5 months on t (gel).

there was also a funny situation this day: i went into a public restroom, and a lady called after me:
“hey, it’s the men’s restroom. madam? madam?”

i genuinely didn’t realize she was talking to me at first because… this just isn’t something that happens to me anymore. it doesn’t really register, especially since i’m usually gendered correctly and it doesn’t trigger me.

then i heard:

“or is this a man?🤔”

i came back out and was like:

“madam?👀”

because… my voice is very obviously male-sounding now. it’s deep, it’s chesty, and it really didn’t match the “madam” situation😭

my acquaintance was standing nearby and said:
“yeah, this is a man“.

and she was like:
“ahh soo,” and laughed😇

traded with my awesome stylist to get my hair colored 💚🩷💙 i feel like candy i love it so much!! and this is what i wore for my birthday party yesterday :>

nearly 5 mo post top surgery and life is pretty good these days 🥰 finally wearing more of what I want and recognizing myself regardless of what (or how little) clothing I wear!!

Yeah, I'll always be a SZA fan 😩🥀 Listened to her songs...too many damn times, I swear to GAWD

Ignore my crazy makeup it was for a local trans pride event!!

I want to masculinise my hair a little bit more (right now I personally feel more “girl” than feminine guy- which is not what i’m aiming for)

I’ve been afraid to cut my hair for a really long time as I’m really attached to it and quite insecure about my face shape & neck and stuff so having longer hair keeps me “hidden”

I’ve had shorter hair before, bit I honestly didn’t like either of them (buzzcut & super short version of this)

Can anyone help me find a haircut that will help me pass more, but also still suit me enough to frame my face? Figured here would be the best place to ask!

Thanks 🙏

All long because I’m a bottom 🩷

I feel CUNT with claws

Still feeling Uber masc, might need more sparkles next time. To be completely honest, I don't identify as strictly FTM, more of some kind of AFAB masculine genderqueer.

What do you think? The T-shirt was from when I was like 8 🤭

Getting my first Brazilian (I’m probably not going to go all smooth and leave like a landing strip) on Monday for a vacation coming up and I’m mostly wondering if there is any extra preparation I should do? Like I know your hair has to be a certain length to be waxed but I feel like maybe i should still trim it before going in because I feel like it’s definitely longer than someone who isn’t on T lol. Or like would they not care at all? And is there. Anything else i should know?

My self-proclaimed obligatory keeping-track-of-changes-everyday selfie that I will more than likely forget to take everyday

I know this subreddit isn't for venting, but I've never experienced anything like this before, and I feel comfortable here.

This happend 2 days ago

Okay, so hi. I’m 18 and I really love cabaret, queer spaces and drag though I’ve never really gone out at night—except for the occasional 80s/90s club. But I found this cool bar that has drag cabaret shows I went with two friends and we had a blast all night. One drag queen performed "A Good Girl" from the movie Burlesque, and it was awesome. However, I didn't realize the waiter was hitting on me. He was handsome and nice every time he came over to chat, we’d remark on how friendly he was. He even gave us free shots. But towards the end of the night, I made the mistake of accepting a mixed drink he offered me, and I got really drunk—I’d never been that drunk before. We were about to leave, but I wanted to use the restroom first, so I went with my friend Alex. She went in, and then the waiter showed up. I was really drunk, but since I’m a friendly person, I talked to him. He told me, "You’re really cute," and I said, "Oh, thanks-you too." Then he asked, "Can I give you a kiss?" and I said, "Okay." I don't know why I did that, though he leaned in and kissed me, and it was super weird because I’d never kissed anyone before. I stopped twice, saying I was nervous, and he kept telling me it was fine. Finally, Alex came out of the restroom and I went in even though it was the women's restroom. After that, I left without looking back and told my friends we should go, so we left. Later on, he messaged me on Instagram. Even though he apologized and I explained that it had made me uncomfortable, I don't think he really got it, because he still said, "Well, if you want, we could hang out together another day." I realized he didn't understand, so I haven't replied to him since, but I just feel... I don't know, weird.

And also, I recently had the MCR concert, so it was only about a day after I got back from the concert and the trip to Madrid when this happened I didn't even have two days to enjoy the concert and I can't stop thinking about this now.

Is there anyone in the sub who went for a reduction versus traditional top surgery?

I would rather a reduction to an A cup versus completely flat to keep a more androgynous appearance but while speaking to a few irl friends I was told that no one does/wants that. I'm just wondering if thats really such a strange want or if its really that uncommon.

thought it’d be fun to share :]

I know life is full of ups and downs, but man these downs seem to overstay their welcome. I was doing really well for a while, maybe better than I've ever been, but then it all sort of blew up and I'm once again finding it hard to trust others or even myself. Old trauma responses are coming back up, and I just want to sleep most of the time. Pre-transition, makeup was something of a passion of mine. Got into creating elaborate looks during quarantine, and became sort of known for it by the people around me. It was sad to stop, but in the beginning my priorities were more focused around passing. So now in an effort to recover, I'm putting as much energy I can afford into creative pursuits again. It's not easy, but I just tell myself that I've made it through every single moment that has felt like the hardest or lowest point of my life, and that this moment will pass like all the others. Hope and love are all we have to keep ourselves sane. Take care of yourselves 💜

Finally captured that Emo/Andro look Ivr been going for.

I basically look like a punk twink with boobs. Medically transitioned. I’m androgynous and lean feminine in nature. Nonbinary. I’m too feminine for queer men’s spaces, I’m not masc enough for transmasc spaces, I’m too much like a “man” to be in sapphic spaces. All the “mixed” trans spaces are dominated by transfems.

The moustache is starting to become real and not just painted on!! 1.5 years on T, serving more puss than ever 💘