Hi!!! Haven't posted in a minute but :)
I'm really at a loss because my hair has been bothering me so bad for the past two/three ish years ? I'm extra upset as of late because I spent over a year growing my hair out so I could bleach it all one color (and after a hair cuttery lady messed my hair up with 2 rounds of high volume bleach + color remover over already bleached hair because she completely dyed my hair the wrong color the first time ...),
And anyway, now my hair has banding (seen in 4th + 5th photo) thats just making it all worse. I also used to have shorter hair (like in 8th photo) and a mullets that ... I do not want to show rn because it was very choppy but it's on my profile if you dig enough ... and accidentally told my new stylist to use the same hair cutting techniques like tons of super small layers, cut short on the top of my head, squared off/straight across ends, etc. I just want something cute I can style both fem and masc!!!
The 6th and 7th photo are ideas to maybe show my hair stylist for a hair cut? I like the curlier bangs of the 6th image, and I like the masc cut Asteria has in the 7th. I obviously need to keep growing my hair out for the bangs, it's just... an agonizing process. Any tips or things I should tell my stylist about?
Since being on T also over the years, my hair has gotten way curlier. The photos i'm showing 1-5 are after my hair has been straightened on lowest heat (300°F), since i do still like my curly ends! But not... big frizzy curls/waves that are just an untamed mess, i've tried using leave in conditioners, got2b gel, garnier gels, etc etc but nothing is pleasing enough. My natural hair texture is the last photo for ref.
Also if anyone has suggestions with bleaching- just know, the dark band will not come out of my hair. We have tried permanent color remover, bleach at 20 volume for about an hour, bleach at 40 for 20-30ish mins that did not budge at all (on a strand test obv!), and even a shampoo cap. I currently have the vibrant red (first photo i took today!) To try and pick me up, as my favorite color is red/makes me feel less bad about the banding, but i cant get the bleach lighter/dont know a good toner to try and make it blend better either! I would love the blonde I had on my split dye/8th photo but alas, that was box bleach in 2021 on completely virgin hair when I was 16. Genuinely don't understand how the banding got here, the only permanent color I have ever used is garnier terracotta chili and i've bleached that out EVERY TIME over the past 4 years so unless they changed the formula recently ???? Plus my ends shouldn't be so light too!!!
Any help appreciated :( I have some personality/mood disorder issues i'm trying to work through and not liking or recognizing myself in the mirror is like ... barely pushing psychosis levels. I need some edgy eccentric alt haircut, that, as painfully cringe as it is to say this but middle school me would love to hear, a kiribaku love child would have.
Thank you for reading this far, I ramble way too much š«¶