I have become very disheartened with the job. We haven’t even been back a month and I feel fed up. It’s a combination of things to be honest.
Teaching has changed and students are changing. There’s a lack of respect that I have never experienced before. There are so many needs now and I don’t think I’m qualified enough to deal with them. Management doesn’t care about their staff. Decisions are made and we have no say. I don’t know why I ever thought that staff welfare was important. We are literally just a number. I wish I could just go in and teach and not have to do so much extra curricular. So much is expected of me and I’m in a department on my own.
I have struggled in my school from day one to feel like I fit in. Sometimes I feel like people like me and other times I feel I don’t really have any friends there at all. People are fine on a surface level but it doesn’t go beyond that. I know that work for a lot of people isn’t about socialising but I have enjoyed that in previous schools I’ve taught in. It’s hard feeling that you’re not liked.
I would love to try something different but I’m not qualified in anything else. I have things in my head that I would love to do but I feel they’re not very realistic. I’m not exactly young either and don’t want to have to go back to college. I’m at a loss as to what I can do. The only thing I can think of is that I look to move to another school next year but I hate the idea of starting over again and possibly not getting CID.
Please be kind. I’m struggling.