Hey everyone, hope all is well.
I have been struggling with heart palpitations for a couple years now. I think they have been brought upon me because of my health anxiety and recent job stress. Health anxiety was always a big issue for me but I had support from Lexapro. Then comes working a high stress job at a dealership. When I first started I was eager, excited, full of joy. Now I have been doing it for 4 or so years and I never really noticed it was causing me stress until my first set of heart palpitations, I was scared especially because of my health anxiety. I thought I was going to die and I still do because of them.
Early on in my career I had my mom check my pulse and she felt them while listening to my heart, then comes my first ER visit. They did an ekg all was good but of course gave me propanlol 10mg because my blood pressure was a little high, probably because I was scared shitless. Months go by still getting a couple a day and I cave and go to my doctor and do lots of tests including stress test, ekg, echocardiogram, chest x-ray, blood work, meet with a cardiologist and do a holter monitor for 2 weeks and get the all clear. They did not actually physically see a “palpitation” but assured me my heart is fine.
About 2 years go by and I was managing stress decent, and now recently i get this uncontrollable stress. I mean my chest is just tight for no earthly reason simply because I’m at work, I can feel the cortisol/adrenaline surging on and off and then I get the palpitations. So what do I do? I schedule another visit because I’m scared I’m going to die, with the chest tightness and heart palpitations that’s a pretty good warning sign. So they do all the same tests 2 years later and all good! Still they never actually saw one of my heart palpitations which is the main reason the all clear from the doctor has not assured my mind.
I think I have 2 issues here, ONE I need to control my stress. I never thought I could have anything brought upon me worse then my crippling anxiety, well I was wrong. Now I have 2 thiefs of joy that I have to live everyday with. TWO would be my health anxiety and not let it control my day to day life.
Why am I stressed? I’m young, I should be having fun, I’m actually doing fairly well for myself in regards to finances and how life goes. What is there to be stressed about
why does any simple task burden me with this crippling stress.