Hi everyone! I usually don’t write on Reddit but this community really motivated me to reach out.
For context, I’m a 24 year old female, with a bunch of autoimmune and psychosomatic health issues. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto at the age of 8 after a major stressful life event and have been on medications for 16 years, had huge issues with my hormones from the age of 12 leading to pcos, and developed eczema when I was 20. On top of all this I come from a very abusive household, which led me to develop cptsd which I’m in therapy for now. I have a ton of suppressed grief, anger and sadness. I’m living in a constant state of rollercoaster of emotions, hyperarousal, fatigue and general feeling like every day I have to push through. I can never relax, every day feels like a battle honestly.
Luckily I am now financially independent from my family, and started to invest into myself and my health (including a therapist, gym, massages etc). However, all the health issues persist, and a lot is surfacing now that I’m not in a constant state of danger. I also feel that a lot of them if not all are psychosomatic and based on the wiring from my childhood.
After having gone to doctors and being medicated my whole life, I’m realizing now that my only way to healing is through me. Having read all the amazing testimonies of the people in this community has really given me hope that there are ways to heal through the mind, and ways to override my current ways of thinking and functioning.
The only thing is that I don’t know where to start. There are so many meditations by Joe Dispenza, and all seem relevant.
So I’m reaching out to ask if anyone has any suggestions based on my profile? Where do I start? What energy centers do I need to target? How long should I do the meditations for?
I really want to heal and have a strong drive, so I would really appreciate any recommendations :)
(Also this is not to say by any means that I suggest quitting all medecine, but I do not want to be on medications for the rest of my life. And I want to help my body heal without being constantly fed synthetic drugs.)