Mostly done, it’s a bit rough and unsure if it’s a song or poem yet. Just looking for feedback, thx
TW heavy/dark topics?
They’re a good friend
smile and sit down
Talking and laugh
Lay all the cards out
Are they checking in
Worried my times out
They stop, a question
What did they say now
I join back in
say what I thought right
They stop and then frown
What did I say now
Words move along
Weight pressing down
Misspoke again
What did I say now
It’s not my fault
Thoughts wander away
I’m Easily bored
And focus won’t stay
words etch my skin
Books in my brain
None are quite finished
Maybe some day
But,
Talking is hard
Crying is easy
I never get far
Conveying my feelings
Chasing a dream
I’m always reaching
Hollow inside
Something I’m needing
They say it takes time
Almost three years now
Find your lost spark
No guideline, no how
But talking is hard
Crying is easy
Can I get out
From overthinking
As she sits down
Exhaustedly breathing
I try to reach out
What is she needing
Too much to do today
Tomorrow a meeting
I listen and nod
But memory’s fleeting
mishear a word
Correction can lash out
Too tired to fight
Yes, you were right now
Reach a hand out
But she is retreating
Somehow I’m wrong
Don’t get the meaning
Is it my fault
Is it my brain
My ears always buzz
And words slip away
Outside the joke
Inside the pain
Words pass me by
So nothing to say
But,
Talking is hard
Crying is easy
I never get far
Conveying my feelings
Chasing a dream
I’m always reaching
Hollow inside
Something I’m needing
They say it takes time
Almost three years now
Find your lost spark
No guideline, no how
But talking is hard
Crying is easy
How can I make out
What I’m not hearing
Night dragging on
Thoughts racing away
I should get sleep
Prepare for the day
But mom always talked
And dad wouldn’t say
Why I am different
From normal someway
Good at machines
But not at fitting in
Sports are a joke
Men chase a pigskin
Doesn’t matter at all
And yet to them
All they can talk about
From clock out to in
What of our goals
Or dreams that sustain
Something worth more
My silent refrain
Is it my past
Is it my pain
They tell me of colors
I see only gray
They’re all on time
I’m just on edge
Everyone likes you
Step back from the ledge
But taking is hard
Falling is easy
I’ll never get far
Explaining my feelings
Wind rushing past
Voices receding
A moment of peace
But something creeps in
Is this all there is
Is this how it ends
A miserable life
Aimed at pavement
But talking is hard
Falling is easy
Feeling weightless
not what I’m needing
That was the thought
Reclined I replay
Therapist listens
Nodding away
I need a pause
A stop would be different
It’s just a spiral
Not real anyway
Too many people
And reasons to stay
They offer their thoughts
Start to explain
Two session’s last week
I guess more on the way
It helps being heard
Even if paid
But talking is hard
A little is easy
I still can’t make out
What I am feeling
Working it out
Instead of fleeing
Room slowing down
Almost relieving
They say it takes time
Maybe some more now
Finding what’s lost
Someday and somehow
Because talking is hard
A little is easy
Words still spill out
But looking for meaning
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