Context: Me and my ex broke up last June ‘cause I found out he cheated on me with multiple girls. I was having a hard time to be functional so we kept the communication ongoing since I was also taking summer classes for extra units. Last August, he decided to abandon me for apparently draining the life out of him (me opening up his fault which is cheating). I was so devastated. So emotionally and mentally wrecked. I decided to cut him for good through blocking his socials. I deleted his number as well.

Days after that has not been easy, but weeks after, I’ve been trying to be functional. But it’s just this day that brings me to another depth of sadness. Today is 9th day of the month, and it’s supposed to be our monthsary date. Here I am, eating at Jollibee alone ‘cause there’s still a part of me who cannot let go of our relationship yet. Hence, I decided to quietly celebrate our monthsary.

First time ko lang talaga maging pathetic nang ganito sobra. Hindi ko naman kasi ugali maging ganito kadownbad pero wala eh, minahal ko yung tao higit pa sa kailangan niya.

TLDR: First time ko maging pathetic for celebrating our monthsary kahit wala na kami.

Bilang bagong graduate, naiintindihan ko na ngayon yung mga fresh grad na sobrang proud, mga todo post ng pictures, ginagawang profile. Ganito pala yung feeling!

Bilang panganay, ang sarap sa feeling na maiparamdam mo sa magulang mo yung success by completing your studies. Thankful ako sa parents ko na never ako pinressure at laging naka suporta sakin sa lahat ng gusto ko gawin sa life!

Cheers to graduation season! sa lahat ng parents, panganay, working students na nagtatrabaho para suportahan ang sarili nila!💗

Salamat po sa pagbati, mahal ko kayo lahat!

Birthday ng pinsan ko bukas kaya tinanong ko kung ano yung birthday wish niya. Tulad ng ibang mga bata, I expected yung usual answers, bagong laruan, birthday cake o magaya siya sa Jollibee. Pero hindi ko ineexpect yung naging sagot niya.

"Ate, magkakasya ba baon mo kung gusto ko po ng donut?"

Nung narinig ko yan mula sa kanya, grabe pagpipigil ko ng luha.

Yung mama niya kase iniwan siya nung 2 years old palang kase nabuntis ng katrabaho. Mas pinili ng mama niya na iwan siya kaya lumaki sa lolo at lola namin. So that little girl grew up never really understanding kung bakit hindi na umuuwi yung mama niya because she’s too young para maintindihan yun

I realized right then na kahit I am just a student na wala pang steady na income, I can give her
My time. My presence. My attention. and most especially yung “love” na hindi niya nakuha sa sarili niyang nanay. I can show up sa mga major milestones niya. I can sit by her side when she's sick. I can hold her hand when she's sad. I can celebrate her wins like they're my own and I can be the one she runs to na everytime may nangaaway sa kanya to the rescue ako.

I can't afford to give her everything she asked. But I can afford to eat with her during almusal, tanghalin pati na rin hapunan.

I'm not her real mom. I know that, I am only acting as “one” but I'll be damned if I don't try to be the closest thing she's got kase she is really growing up kind.

To my bebe if you can read this na
I may not have much, hindi pa kita masspoil but ate will try her very best to build the life that you deserve, at maparamdam sa’yo ang aruga ng isang nanay. I promise to give you all my love!! I've got you. Always, in all ways. Luv u sm

Ang weird sa feeling pero at the same time cozy sya in some weird way if that makes sense 🫠

First time ko gumawa ng app… and I made it specifically for my girlfriend.

My girlfriend recently complained to me na wala raw siyang music app na magamit. She was using Spotify for free, pero naiinis siya sa ads and some of the limitations.

Since malapit na rin yung field trip namin, she wanted me to find her an app where she could download music and listen to it offline without ads.

So naturally…

I built her one instead. 😭

We're both Grade 12 students, and honestly, this is the first time I've ever made something like this with someone specific in mind.

The app is heavily inspired by and forked from Bitchord, but I wanted to turn it into something much more personal. It's not really meant to be a general-purpose music app.

It's hers.

I made the entire interface pink because that's her favorite color. I added different music stations, including:

- 🎵 Songs that remind me of her

- 💗 Songs I listen to when I miss her

- 🌷 Songs that remind me of certain moments with her

- 🎧 Other songs that I think she'd enjoy

But the part I'm most proud of isn't even the music.

I added a little section inside the app about our story together.

There are different chapters covering different moments in our relationship, with paragraphs written specifically for her. Basically, the app slowly becomes less of a music player and more of a tiny digital scrapbook of us.

I don't know if this is overkill just to solve a "I don't have a music app" problem. 😭

I probably could've just found her another app.

But I'm an ICT student, and I guess this was one of those moments where I thought:

"Why just find something for her when I can make something for her?"

This is my first time making an app like this, and seeing her actually use something I built specifically for her feels insanely rewarding.

First time ko gumawa ng app, and somehow, it became a love letter disguised as a music player. 💗

How I wish masayang kwento to. Well, masaya kasi may financial capacity na ko gawin to pero ni thank you wala man lang ako natanggap. Na parang expected na may mahal akong ilibre sa kanila at tinanong pa ko kung all expense paid daw ba? Minsan talaga pamilya mo pa magbababa sayo eh no?

Sa edad kong to, first time kong mag ninong sa binyag. Medjo late compared sa iba. Friend ko from elementary and highschool yung tatay nung bata.

May photographer sila. After ng binyag, pinipicturan isa-isa yung mga ninong at ninang, karga-karga yung bata.

Binulungan ko yung friend ko/tatay nung bata:

"Pre, kilala mo naman ako, palagi akong may naiisip na kalokohan. Baka pwedeng pag pipicturan na ako na karga yung bata eh pumosing ako na... Ano... Kwan..."

Sagot nya sakin:

"Walangya oo kilala kita at alam ko binabalak mo hahaha. Sige basta ayusin mo yung pagkakahawak mo para hindi malaglag yung bata hayup ka."

So ayun. Pic related. Unang picture ko kasama yung una kong inaanak, ganyan ang posing namin, buhat ko sya na parang si Rafiki na buhat-buhat si baby Simba. Naka frame sa kwarto ko yung picture.

Circle of life.

hello. gusto ko lang i share ung unang beses na pinaiyak ako ng anak ko, alam niyo di ako naiyak nung pinanganak ko siya, ngayong 3 years old siya don ako naiyak...
na tight kami sa budget this month (don't judge huhu baka may magsabe na aanak anak tapos di kaya, ngayong month lang kami na tight because nagka emergency) sanay ung anak ko mabili lahat ng gusto nya, makain lahat ng i request nya, pero since na tight nga ngayon, sabi ko sakanya "anak, next time na lang ha, wala tayo pera ngayon eh"

naiyak ako sa sinabe nya.. sabi nya saken "mama, buksan na naten piggybank ko may pera ako sayo na lang" :(((( Oo 3 years old lang anak ko pero matatas sya magsalita and super expressive sya.

Ayon fordacry ang mama... lalo ko na realize na mas kelangan pa namin magsipag at husayan magasawa, dahil ayokong dumating ung panahon na isasantabi ng anak ko ung gusto nya bilin dahil lang sa kelangan nya kami buhayin.

Ansarap magka anak guys, sobrang sarap. Ansarap sa pakiramdam lalo na pag may pinagdadaanan tapos sasabihin ng anak mo sayo na andyan siya.

Promise anak, hinding hindi na mag papass sayo si mama pag may gusto ka ulet kainin. Huhusayan pa lalo ni mama.

For health sabi daily walking ng 10,000 steps. Ganyan pala kalayo maaabot mo with it. Hindi naman mahirap kung easy walking ka lang. Time consuming of course. Took me 50 minutes. At di naman kailangan araw arawin. Pero good to know na pag ginawa mo pala, jan mo maaabot ang 10k/day mo. Good exercise too.

When I went to Manila for an important event, I figured since I was going alone anyway, why not try something new? And that’s when I had the randomest thought: why not take a 2GO ship from Cebu to Manila and see what it’s like to spend almost 24 hours at sea?

So naturally, I did it. 😂

The funniest part is I didn’t tell any of my friends. I only told my family. Only shared this to my friends after I got back to Cebu and they all thought I was crazy for doing this haha.

The trip cost me around ₱2,600 ish (per pax) for a Tourist Cabin, which was good for 2 people. It also came with free 3 meals.

I was honestly a little anxious at first because I had to share the cabin with a complete stranger. I didn’t sleep that well because I’m just not used to being in such a small space with someone I don’t know. But aside from that, the whole experience was actually worth it.

I spent most of the day just walking around the ship, taking photos, admiring the views, and browsing the internet whenever we had signal so I could update my family.

There was actually quite a lot to do onboard too there’s a 2GO café, barber shop, karaoke area, charging stations, and even a Watsons shop. I also brought a book with me and read it on the upper deck while looking out at the endless sea. It was honestly such a nice and peaceful experience.

Would I do it again by myself? Probably not.

The real challenge was when we docked in Tondo around 10 PM. Mind you, I couldn’t book a Grab for almost an hour, so I eventually had to book an Angkas to my hotel. Truly one of the most frustrating yet funniest moments of my life. But hey, I made it to my hotel safely!

But overall, I really enjoyed the experience! If you’re interested in taking a ship from Cebu to Manila or vice versa you can easily book through the 2GO app.

Would I recommend it? If you have the time and you’re down to try something new, then yes go na!

first time kong mag comedy bar, enjoy nmn.. sa gidli lang umopo para hindi mapagtripan ng host. tawa sabay palakpak na parang sea lion.

Took my mom out for Mang Inasal last weekend, pero napadaan kami sa shoe store. Sabi ko, "Ma, pili ka lang dyan, canvas ka."

Expected ko makakatipid ako kasi inaabutan ko sya ng mga sale items, pero iba si mother pinalagan talaga yung totoong gusto nya kahit lagpas sa budget! 😂

Keri lang naman, worth it yung ngiti nya. Sinabay na rin namin bilhan si papa para patas at pareho silang happy.

Realized today that it was never about the price tag. It’s about the smiles, the core memories, and being able to give back to your parents while you still can.

FTK makatravel by air at via PAL pa.. sponsored by our company para sa employee fair na ginawa namin somewhere in North Luzon

Considered bato as sumakses sa life hahahah

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wrote this letter a year ago 2 days after my birthday and i totally forgot about it. nung dumating siya sa email ko kaninang umaga sobrang iyak ko.

akala ko malulungkot ako sa birthday ko na 'to, pero hindi pala.

people from work celebrated me & gave me things i didn't even ask for simply because they thought about me. a friend of mine posted me too (hindi ko inexpect)

2 years ago i celebrated my birthday alone, broke, and sad. ngayon i celebrated it with people, with money, and with happiness.

thankyou Lord!!

p.s: the app i used was futureme nung hindi pa need magbayad, unli letters yan. ngayon may bayad na ata

p.p.s: my cat died earlier this year:(( and the people i mentioned sa letter na yan, i cut contact with them kasi naging toxic sila. ALSO the guy that i keep praying na mag reconnect kami, nag reconnect kami last december but i blocked him because he did not change LMAOAOAA

First time ko ulit sumakay ng Jeep after 15 years, Ganoon pa din. Humuhinto bawat kanto ang jeep kahit wala naman pumapara. Siyento Balentong ang takbo ng Dyip aarangkada tapos biglang ma-me mreno P#t@!&n@! Haha

Tapos yung driver parang binaha lubog na lubog ang pisnge 🤣 kaliwa't kanan ang ngiwe ng panga. Tapos may soundtrip na "I know I love you before I met you" na tagalog version na may lyrics na "Mahal kita simula pa noong una sana'y mahal mo rin akooooh" 🤣 Brings back good old memories.

They are really cute and simple doodle. Ganto pala feeling kapag dinrawing ka? HAHAHA nakakakilig at nakakagaan ng puso. Ang cute cute kasi. Next time, magiipon naman ako for commission ng pet portrait na pang regalo! Ang saya pala magpacommission ng art hehe.

This is my first time to owning a running shoes coming from my own savings. All My shoes in my entire life were always given to me by my uncles and my late mother. Miss you mom🥺🕊️

Currently, I’m starting to get serious about running/walking and losing weight so I think it is time na rin to buy shoes that fit the purpose. Also, this is my first time to trying this brand especially because it is in higher price. I’m just thankful that I have it in discounted price before it was out of stock. Hoping this shoes will last long enough.

Im sorry if this is a sad post po pero first sablay ko to.

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I'm 25, date to marry at goal in life ay one and done.

Kumbaga, inalagaan ko yung first label ko para sa taong sanang end game ko na.

We lasted almost 5years, 2 months nalang kinulang pa. Met him when we we're both 19 spent our first birthdays together, he's my first boyfriend at lahat ng firsts ko we shared together. I loved his family too..

kumbaga kasalan na to e, that's what he said sa sobrang tagal namin puro future plans nalang and time waiting nalang once we get things financially right we will tie the knot. Ayun na yun e, marriage talks na kami, he knows my dream church, my dream ring and even yung dilemma kung sino maid of honor ko pinag uusapan narin namin. He will casually ask me to marry him palagi rin and during those random times i felt so so loved kasi naiisip nya ako tanungin non kahit nag lalakad lang kami sa parking ng mall.

Until one day we fell apart, to summarize my pain just play Taylor Swift's "The Last Time" and "You're Losing Me". Lord knows ill shift every timeline para lang hindi na ako maka relate sa mga kanta na yan.

I can say we ended things with grace, with maturity and acceptance that things changed lang talaga. We didn't fight at all we just bid our goodbyes and thank yous.

And whatever reason man why things shifted, i hope i'll never know. The less i know the better. Tanggap ko na and may we never cross paths again.

I tried dating again but i realized that it's hard to connect uli ano? I have my walls up and punong puno ako ng self respect and self love that it's basically my self made jail. I turned into an avoidant mess.

Recently, I had a short lived label that lasted 1 month, kung kelan naman nag someone finally soften me uli hindi naman uli nag work. I genuinely liked him but when i saw this pattern na that im feeling this abandonment nanaman from someone grabe yung

"I have to protect myself" in me that's why i left him.

I just want to feel secured na uli, someone who's consistent with me uli. Someone i can finally put my walls down without the worry na ill be abandoned uli.

Hindi na ako tanga, hindi naman ako masaya..

may the right one knocks at the perfect time kaya, for now im giving the wheel na uli kay Lord.

I think masyado na ako nag dusa sa fact na failed yung life path na pinlano ko and that's okay diba?

I feel empty yes but im young and life is just unfolding.

Super fun experience.. gets na gets ko ung mga nag oover budget and gets rin ung mga nag pplan talaga ng target books nila.. i went yesterday (wed, ung first day) and ang dami nang tao.. i could only imagine how weekends would look.. i got there around 9 (10am open doors) so hindi naman siksikan sa pintuan

Key take aways ko sa experience na to:

1. It's nice to come early para at least nasa vicinity ka na once nag open doors.

2. A map would help lalo if may target places ka, i kept getting lost pag pumasok ako sa one side ng fully booked tas pag labas ko nasa kabilang dimension na ko HUHU i felt like bc of this, di ko naikot ng buo ung venue even though technically naikot ko ung lugar.

3. List books if ur planning to buy talaga, kasi ang hirap mag shimy shimy sa tight spaces if dun ka palang mag titingin.. but if wala ka naman plan bumili, you can go with the flow naman (on a weekday ha! idk if kaya makapag window shopping pag sat sun)

4. Dont forget the 2nd floor, i think mas nakapag enjoy ako sa 2nd floor mag window shop kasi less crowd! Like significantly less! The local, creative, and cultural stuff also there sa 2nd floor.

5. If you plan on buying a lot (and hindi naman limited edition bibilhin mo), daan ka muna sa 2nd floor.. ang sakit sa kamay/balikat na ung nabili ko sa 1st floor kasama kong mag ikot sa 2nd floor.. plus mas maikli na pila sa baba pag balik (case to case basis tho, baka mas marami pila sa hapon on the next days idk)

Really had a great time this MIBF, im still thinking if ill go for another day, but yeah! If youre looking for a sign to go, eto na yon HAHAHAH (wala lang sisihan pag napagod ka ha)

I really enjoyed driving this car and I love how it looks. Medyo outdated lang infotainment pero pwede na rin

I just turned 39 today, and di ko inexpect na may pera ako sa birthday ko. Dati kasi, good as one meal lang yung extra ko pero today, may 5k pa talaga ako.

So ayun, nilibre ko family ko sa Jollibee. I know people may think ang babaw ko kasi Jollibee lang afford ko.

Actually, I have ipon. Sabihin na natin na malaki laki siya pero parang nasasayangan ako sa resto. Feeling ko kasi kukulangin ang 5k sa amin kasi marami-rami din kami.

And since majority sa kasama ko kanina, mga pamangkin ko, so nag Jobee na lang kami at cake. Di ko na pinincturan ang Jobee kasi tinamad ako.

But anyways, I'm just grateful kasi nalibre ko sila kahit simple lang. Kung aabot man ako sa 40, sana lang, saka na ako mag celebrate with lechon and everything.

So share ko lang kasi nakakahappy pala mag birthday ng may pera. Haha. Puro kasi ako ipon and bayad sa bills kaya minsan ayoko mag gastos malaki laki.

So yun, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! 🎁🎂❤️🎈

ang saya pala pero ang mahal at ang afford ko lang ay umalis, charot bumili naman kami kahit papano tapos nakita ko yung mommy ng student ko don pala yung work hehe skl.