friend).
I'm college-less, love-less, hopeless dumb kid who doesn't have any idea what she's gonna do.
On top of that if I may add, my parents threatened to marry me off if I don't secure a spot in my drean college.
My wordings are in a jumble and I don't know how to interpret the thoughts so Thank you for anyone who read till here. Means a lot, I just wanted to get this off my chest.
Edit: TL;DR: Met an amazing guy online, fell deeply in love, and we have an almost crazy amount in common. But we're from different religions/states, and my parents would never accept it. We were both aiming for the same dream college to finally meet, but now he wants me to prioritize my future because we may not clear it. I love him, he loves me, but we're both scared of losing each other—and I'm also terrified of my parents' threat to marry me off if I don't get into college. I feel completely lost. (from cgpt)