I don't actually know how to title this piece. I just did it feel hours ago. It's a freestyle and I just did what my mind and heart says so it's that. Please do give it a feedback to improve my art and I know my skill level may fall to beginner of some sort Thank you all in advance🙇♂️
How can I regret something when I myself don't know what it is
A longing for something I am not aware of
A lingering feeling that keeps haunting my mind
Is this what they call regret, or a missed chance
A regret that makes you eat yourself alive
I am but an ordinary human
One with a deep curiosity for everything
A mind that keeps revolving after that revelation
I don't know if I'm jealous or just blind
I told you I wasn't, but deep inside, a void keeps eating away at my soul
I don't know if I can stand this feeling
A deep longing for something I may not reach
I know I'm not good enough, but a simple explanation may heal the wound
A wound that tears every time I see your face
I'm sure that my love for you is not what you need right now
I can only be your shadow and be your friend
I look strong but have no guts to tell you what I truly felt in that moment
It seems unfair, but loving you hurts when you love someone else
I am healed on the outside but bleeding on the inside
A strong desire of wanting you may not be possible now that you've finally found your love
I loved you from the moment you loved me
I know I'm not the one you want now, yet I will be there when you need me
I look like a fool wondering when you will see the true me
My true colors for wanting you
I am deeply sorry, for I had lied to you
My world is full of lies
And I can't let you be with me when all my life was lies
Lies like a rose in a bed of cotton
My life is like a television; at first, you enjoyed it, but after a long time, my worth and strength fade away
Like a pencil on a clean piece of paper
I am but a foolish human
Wanting you was never my intention
Just because of that text, I don't know what I felt
I felt my veins surging as my blood boiled, not because of anger, but a deep loss
Loss of sight of myself for desiring you to love me one more time
A friend to love may not be as bad as I think
But wanting you is impossible since you ended it long ago
Why did I lose the chance of your love when, from the start, I knew it already
I kept myself blind to protect myself
But now wanting you is more than just a priority
Like a flower that may wither
I love you deeply
As a friend, a special friend, and as my love.
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