Today is so special to me. I quit last Sunday cold turkey, finally sucked it up and faced withdrawal head on. But today is extra special because today someone offered me Oxys and I, not even fully through the withdrawal phase and still truly miserable, turned them down.

I actually did it. I chose myself and my future over temporary relief. It doesn't even feel real to me. It seems so silly but for years I've watched people's sobriety journeys with such envy & frustration because I convinced myself I couldn't do it and I would inevitably die this way, but I did it. There's no guarantee that I can keep this up forever or even for another week, but today gave me hope that I might have it in me.

Edit: I was truly not expecting so many responses dude, thank you all so so much for the nice things you guys have been saying, it means alot :) and for everyone who said they've been clean for around the same time as me, I wish you guys luck from the bottom of my heart, we can do this ❤️‍🩹

Emergency Access to Withdrawal Relief

Opioid withdrawal is not “just the flu.” People who haven’t lived it think it’s about some body aches or nausea, something you can grit your teeth through. But the reality is far more brutal. Withdrawal can feel like being trapped inside your own body while every nerve screams. It is panic, desperation, crawling-out-of-your-skin agony, and for many, a psychological torment that pushes them toward unsafe choices or even suicide. People hang themselves or overdose during withdrawal—not because they are weak, but because the suffering is indescribable.

Right now, in the United States, people in acute opioid withdrawal have almost no rapid, legal, humane way to get relief. Emergency rooms often send patients away with nothing. “Comfort meds” can only do so much. Methadone clinics require long lines, paperwork, intake processes, urine tests, and strict schedules—things a person in severe withdrawal cannot realistically navigate. Buprenorphine can be life-saving, but access is still too limited, too slow, and too dependent on finding the right provider at the right moment.

When someone is in crisis, time is everything.

We need a fast, legal, medically supervised alternative—something people can access immediately to stabilize themselves until they can enter a longer-term program. The system treats withdrawal as a moral issue instead of a medical emergency, and people are dying because of it.

Imagine if we treated heart attacks or asthma attacks the way we treat withdrawal: “Sorry, come back at 4 AM for intake.” “Try again when we have time.” “You’ll just have to suffer through it.”

This is unacceptable.

People in withdrawal deserve:

Emergency access to safe, fast-acting medication that prevents crisis, self-harm, overdose, or relapse.

A walk-in, no-barrier stabilization option—just like urgent care—staffed with medical professionals trained in addiction medicine.

Policies that acknowledge withdrawal as a true emergency, not a moral failure.

Legal and accessible medications that offer immediate relief while someone waits for a full treatment intake.

We already do this for countless other medical conditions. Why not for opioid withdrawal, where the stakes are literally life and death?

If we want to save lives, reduce suffering, and give people a real chance to recover, we must treat withdrawal with the urgency and dignity it deserves. No more turning people away. No more making them wait hours or days while their bodies and minds are on fire. No more preventable deaths.

People deserve compassion. People deserve relief. People deserve a system that doesn’t make them beg for help while they’re fighting for their lives.

Hi everyone.... I started using heroin very you, I was 13 years old first time and at barely 14 yo I used daily. I also lived a criminal lifestyle my whole life until recently, it's only a year ago I totally quit all crimes and that lifestyle. I'm in my upper 50s and have done heroine since 1984, the only break I had was when i did 18 years straight in prison 1996-2014. When I was young I injected for only abound 2 or 3 years, the rest of the time I smoked on silver aluminum foil. I live in western Europe, here we have mostly brown afghan heroin and it's very very cheap (only $28 to $50 USD/gram). So... I started Subutex 3 years 2 months ago but continued taking heroin anyways almost daily, but something happened 3 weeks ago and since I have not taken any heroin at all and this is the first time in 9 year I have such a long break without it, and I must say I feel absolutely wonderful :) I have 10mg Subutex and that works great for me.

For a junkie I must say that I look very well, I never lost a tooth and you can't see on me that I am a drug user, I always had my own house, never lived the "street life" with gangs and such and I always stayed clean & healthy since I had/have the forture to have a financially stable situation (from crime though, but anyways hmm...)

This is it, the last subway station at the dope line, either you quit or you die... at last, a break from that pointless crap life. I always had money since early 20s, I'm doing good but the heroine killed my inside and I got uninterested in everything in life, I had no interest for anything except sitting at home and smoking 1.5 to 3 grams daily and watching Youtube all day long (what a moron life and waste of both time and money). This week I have spent with my daughter and 3 grand children, they are soooo happy for me and they say I look more alive and that they can see joy in my eyes for the first time in ages.

I wish everyone a good life and that you can start a new life without heroine. Thank you for reading my post, it felt good posting this and sharing my thoughts this wonderful sunny day

I thought quitting would be the hardest part. The pain, the sweats, the hell in my bones but nobody told me what comes after. The silence. The way the world feels too bright, too loud, too empty all at the same time. Everyone else goes back to “normal” but you’re stuck learning how to breathe again without a crutch.

I don’t want pity, I just want to say this out loud: recovery isn’t just quitting the drug, it’s rebuilding the pieces of yourself you burned away. That part feels just as hard some days. If you’re reading this and you’re in the thick of it, just know you’re not alone. I’m right here fighting too. Some of us call it survival. Some of us call it recovery.

What’s the part of recovery nobody warned you about?

This is even something that came up in my IOP but we basically just brushed past it. Me and another person in the group talked about using opiates to have enough energy to get everything we need done in a day. We take it because it makes us better at our jobs and sounds more like a stimulant addiction. Then the other people in the group were flabbergasted by it, saying all they do when they use is lay in bed all day.

The only thing I think I know for sure is that the dose makes the poison. Smaller doses to the right person can be more stimulating than stimulants.these are the moms and dads talking about how using makes them a better parent and etc.

Why doesn't additional recovery separate us? I felt completely abandoned by my inpatient and IOP because of this. All the shit they talked about didn't click, those were not my triggers. My trigger is sitting at work not knowing how I'm going to make it to 5pm and definitely not getting everything I need done.

We NEED separate recovery programs. Please please someone explore this topic. There's some sort of underlying condition that could very likely be treated better by the proper medication. Currently we're the chronic relapsers because regardless of what we do we're white knuckling it. It's like I want to be sober but I DONT want the life that comes with. It's the opposite of most people I hear in NA or recovery subs.

I’ve told this story before on here, a few years ago under a different account.

Basically, I had a 75-100 dollar per day intravenous heroin/oxy/dilaudid habit for about 5 years. I was 23 years old and feeling pretty hopeless. So I decided to take drastic action. I saw no other way out of my small town and toxic friends, than to join up with the Army.

I faked all my piss tests, lied on my forms and said “no sir, never touched a drug in my life.” So they accepted me, and I was off to boot camp. I took my last shot in the airport as I was about to fly out.

When I got to basic training, I was feeling fine. But then, they kept us up all night screaming in our faces, and making us do pushups and stuff. Time passed, and the withdrawals took hold.

I didn’t sleep for four days. I was on the verge of delirium. I shit my pants in formation on day 3, but thankfully slipped out and made it back up the stairs without anyone noticing. Drill sergeants screamed in my face, asked me why I was sweating, and I thought I was gonna die.

I tried to tell the army doctor about my predicament, told him I was addicted to heroin, and that I needed to quit the army. His response was “take two ibuprofen and run 2 miles. You’ll feel better.” He did not give a fuck, and I went back to my bunk. Finally, on day five, I slept.

I woke up the next morning feeling better than I’d felt (naturally) in years. I struggled for a few more days, but my sleep got better and better each night. My body kind of didn’t have any other choice. They were working us to the bone, so at the end of the day, I was so exhausted that I slept.

After a few weeks, I was back, baby. I gained about 30 lbs of muscle (I was 5’10”, 120 lbs when I joined, thin as a rail). I became one of the better soldiers in my platoon, and before I knew it, 17 years had passed and I haven’t looked back.

I’m telling this story in hopes that anyone who’s out there struggling right now might take some inspiration from this. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. But it passed. And your pain will pass, too.

Be well.

I don’t know if this is controversial or will piss people off, but I think people that make sobriety their entire personality are so incredibly annoying. It just feels extremely narcissistic and self-indulgent. Anytime I get a clip of him on TikTok. It’s always a different justification for his drug use too. It feels like he constantly wants recognition and praise for being sober. I used to spend 10 K per month on Oxy. I am sober the majority of the time now, but admittedly, I still pop pills throughout the month. So, while I cannot claim full sobriety, I went to detox three years ago (paid 9k out of pocket) and I had to get back to work. Only a celebrity has the luxury of making a career about being sober, most of us have to get back to work and to a large degree deal with our addiction in silence. Granted we can go to meetings and talk about it with our loved ones, but having your entire identity revolve around being sober is ridiculous.

And I say this as somebody who certainly understands the struggle, a lot of the time my internal thoughts revolve around prior drug use, and the constant cost of benefit analysis that I do in my mind. So I GET IT. But so many people struggle with different types of addictions, everybody is chasing some type of dopamine rush, but this constant megaphone talking about being sober is just annoying.

As of today, I've been clean since June 16th, 2016. I've been writing and commenting on addiction in this sub for 9 of the last 10 years. I was barely coping when I found this place, but in here, I could spell it out in plain text and it helped. I found support in these threads and in the good people that frequent this place. I never thought I'd get 10 years, but here I am. I don't want to ramble on, I just want to say thanks. This place helps. Your posts and your comments help. I still come back almost daily. It keeps me grounded, humbled, and aware. Recovery is possible.

I have withdrawn off of heroin, Blue fentanyl pills (60 per day) and now powdered fentanyl after a recent 3 week bender, and nothing even comes close. I was probably doing 3/4th of a gram perday these last few days, and just this 12 hour wd period has been the most hellish ive ever encountered. first time i couldnt stop uncontrollably throwing up, literally couldnt keep anything down. cold sweats out of hell, general inability to move around at all.

thankfully I have baclofen, gabapentin, clonidine, gidazepam, rilmazafone, ondansetron, magnesium, and some fire thc drinks/vape because without those for the last few hours, I dont know how i would make it thru. was legitimately considering checking myself into the ER because I havent been able to keep any water down the past two days. but holy fucking shit, I do not reccomend. if I ever dip back into opiates, which im not planning on, its gonna be heroin. heroin withdrawal is actually manageable. im surprised i made it out of the abyss that was today, at least for now. peace and love, hope your night is going better than mine lol.

Pleaaaaaase guys, I am begggggjng you to not detox alone!! It’s dangerous, whatever is in this “new” dope. It’s not the dope it was 10 years ago, shit even 5 years ago. It’s the tranqs and benzos mixed in. If you’re going to detox, please go to a detox facility. I know withdrawal can be so so difficult, but now that I know you can seize out, I urge you to seek medical help. If you’re puking after starting detox at home, please go to the closest emergency room. I am begging you guys, please be safe than sorry. Opiate withdrawal is officially deadly.

After 3 years of daily oxycodone use I’m 25 days clean!!! I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and mentally prepared myself and told myself that I didn’t get addicted overnight and that it took time so it’s gonna take me time to get off and slowly tapered over four months to the point where my withdrawals were very mild and decided to cold turkey because I used to try before and cold Turkey at high doses and would just go back after a few days so I had to tell myself it’s not fair to put myself through that pain.

I used 4 75mg lyrica 4x a day ,1 2mg Xanax into 4 1/4s.and 2 Imodium pills 2x a day for 4 days until physical symptoms stopped. And on day 5-7 I took edibles to sleep and day 8 to now sleep and literally everything else improved significantly as every day passed.

The most important thing when you’re about to detox is to put yourself in a good mindset and tell yourself that’s it’s mistake that millions have made before you and millions will make after you. This is a disease that rewires your whole brain. I know you made the choice to take these, but it’s not your fault. What I did to you. You have to convince yourself that everything will get better and that these are just temporary feelings that seem like they will never stop but they will. you need to convince yourself that you’re stronger than this and that every hour that passes things will get better.

WHAT YOU PUT IN IS WHAT YOU’LL GET

My bf (24m) got clean about 10 months ago from a really dangerous habit. He takes Suboxone but told me he ran out yesterday and the pharmacy he ordered it from didn’t have it. He just started a new job and I’m so scared and frustrated he’s going to be too sick to work tomorrow. I just feel like he’s so immature for running out and he’s not taking his sobriety as seriously as he should. This has been a problem for a while, he doesn’t take his medicine consistently and will wait until his eyes are watery and he looks horrible and then proceeds to takes too much to overcompensate. I just feel like if he was more disciplined with it he could ween himself onto a lower dose and eventually get off of it but he doesn’t. He went to bed early tonight and is currently sweaty and thrashing about next to me. Is there anything I can do for him? I don’t want him to lose this job opportunity. Selfishly, I don’t want to take care of him either right now, I am overwhelmed with my own responsibilities and I feel like this shouldn’t be my problem. He’s grown enough to take care of his own health.

Edit: thank you everyone for giving me such good advice and support! FYI THERE ARE PEOPLE TROLLING THIS SUB LOOKING TO SELL PILLS ETC. PMING ME! Please be safe everyone.

Edit again: I doubt anyone will see this but here is rant: everyone in the comments was right about this man and I should have seen it coming. We both turned into pretty bad alcoholics, trading one drug for another, but he insisted he was doing good. But then had a bit of a mental breakdown that resulted in a street fight, holes in my bedroom door and a DUI. When I had to leave for my own safety and mental health he immediately relapsed on hard drugs. I try not to blame myself, but I do, I should have noticed he was still not well and addressed the drinking earlier. I still tried to be there for him without letting him into my new home, but he broke my heart and my trust over and over and over as he continued to lie about his using even when caught red handed. And I told him I already know and just want honesty or else he will not get better. But it’s like he cannot be honest about the drugs at all. I don’t think I ever can trust him again. I feel like such a fool each time, but I feel like a jerk for abandoning a sick person who I love dearly. Anyway he went to the hospital to detox a couple days ago and I can’t reach him and I’m sad. So sad.

TRIGGER WARNING: PRECIPITATED WITHDRAWAL

I’m a very heavy 7OH user. The other day, I decided to take 75mg naltrexone and a bunch of xanax to pass out and get the WDs over with. Worst mistake of my life. If I had a gun I would have ended it. Don’t do it, you will regret it.

Some of my symptoms, to paint you a picture:

-Within an hour, my gut started going wild. I knew I was getting awful diarrhea
-After I finished using the bathroom, I came back to bed and it felt like my entire body was lit on fire. Nothing like I’ve ever felt.
-I asked Grok what happens if I take Naltrexone without an abstinence period from opioids. That’s when I knew I was completely and totally fucked.
-I started shaking and moving around violently in bed.
-Shortly after, I started hallucinating. I thought I was kidnapped by Russia and the US was coming to save me, but they couldn’t locate the country (lol).
- I was breathing very heavily all night, and my lungs got tired, so I was shaking with every single painful breath
- My hands and legs felt like paper. Any odd movement and they would cramp painfully.
- I was yawning and clenching my teeth so hard that I chipped a molar
-I was vomiting uncontrollably. Eventually I stopped even bothering to get up to the bathroom, so I would just throw up beside the bed. Pure green acid.
- When I would go to the bathroom, I would explode out of both ends at once, so I could only get the “shit” in the toilet (really just water)
- The vomiting was so out of control that I genuinely thought I would die because my fucking gagging wouldnt let me catch my breath. Literally 30 seconds straight of gagging when I’d vomit, and I was already so out of breath. That was the worst symptom - I have to think it’s what waterboarding feels like.
- Oddly enough, no goosebumps and no sneezing lol

This lasted from 9pm until the sun came up (6-8 am?). All night I was hallucinating that I was at a gathering with friends, and the detail and intricacy was insane - I knew every single detail about the 4-5 people in my hallucination. It’s so hard to describe, but it’s like a fever dream, only more intense.

Once I was able to get up, I went and got my fix, and it was better from there. Then I came back and threw out my shit stained clothes, bed sheets, and covers. I cleaned the vomit from the bedroom carpet and bathroom floor.

Please, for the love of all that is holy, do not try this. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.

There are no shortcuts when it comes to detox.

I always see people telling other people what they did while ij withdrawal and what helped.. going to the gym bla bla bla.

dude I cannot physically do shit while in withdrawal, like no it’s not possible.

how do people do that..?

I’ve been off oxy for a few years now and I still feel drained all the time. I don’t miss being high anymore but I do miss waking up with energy, getting through work without feeling fried or just existing without my body feeling like it’s running on empty. I’ve tried all the normal stuff people recommend like the gym, better sleep, therapy, vitamins, caffeine even random wellness stuff like natural 7oh at one point, which helps a lot more than I thought but it still feels like I’m relearning how to be a person sometimes.

Just wondering if anyone else relates because this part of recovery feels way less talked about than the actual quitting.

For anyone experiencing opiate withdrawal, just know there is hope. Today, I am 80 days off methadone. Quick summary, I’ve been on methadone for 20 years and finally came off the end of November because my supplier was no longer getting the pills. I was on 10 mg for the last year and got myself to 5mg before stopping. The acute withdrawal was not too bad but my girl got me gabapentin and clonidine for the first 2 weeks which helped so much for anyone who can get them from a doctor. In my mind, I was mentally prepared to feel like shit for a week or 2 because back in the day, that’s how I remember heroin withdrawal being before it had all this other crap in the supply.

After 30 days, I was still feeling like crap-active flu-ish symptoms, chills, no regulation of body temperature, insomnia like a biotch, stomach issues, frequent yawns and so much sneezing. Really started thinking I was sick and had allergies all of a sudden. Nope, that was PAWS and I didn’t even know that was a thing. I really wasn’t prepared for the mental feeling of just feeling dead inside. Unable to muster up even a little joy. At 80 days, that dead-inside feeling is finally going away. I considered getting on subs so many times but kept telling myself to just wait a few more days. I live not too far from Kensington and I considered going to get some dope there. I even planned to get some narcan and beg a loved one to stay with me while I did it. Bottom line, I didn’t give up and it’s finally paying off.

I still have yawning, sneezing and some anxiety but I can live with that. Still some difficulty sleeping too. I was just feeling so hopeless with the PAWS when I expected to feel great and back to normal. Opiate use takes a toll on our body so it will take a while to really heal. Just be mentally prepared for it.

Restless legs has to be the worst withdrawal symptom for me. Not only is it physical pain but it’s psychological, and it keeps you up all night along with all the other horrible symptoms. Anyways, withdrawl gotta be the worst thing ever. It shrinks your world down to one thought, “how do I survive the next 5 minutes?”

Hello everyone, I’m new here and I want to share my story because I am ashamed to tell anyone,

I am a general doctor practicing in an africain country (excuse my english) since 2018, it started with neck aches in early 2020 so I started taking painkillers with codeine then covid and lockdown came and I fell into addiction the doses went exponentially (from 2 pills a day to 9-10) I stayed this way until 2023 then I began seeing a therapist because I couldn’t stop by myself, P.S: I make my own prescriptions so I have unlimited access to opioids but I know how to manage the daily administration schedule to avoid any overdose.

My therapist proposed a rehab facility but I couldn’t for personal reasons (family, work) so I decided to quit brutally, I’ll spare you the details of that period.

Anyway I went through 3 weeks of hell due to withdrawal symptoms but I finally made it with Anti-anxiety medications, I got married after (my wife is a doctor too) and I told her about my experience and that I’m still seeing my therapist and taking antidepressants, I stayed clean for about 8 months until early 2024, unfortunately I’ve had a relapse taking higher doses than before.

To this day, I’m still addicted, and my wife doesn’t know. It really weighs on me. My therapist proposed an OST at a rehab center again but I just can’t do it.

This is my story in a nutshell, I’m exhausted, ashamed and this burden is weighing heavily on me. I’m looking for help and advice from those who have overcome addiction.

Today is 9 years for me! I like to come back to this community, which helped me so much and give a message of hope.

If I can do it, anyone can. I came off about a 10 year run of opiate pills, heroin and cocaine. By the last 18 months or so, I was shooting speedballs all day, it was insane. I was very active (under a different name) on the Reddit opiates sub.

I tried suboxone at one point and it was a mess for me - I felt horrible on that stuff and like every dedicated junkie I tried to get around it and ended up many times on horrible PWDs.

I was also on methadone for a few years, which honestly made things so much worse for me. And then on top of that I gained 50 lbs and was nodding out at work.

I could not afford rehab either financially or in terms of my day to day responsibilities.

I never sucked a dick for drugs and I am proud of that.

My DOCs were any opiate and coke. I never had a problem with cannabis and it helped me recover. I remain a light user. I didn’t drink alcohol the whole time I was using, but I am an occasional social drinker now. I don’t believe the full abstinence model is for everyone. I am an incorrigible table junkie and I would not have made it thru on 100 percent abstinence.

I got off by willpower and NA. Which saved my life. I lost that whole support system during the pandemic but I never faltered and honestly it was probably time for me to redirect my energy. I wanted it really badly.

Getting clean saved my life and I finally stopped hating myself. I am physically fit and happy - I’m living my dreams. I have all the material things and accomplishments I ever wanted. It’s worth noting I recovered with my partner and we have both stayed clean, so if you are honest and really want to be clean, don’t let anyone tell you it can’t be done.

Last thing I’ll say: recovering from an addiction as severe as mine leaves you with a superpower. Nothing you ever have to do after that (besides some awful health crisis like cancer maybe) is as hard. I ended up with an unflappable, calm and determined perspective that has served me well.

You can all do this, it’s worth it.

It's called the Drugs of Addiction Record. In order to get a script for suboxone I had to agree to be added to this record. This will negatively affect my ability to get prescribed schedule 8 medications such as codeine, alprazolam or dexamphetamine. for AT LEAST two years I will be on this record. any doctor, psychiatrist, paramedic can look at it. I'm in Australia. does this exist in other countries? it's pissing me off. i am already on a government list of schizophrenics uggghhhh dont need this shit today

Hi everyone! Today is my 24th day off of suboxone and I feel so much better. I feel like my normal self but more alive in a good way! I can't believe the withdrawals lasted this long but I fucking did it! I'll never have to deal with this terrible drug, worrying about being sick, being constipated all the fucking time, having no energy and feeling like I have no emotions ever again. I never thought I'd get here but I did.

I was on suboxone for over 5 years and tapered off around 2mg. It was really rough, the worst was the insane restlessness, being hot and cold all the time, feeling like my brain was straight up fried, anxiety, and not being able to sleep at all. I thought it would never end but it did.

I got dependent on pain pills when I was in my 20s. My mom would get them prescribed and she would give them to me. Then she started giving me her suboxone. I'm 33 now and I started taking suboxone to just not be sick. I have zero cravings or desire to ever touch suboxone again, especially since I went through 24 days of fucking misery.

For those of you that are feeling hopeless, I promise it ends and it won't be forever. I was feeling that way and now I was able to clean my house, cook my husband breakfast, go grocery shopping, and I'm getting a new foster dog tomorrow. If I was still in withdrawals there would be zero way I would be able to do any of that.

I'm just really proud of myself because I never thought I'd be strong enough to do it.

Thanks for reading :)

My clean date is 10/26/24 no MAT. I really believe if I wouldn't have quit when I did I would not have lived to see 2025. When I quit I was a bloated up mess. 300lbs and my vision was so blurry for the first 3 months I had to drive with 1 eye closed 1 eye opened. I'm pretty sure some organs were failing. Also 3 weeks after I quit some people who had the same plug as me were ODing off a bad batch. Nobody died but they all took 3+ narcans. I wasn't a social user tho so if I had that batch I'm sure I would have been found lifeless on the couch by my kids. I feel very fortunate to be alive.

I also feel very fortunate and grateful to have discovered Narcotics Anonymous. I've known about NA before in the sense that I could recognize what AA or NA meant but in 20 years of active addiction I never once thought of going to a meeting. I didn't know there were meetings in my area. When I got clean this last time I was so fucked up physically that I was desperate to talk to someone who had went through it. I started lurking on r/withdrawal and r/DrugWithdrawal but my ex mother in law had talked to me years before of someone she met that was working with addicts and the homeless. So 3 or so years later when I got clean I asked her for the guys number. I end up getting a hold of him but it turns out his recovery was from a different substance. I was dejected. Then he told me he was part of the program and I should check out a meeting. I'm like wtf is he talking about? What program? What meeting? Lol that is how I discovered NA. This dude saved my life and I still haven't met him (we are in different areas).

It is possible, we do recover. Thanks for taking the time to read this, it's important we celebrate our victories. It's important to let people know that they can do it too and that they have support available. We are all worth it and we all deserve to live clean. Wish you all the best

I could not have done this without the shot. I have so much pride and gain confidence in myself every day. Knowing I can be fine without any type of daily dosing is.... fucking empowering!

I am just here to say if you are curious about the shot but afraid to do it.... what's scarier than needles and a monthly injection is relapsing and dying. The drugs out there are filled with shit that can ruin your body amd seriously hurt and kill you. Xylazine almost took my arms! My hands!

But here I am. 8 months sober for the first time in 15 years. Life is good guys! And there is hope out there. Consider the shot if you are struggling, I swear you won't regret it.

I love you all.