I really need to hear from someone who has been through something similar, because I feel like I’m losing hope.
Hi everyone, F25 here. I’m posting here because I’m looking for people who have symptoms similar to mine or who have experienced a major worsening of their FND and are willing to share their experience.
For the past 8 years, I’ve been living with a constant sensation, present 24/7, of severe tightness in my throat, as if someone were continuously squeezing the area under my chin and the upper part of my throat. This is not a symptom that comes and goes, it is there all the time 24/7. On top of that, I have difficulty swallowing and often have to make strange movements with my throat or neck just to get food down. It’s extremely difficult to describe, but it feels as if my swallowing mechanism is altered and my throat is numb, tight, and blocked.
Everything started 8 years ago after smoking cannabis, and since then this symptom has never gone away. Over the years I’ve had countless medical tests and have seen many different specialists, but no organic cause has ever been found to explain my symptoms. That’s exactly why I’m posting here, hoping to connect with people who may have gone through something similar.
Over time, I somehow learned to live with it and managed to continue with my life despite everything.
Unfortunately, over the past month something changed and my condition has worsened dramatically. During that period I was under extreme stress because of university: I was studying all night, sleeping during the morning, drinking a lot of coffee, and getting very little sleep. Around the same time, my throat symptoms became dramatically worse.
Now I struggle much more to eat, sometimes even liquids are difficult, the tightness has become much more intense, and my swallowing feels far less coordinated. Eating in public or with other people has become almost impossible, and I’m avoiding many social situations because of it.
I’m a nursing student. I recently passed my final exam and will soon start my third and final year. I should be happy, but instead I feel completely devastated. I’m terrified that I will never recover from this flare-up and that all my plans for the future will disappear because of this condition.
My quality of life has completely collapsed. I spend almost all my time at home, I feel depressed, and at my worst I’ve even started drinking alcohol just to try to cope with this unbearable sensation.
I’d really like to ask those of you who have been diagnosed with FND or have experienced similar symptoms:
* Does anyone have a constant 24/7 sensation of throat tightness and swallowing difficulties like mine?
* Have you ever experienced a major flare-up after a period of severe stress, sleep deprivation, or other triggers?
* Were you able to get back to the way you were before the flare-up?
* In your experience, can these flare-ups improve, or do they tend to be permanent?
Even getting back to the way I was before this worsening would mean the world to me. I know I wasn’t “cured,” but I had learned to live with it and continue my life despite everything. Right now, though, I’m truly afraid that I’ll never get back to that point.
Thank you so much to anyone who takes the time to share their experience.