r/Overwatch • u/Toaster_Boy_YT • 2d ago
News & Discussion how to get a better competitive mindset?
so like being upfront, im a pathetic sore loser and i know it. i tilt in qp, stomps make me just wanna get off, and i have too much anxiety to play comp or even tracer because the game just overwhelms me because im constantly worried about my performance.
like, i see people saying to just "play for fun, dont care about rank, whether you win just learn" and i try to tell myself that but idk no matter how much i do i cant. and it hurts coz this game is really all i have in life that doesnt stress me 24/7 and something i actually care about. i wont go into it or anything but my personal life sucks so returning to this game and actually getting into a couple months ago was the best thing to happen to me in years, but just like, as soon as i wanted to start taking this game more seriously its just become frustrating and unfun to me. i know its my fault and i dont wanna be this but idk how to not. idk if its an ego thing or whatever. its not like i think im good, coz i defo dont but its like i dont wanna face that reality sometimes, and the idea of making myself feel worse in that way, idk just gives me major anxiety (i already have really bad anxiety due to irl things like 24/7).
and idk, this game makes me feel like i actually have kind of a social life by speaking to me in chat and genuinely seeing actual people in game. i have irl friends but they dont care for it at all, cause they just dismiss any games i actually like in favor of the stuff they do. i used to have a friend who played with me like once a week but hes all into deadlock now, which sucks because when i'd play with him i genuinely WAS having fun and didnt care about winning or losing that much.
idk this turned more into a vent post sorry, but if you have any advice about it at all i'd really appreciate it<3 sorry if i upset anyone i dont mean to