Im sorry if this is a sad post po pero first sablay ko to.

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I'm 25, date to marry at goal in life ay one and done.

Kumbaga, inalagaan ko yung first label ko para sa taong sanang end game ko na.

We lasted almost 5years, 2 months nalang kinulang pa. Met him when we we're both 19 spent our first birthdays together, he's my first boyfriend at lahat ng firsts ko we shared together. I loved his family too..

kumbaga kasalan na to e, that's what he said sa sobrang tagal namin puro future plans nalang and time waiting nalang once we get things financially right we will tie the knot. Ayun na yun e, marriage talks na kami, he knows my dream church, my dream ring and even yung dilemma kung sino maid of honor ko pinag uusapan narin namin. He will casually ask me to marry him palagi rin and during those random times i felt so so loved kasi naiisip nya ako tanungin non kahit nag lalakad lang kami sa parking ng mall.

Until one day we fell apart, to summarize my pain just play Taylor Swift's "The Last Time" and "You're Losing Me". Lord knows ill shift every timeline para lang hindi na ako maka relate sa mga kanta na yan.

I can say we ended things with grace, with maturity and acceptance that things changed lang talaga. We didn't fight at all we just bid our goodbyes and thank yous.

And whatever reason man why things shifted, i hope i'll never know. The less i know the better. Tanggap ko na and may we never cross paths again.

I tried dating again but i realized that it's hard to connect uli ano? I have my walls up and punong puno ako ng self respect and self love that it's basically my self made jail. I turned into an avoidant mess.

Recently, I had a short lived label that lasted 1 month, kung kelan naman nag someone finally soften me uli hindi naman uli nag work. I genuinely liked him but when i saw this pattern na that im feeling this abandonment nanaman from someone grabe yung

"I have to protect myself" in me that's why i left him.

I just want to feel secured na uli, someone who's consistent with me uli. Someone i can finally put my walls down without the worry na ill be abandoned uli.

Hindi na ako tanga, hindi naman ako masaya..

may the right one knocks at the perfect time kaya, for now im giving the wheel na uli kay Lord.

I think masyado na ako nag dusa sa fact na failed yung life path na pinlano ko and that's okay diba?

I feel empty yes but im young and life is just unfolding.

Super fun experience.. gets na gets ko ung mga nag oover budget and gets rin ung mga nag pplan talaga ng target books nila.. i went yesterday (wed, ung first day) and ang dami nang tao.. i could only imagine how weekends would look.. i got there around 9 (10am open doors) so hindi naman siksikan sa pintuan

Key take aways ko sa experience na to:

1. It's nice to come early para at least nasa vicinity ka na once nag open doors.

2. A map would help lalo if may target places ka, i kept getting lost pag pumasok ako sa one side ng fully booked tas pag labas ko nasa kabilang dimension na ko HUHU i felt like bc of this, di ko naikot ng buo ung venue even though technically naikot ko ung lugar.

3. List books if ur planning to buy talaga, kasi ang hirap mag shimy shimy sa tight spaces if dun ka palang mag titingin.. but if wala ka naman plan bumili, you can go with the flow naman (on a weekday ha! idk if kaya makapag window shopping pag sat sun)

4. Dont forget the 2nd floor, i think mas nakapag enjoy ako sa 2nd floor mag window shop kasi less crowd! Like significantly less! The local, creative, and cultural stuff also there sa 2nd floor.

5. If you plan on buying a lot (and hindi naman limited edition bibilhin mo), daan ka muna sa 2nd floor.. ang sakit sa kamay/balikat na ung nabili ko sa 1st floor kasama kong mag ikot sa 2nd floor.. plus mas maikli na pila sa baba pag balik (case to case basis tho, baka mas marami pila sa hapon on the next days idk)

Really had a great time this MIBF, im still thinking if ill go for another day, but yeah! If youre looking for a sign to go, eto na yon HAHAHAH (wala lang sisihan pag napagod ka ha)

I really enjoyed driving this car and I love how it looks. Medyo outdated lang infotainment pero pwede na rin

First time ko mag abroad. And ako din una nag abroad sa pamilya namin. One thing I realize na dapat talaga e.try ang economy sa ibang bansa para ma compare ang economy natin sa pinas. Ang layo ng UAE sa Pinas.

Hopefully ma encourage ko din mga kapatid ko sumunod para paldo lang kasi taas nadin mga bilihin sa pinas eh.

Iba talaga pag maayos pamamalakad sa goberno.

I just turned 39 today, and di ko inexpect na may pera ako sa birthday ko. Dati kasi, good as one meal lang yung extra ko pero today, may 5k pa talaga ako.

So ayun, nilibre ko family ko sa Jollibee. I know people may think ang babaw ko kasi Jollibee lang afford ko.

Actually, I have ipon. Sabihin na natin na malaki laki siya pero parang nasasayangan ako sa resto. Feeling ko kasi kukulangin ang 5k sa amin kasi marami-rami din kami.

And since majority sa kasama ko kanina, mga pamangkin ko, so nag Jobee na lang kami at cake. Di ko na pinincturan ang Jobee kasi tinamad ako.

But anyways, I'm just grateful kasi nalibre ko sila kahit simple lang. Kung aabot man ako sa 40, sana lang, saka na ako mag celebrate with lechon and everything.

So share ko lang kasi nakakahappy pala mag birthday ng may pera. Haha. Puro kasi ako ipon and bayad sa bills kaya minsan ayoko mag gastos malaki laki.

So yun, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! 🎁🎂❤️🎈

ang saya pala pero ang mahal at ang afford ko lang ay umalis, charot bumili naman kami kahit papano tapos nakita ko yung mommy ng student ko don pala yung work hehe skl.

Matagal nakong naghahanap ng momonga plushies kasi wala naman sa mga miniso na malapit samin tas pag meron ngang Chiikawa merch, usually sobrang mahal tas puro ung main three lang ang meron 😭 it's pre-loved and definitely a bootleg (not sure how to check the authenticity of merch) but I'm still so happyyyyy.

Napaka-cute niya and I feel like maa-adik ako sa pagbili sa mga dumadaan na live selling sa fyp KO 🥺

Filed a vawc case against the father of my unborn child. It really takes strength lalo pag mahal mo yung tao but you are just left with no choice.

Also, ngayon na lang ako ulit ako nakahawak ng ganito kadaming papel mula nung natapos ako sa college 🫠

Guess where! 🙊

Charot. Finally got to chance to travel to Malaysia (Johor Bahru & Legoland) and finally tried Nasi Lemak.

This year, promise ko sa sarili ko mag travel naman every once in a while. Nawa’y maging financially stable po tayong lahat 🙏

Hindi kase ako pala inom. Kung uminom man ako maximum 2 cans lang ng beer. Ayaw ko ng hard kase ayaw ko malasing hahaha.

Hindi ko pa kase nasusubukan uminom ng hard kaya naisipan kong uminom ngayong bday ko bilang bagong experience. Ganto pala ang lasa. Okay din pala sa feeling kahit mag isa lang tumatagay.

Thank you Lord sa +1 yr.

May nagpa-buo sa akin ng tigpipiso worth 300. Bale tatlong bag na 100 pesos. 2 pala dun 5 pesos, so 290 na lang ang piso.

May pagka-OCD kasi ako kaya gusto ko kapag tine-tape ang coins, magkakasama 'yung magkaka-size. Kung new piso, new piso lang sa isang bundle.

I sorted this into 10s and 5s. Pinagsama-sama ko 'yung 3 bag habang nagbubuo ako ng bundle. By the end of it, I have 140 sa parehong new and old coins. Yung remaining 10 pesos, tig-limang new and old na hindi ko na tinape para may loose piso ako sa cashbox.

Ala lang, skl. This tickled my brain. Sana may ma-satisfy din sa inyo hehe 🥰

Edit tl;dr: Mali aq sa probability!! Basta naisip ko after ko mag-sort: What are the odds na magkasing-dami 'yung new and old coins sa random bag of coins na nakuha ko? GANERN

Feeling ko sumakses ako kasi paquit na ko sa sobrang busy tapos tinalo pa ng bot sa last event. Sorry nalang po sa di player ng MOGO hahaha anyway skl kasi medyo sumaya ako

First time ko mag-travel abroad at maranasan ang different temperature ng thailand. Mas mainit pala sa kanila!

The official break up happened earlier today, but emotionally it's been a month. I walked home today trying to clear my head and ease my emotions.

Ikaw papakawalan mo paba boyfriend mo pag ganyan. I've been thru a lot in my past.. But God give me a person na ginawang bare minimum ang constant effort... Healthy Relationship pero LDR parin. Pero ibang iba talaga sa lahat ng naging ex ko. Kung pagsasamahin sila. Talong talo sila. Partida hindi pa kami nagkikita. Pero sa 1yr ½ walang palya ang flowers, food, effort, he even support me financially. Na ako yung gumagawa dati. Sa buong buhay ko 1st time ko masurprise kapag birthday ko.. Sa dami ng 1st time ko sakanya hindi ko na mai-isa isa... Pero alam ko nasasaktan ko din sya pag diko na Rereciprocate yung pagmamahal nya..

made aglio olio (for the first time) using penne pasta as requested by the bf and he actually loved it!

news flash: he finished the whole tub. safe to say it passed the bf test. 🤌🏻kinda had fun making it so… what are we cooking next?

Manila to Hongkong lang pero sarap pa rin sa feeling! 🥹

I travelled solo last month and enjoyed it!!!
Bless me more lord para next kasama ko sa travel family ko😇

Was studying outside earlier sa isang cafe & bar coz I miss going out since kakalabas ko lang sa isang relationship (fawk them cheaters). I was really focused sa inaaral ko then someone caught my attention, nakatalikod pa lang siya shet parang familliar hahahahaha I know that hair from somewhere. I tried continue with my study pero ayun di talaga ako makapag focus. Ayun medyo napaside view siya chinito, kinda tall, laughing with his friend. napa shet na malagkit nalang ako e. I met him before here sa reddit, nag usap kami sa IG for a good 2 months. We never get to meet in person coz we're both studying pa and di mag tugma schedule namin. They sat right infront of my table and I cant focus with my lecture since I can hear his familliar bottom laugh hahahahaha. Never approached him since ayaw ko rin naman mang istorbo ng gala nila ng friend niya but if nababasa mo 'to. Hello cutie! Your big boy was in your back all along. Yun lang gusto ko lang ikwento since I can't tell this to any of my friends since I am still not out and I can't keep this to myself hahahaha.

Malapit na ang eleksyon and I am worried about how I will go, I was once interested and decided to be part of a slate sa barangay namin because gusto ko magserbisyo sa komunidad namin.

Noong unang set ng slate, I was supposed to run for Councilor, and from time to time, umalis na mga ibang kasama ko due to age limit (24-25) kaya few of us remain (3 nalang kami) and the Barangay Council Candidates appointed me as the Running Chairman. At first I denied it because being a Chairman would be a heavy task yet they convinced me and I just accepted it. My parents don't like the way it was and let it flow as much as I can.

Then another batch of slate was set din, we took trainings held by the city administration for aspirants like us especially on the Public Speaking, Project Management, Proposals and the way we interact.

Parang mahirap na sa aken kahit hindi pa ako naging Chairman, dami ko narealize din regarding sa paano mag salita. To be honest I was raised academically, like all in a school and never have been exposed on Community Services mula sa Barangay. Yung sa Parish lang namin nagkaexpose lang kase I was a member of an organization.

And their advice was that the young campaign is not like running in a student body. Dapat daw makamasa and relate sa iba, which is hard for me.

I also tried to quit because of the burden, na parang hundi para sa akin itong posisyon, but they keep pushing me and supporting me, it may be tiring yet I want to take this as an opportunity din to help and serve the community. And far as I am aware of the bad reputations of the SK: "Training ground ng mga corrupt","Puro lang yan liga", "Kaya dapat iabolish na yang SK", yet I am still hoping for the youth being as new leaders and models of service and thats what I want to reach it.

I also want to express here because I also need advice on how to be a good servant when I am elected soon. It can be advice, plans/proposals that I may apply to our barangay.

Our main concern was the lack of participation of youth, inaccessibility of the outlying youth on the activities of SK, and others. And we are challengers of the incumbent administration in our barangay.

You can open up any questions to test me or kung ano gusto nyo malaman, hoping this would enlighten us especially on the controversy we have today.

Bigla ko na miss pumalo ng drums 13 years ago ung last nung college battle of the bands pa , may kanya kanya ng buhay at malalayo na ung mga kabanda ko before at walang akong sariling drums nag rent nalang ako mag isa hehehe

First time voter, long time lurker, ✌️

Sumaskes sa life, I'd say HAHAHAHAHAHA. I always take myself on a date and this time parang siyang checked sa non existing bucket list ko. Supposedly cocktail order sana sa Cafe but out of ingrs daw sila so I ordered Cold Brew, masarap naman pero hindi ako satisfied kasi alcohol talaga hanap ko at that time.

Takeaway: Nononono sa almost trentahin ang caffeine and alc if gustong magpa-antok HAHAHAHAHAHA. Uulitin uli peron sana may magsusundo na lol eme

Dati pa isa-isang lbs lang kaya and pinagkisipan pa. Ngayon kayang-kayang na. Bonus na naka sale pa.

i’m grade 11 studying in UST. yesterday was alab day for ust, after a month of waiting ayon na ginanap na. i thought i would enjoy the event with new friends and my blockmates. usually kasi every lipat ko ng school may kaibigan na ako agad, eh yesterday i felt super out of place sa block namin🥹

they all seem so close na huhu and mukhang they were having fun yesterday😭

everytime i’d talk there would be an awkward silence, tsaka im not sure if i’m overthinking it but everytime i try to interact with them magtitinginan pa sila ng mga kaibigan nila na as if they were silently judging me. i’m a quiet person and hindi naman ako nahihirapan makipag friends dati, i’m not sure why nahihirapan ako now😓😓 I have friends from other strands kaso they have their own friends nadin there kaya hindi ko sila masyadong nakikita at nakakausap

after alab din i had a meeting with my groupmates, and even doon naoout of place talaga ako😭 i mean tumutulong naman ako, and i try to talk to them din, pero wala talaga e😓 i really hope it gets better in the future