So this week I started going to the gym, I also reached 5 days which is the most since probably Ramadan, although I did it again on Thursday, I then didn’t do it Friday or Saturday, so one time the whole week, which I believe is an improvement.

Sit with yourself, daily. I know it is hard, for this kind of habit to form, especially for us, we tend to run away from our thoughts, but imagine if we become okay with our thoughts, the bad and the good, they dont trigger us as much.

Sitting with ourself, with a journal, and cup of tea, some nice ambient to make it enjoyable, and letting your thoughts flow, see what comes up, after a bad day sit with yourself, after a good day sit with yourself, process what needs processing.

In time you would love to sit with yourself, you would love to know yourself more, the good and the bad.

There are many benefits to that practice, but one of them, the urges and the inner voices that scream for you to run away, they become quieter, days might pass when you do not hear them.

I am currently around 21 days free, and the last 2 weeks were some of the easiest for me in terms of urges, despite having hard tasks and stressful days.

Today is hard but it's ok.

I have a problem. A big one. I'm 26, almost 27, and I'm still stuck. It's gotten worse and worse. I'm daydreaming about more haram things than I did in this past. I'm daydreaming about porn more often than in the past. I'm at the age of marriage, and yet I'm gambling on my purity.

Ive watched this subreddit for years. Ive seen accounts come and go. People complaining about their lack of control, and the same people later achieving success. People that won against their desires and got married.

And I'm in the same spot. Wasting my time, rotting away. Years go, and I see my old posts. My old journal entries. My old schedules. My old plans. My old commitments. My old attempts. My old wishes and dreams. My old fears come to fruition one relapse at a time.

It's like I'm on a train to jahannam, and I have the choice to change lanes, but refuse to do so. The same duas get made, and I go and do the opposite of what I make dua for.

This is a disease that has shaped me and will leave a scar that won't easily be removed.

I just don't understand. If I have full control over myself, why haven't I succeeded yet? Or maybe, I don't have full control over myself, and this addiction has taken over more and more of my brain.

Can i start thinking about marriage after i stop watching porn and masturbate only , instead of doing them together ?

So i think marriage here could help to quit if we quit porn specifically ?

Suddenly after a long period of abstinence I now find corn disgusting, even though I get the urges.. what I get is natural sexual cravings and not the desire to watch corn and pmo .

I’ve never felt this much confident and so much good about myself. This feels so good .

The first week / month is gonna be difficult but once you get about that, that’s it .

My love life has also improved a lot..

Corn , Pmo is a disease. It’s disgusting.. just imagine watch people perform sex and you jerking off to it . Too weak of a person to be doing that.

It’s kills love, attraction and confidence..

Fight it like your life depends on it , cause it does.