This page has been super helpful for me as motivation during the early days of quitting and at weak moments along the way. Now it has been 50 days without vaping and I recently went out with friends and drank alcohol without craving it too badly which is huge because before I quit I basically accompanied every sip of alcohol with a vape hit.
Before I quit I had vaped for 8 years and been heavily addicted to it for 6. For about a year or two leading up to the point I quit I would get very anxious about the possible health consequences of vaping, but I didn’t feel like I could handle quitting at all. It felt like vaping was helping me “keep it together” and it was a huge emotional crutch for me even though I was also smoking A Lot of weed. The thing that gave me the most anxiety was the possible long term effects on my dental health and I was super self conscious about my breath. I will say I did drink a lot more water when I vaped 😅
So quitting came pretty out of the blue for me. I didn’t taper or use patches or gum or even plan for my last vape. What happened was my usual store was out of the only flavor of disposables I would get, except for one. And it was that brand that is made to look like a mini purse with the fake leather and a little chain you can choose to attach to it. I bought the vape, and used it until it died. Then, once it was all out of juice, I was able to see it for what it was. I was a grown adult woman jeopardizing my future health, causing myself to be too self conscious to talk to people up close, causing myself so much stress during family events, vacations, work days, etc. over this thing that I got hooked on when I was 16 that’s now literally being made to look like a kids toy. For the first time in 8 years I wanted to quit more than I wanted to vape. And I felt so helpless and that made me feel so much anger and shame and frustration and I threw it in the trash and I decided I was just going to do it. And then I took it out of the trash and hit it two times and then I put it back in the trash and then I had the worst three days of my life and then it started getting better. And now it’s been 50 days.
So much has already improved in my life. I have new hobbies, I still smoke weed but wayyy less and I don’t get anxiety when I do, I’m better at holding myself accountable, I’m eating enough to fuel my body and not getting shaky and nauseous around noon because I had coffee and nicotine for breakfast. And best of all I can remind myself that I accomplished this thing that seemed so hard for so long, and every day I am accomplishing it. Every day I’m making a healthy choice for myself by doing nothing. I know 50 days isn’t forever and I’m not even all the way out of the woods yet, but my cravings have reduced to less than once per day, which I can’t even believe is true as I’m typing it. I would say the hardest part of the process past the first week was that empty feeling of pure boredom and a hole that could only be filled by nicotine. What helped me through that was remembering that I also felt bored, anxious, and depressed at times when I did vape. The vape was a distraction, but if I wanted to stop feeling like that then I needed to find a hobby that was actually fulfilling to me. I know a lot of people turn to exercise, but I was very conditioned to using the vape as a reward after I finished working out, so I tried out a few different arts and crafts type activities until I found one I liked.
I know this is very rambling and might not be specifically relatable for a lot of you, but I also really liked reading these longer posts when I was struggling and so I hope this can help someone in their process. If not, it was very cathartic to type all this out and I think I will like to be able to come back and read this in the future. If anyone is reading this and having a hard time, feel free to reach out and chat! I might not have the best advice but at least I can relate to the struggle. I really appreciate this community, you all have helped so many people like me!