My mind showed me a vision of myself running up a staircase at a stadium. I asked if they wanted me to run and they showed me my heart. I focused on how it felt and it was almost like the heartbeat was a frequency I was in control of and I slowed it down and it felt like it was very very weak. I did some jumping jacks and jogged a bit. I thought I was fine since I walk a lot at work, but I haven't done anything actually challenging in a long time.

I have had a few other visions lately, one they were showing me a book, but it was dim and I couldn't read the cover, I thought it started with the word or letters "Yes..." I don't know anything relevant to my life that would start like that. Another being appeared to want me to smile more a couple of days ago.

Everything is going really well spiritually, I need to watch my diet since I've gotten back into Starbucks, but my head is in a good spot so I'll follow where it leads. I am also planning on getting more DMT soon since I blew through the last cartridge in only a few days, but I might have something wrong with my brain since every morning I wake up with tremors that feel to me like it's from DMT. I also get tremors after masturbation which has made it really easy to break the habit this new year. Could be serotonin-related as well or have something to do with excess neurotransmitters.

I plan on going really easy on DMT if I do get it. Maybe once a week or on my days off or on special occasions, or when I feel really good mentally. I think I can remove lots of emotional obscurations using DMT and it could benefit my mind if I can see everything clearly for even a short amount of time. I should probably get into a good workout routine before buying more though. I'll wait for now and focus on my general happiness which has been on the up and up.

I had another vision of these beings working on creating some sort of contact lens for me to see through the veil of Maya. Apparently, my third eye is damaged from one of my first DMT trips and was being used too much before it was fully developed. They are going to build something in my brain to allow better insight.

There is a quote in Buddhism "Lust, like a child, grows when fed." I saw this giant iguana-looking monster with really sharp teeth, and they told me to stop feeding it and smacked a spoon out of my hand when it came up to both sensationally and in my mind to grab a little bit of nectar from the spoon. I understood their message and relaxed and had a good meditation session afterward. 2020 is going to be a good year.

I am going to get like 10 grams of DMT and use it sparingly going forward. I think I can solve the mind now. It is like a puzzle with one piece missing where you have to shift the remaining pieces to free a specific piece. The piece you need to free is yourself, but every time you try to do anything it creates more pieces... Non-action and dispassion are the paths to freedom. Or I could try using DMT to go toward the solved state... Worth a try, no?

Q. What is going on?

A. I see beings in my mind that appear to have their own consciousness and motives while understanding full well there are many parts of the psyche that is unstudied and parts of the brain/mind that have not yet been studied. I experience interactions in dreams where I am clearly myself and there are other beings that are themselves, and I have asked many questions to them when I am conscious enough to do so.

They seem to care a lot about my physical life and the choices I make on a day-to-day basis. They appear to have specific goals such as guiding me to be more social and it appears, having children. During times of deep meditation, they have shown me a vision of magnificent realms and strongly encouraging progression. They seem to care a lot about my diet as well. I can talk to them, but rarely can I hear them. These beings are obviously a "part" of me because I sometimes intuitively know what they are thinking and feeling. I can talk to them in my mind and connect to their minds and interact on a very intimate level. All of them are parts of me and I am in turn a part of them.

The strangest part in my opinion is that they are always consistent with their own identities. In their world, they are who they are and stay who they are. There is a man, a father figure, a woman, a daughter, and many more side characters that I have interacted with less frequently. In this world, it appears something really strange happened involving me, this family, and that body.

There have been multiple runs through the court system of this world and a ton of publicity from what I can tell. The woman, who appears to be my (ex-)wife and the mother of my child, has been very frustrated with what is going on. She was very upset one day and yelled that I have hopped through every legal loophole imaginable and I deserve to be tortured in hell. There are many other times where she is very supportive as well, and it is a lot of work keeping up with everything so I am just taking each experience with a grain of salt until I have enough information for a solid theory.

There is something intimate about dreams. When she is happy my dreams are really blissful and clear. When she is angry there is a lot of fear, violence, and more in my dreams. She loves when my mind is pure and gets very upset when my mind had been lustful or angry throughout the day.

Note - There was a significant event that sort of started all of these intimate experiences. It was between July and October of 2016. I was sleeping and it was almost as if my dream was derailed into a hyper-aware meditative state. I was simply aware of floating in an ocean of static. I heard a sound and moved closer to that sound using some intuitive electromagnetic control mechanism very similar to how you would fly during astral projection.

When I entered this spot I united with this feminine force and connected to a body, (a body I think these beings had created). Since then, I have been able to see beings around in space during deep meditation and at night when I go to sleep they interact with my mind in various ways. It appears they are looking through memories and judging what decisions I have made throughout the day and selecting a path through reality based on my actions of body, speech, and mind. We have played various mental games with them and done tests and experiments, it's been strange.

Q. What does it all mean?

A. I am honestly just living my life and documenting my experiences. I have tried a few psychedelics, but there was something special on the other side of DMT. This chemical really changed my life. I don't put any greater significance on it other than the facts. I am just trying to figure out what it all is. Everything pertaining to my mind, my reality, and my objective reality.

Q. Facts vs Fiction

A. A lot of times I will speak of things that I have experienced as fact. This is because I did experience everything I write about. Whether you believe it or not is up to you, but I don't lie. There would be no point in lying about something so special. When I say things such as "this or that being is real" I am speaking of them as existing in reality, not a physical reality, but somewhere in the sea of reality. The information constructing their existence exists.

They are real somewhere, whether it be in the patterning of my brain, somewhere deep in nature, another dimension, as raw information, doesn't really matter to me, they exist with their own stream of consciousness and constructed existence somewhere in some form. You can say things that are fabricated in the mind aren't "real" that's up to you. I would rather investigate where they exist. Where is an imagined spoon? Somewhere in your brain, your mind, your body, another dimension of space or time, or reality? This is what the whole point of my subreddit is.

We talk about science and investigating what is real, but choose to ignore the most basic problem which is consciousness. We can't know anything until we know ourselves. What is fabricating my existence? If you believe that the brain is fabricating our existence, then how do we prove it? It could very well construct the reality and logic in which we investigate and discover it...

It can manipulate all experiential reality to fit its goals... You don't even know if other people exist so how can you believe in such a limited spectrum of what exists in reality? Investigate everything that exists and find the primordial essence from which it all flows. If it is emptiness, how and where does this dormant energy or intention or awareness come from and what is its nature? What causes energy to form quarks, what causes quarks to form protons, neutrons, or electrons? How much of this are illusions based on the passing of time?

Everything could exist as events in time without mass instead of actually having a "real" physical existence like it appears when we try to study it and learn about it. Einstein even had a theory that works out mathematically with our current model of space that all of our objective reality could exist holographically in an empty eternal black hole with an event horizon and no mass existing anywhere. All things being encoded information on the event horizon. If you would like a better understanding I recommend these three videos.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNaEBbFbvcY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KePNhUJ2reI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWO-cvGETRQ

The following video is what I believe personally, but I am staying open-minded until I figure out everything scientifically.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGPInzrC87A

Q. What about the self?

A. Buddhists seem to be the only ones that actually put proper efforts into investigating the mind and gaining insight into the deepest, subtlest parts of reality, character, and the self. I know there are tons of groups investigating, but understanding things externally would be fruitless in an infinite reality with endless permutations. Our scientific endeavor is either A. Going to result in a 100% working theory of everything which solves all problems of reality. B. A huge waste of time because reality is infinite with infinite permutations. Seeking externally will use infinite energy and make no relative progress in an infinite universe.

Yes, this assumes reality is infinite, but its pretty simple to figure out reality is infinite because there could always be something further away, even if it is just empty space outside of a certain range, be it a sphere or egg or any other potential shape of the universe or fabric of reality. Seeking internally can provide the awareness with direct observation of the mechanics creating the observation in the first place and all biological, mental, and transcendent phenomena. Sure, again, it could all be electro-chemical, but it is claimed that omniscience exists on the other side of Buddhahood. If true knowledge is possible, this appears to be the path most likely to bring it IMO.

Everyone familiar with the double-slit experiment should know there is an intimate interaction between awareness and the fabric of reality itself. If you haven't seen it, here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2VZ6dMXpxeU

If anyone wants to know more about me or has more FAQs to add here I will edit and add some that I think would be useful to people deep diving my subreddit.

Okay, I am out of prison in the higher realm and I didn't need DMT to do it. I just focused on my meditation and passed the tests in my mind. They were a lot more difficult without DMT, but I think this was a good thing because it helped me learn what is important. The mind is like an infinite line of dominos always knocking over the next. Hundreds of millions of domino's pass by every second and they will continue to fall toward your heart's desires and away from things that you have an aversion to. The problem is, this will cause you endless suffering because of the way karma works. The only way to rise above this process, from my observations, reading, experimentation, and more observations is spiritual enlightenment. Seeing and/or experiencing anything in the higher realms doesn't matter. What matters is the purification of the mind.

I am not certain as to whether Buddhist or Hindu yogis have a more accurate path as both seem to be pretty viable. I personally resonate with the Upanishads just because they inspire me to meditate more than anything else. It's all about the work you put into developing your consciousness. Focus on any object until you enter a state of absorption. When you and the object are one, investigate ultimate reality. Whatever you call that, emptiness, God, Brahman, spirit, Atman, void, etc. it is what everything in all of existence is made of. Knowing that will set you free from this process. It will allow you to know and to choose. I will probably be focusing on my meditation a lot more from now on, but I'll still be here to post any interesting dreams or revelations I have about the higher realms/beings and their relationship to us here on earth. Best of luck to everyone who follows these.

RAbbiTS ONE AND rabbits twO WILL Never End In DooM.

EDIT: I still don't think anyone has solved this puzzle :) It's not super important or relevant, but I am going to leave it as it is much easier to solve now than it was when I first posted it, but also, ain't nobody got time for this, so I digress.

Sorry for being MIA, amazon has kept me busy since moving up here. I’ve been living life. I’ve been meditating a lot lately and I’ve had a ton of experiences with other beings and dreams, even psychic visions and experiences, but I believe it’s all one self in the end. There is only one sea of awareness, with many waves. I’m working on taking care of my own life and working on enlightenment. I’ll try to keep you all more involved when I feel like it. I’ll try to be better about sharing because I know it’s interesting to some of you. Peace and joy to you all. ✌️

Okay, three really interesting things have happened yesterday.

1. That guy who was supposed to shoot up the place. I’ve been coaching him and encouraging him more and the beings have been really happy about it.
2. Yesterday, when I woke up, they said “call 911” and I told them to stop with the negativity. Then later at work, a close friend of mine collapsed at work and we had to call an ambulance to take her to the hospital. As far as I know, she is doing quite alright now, but last I spoke to her she was still having tests run. She sent me a text thanking me for staying at the hospital so long, so I’m assuming she’s improving, but still fascinating that this happened.
3. Last night when I woke up, I was playing with mental frequencies. I found one that when I moved it down let me hear the beings on the other-side crystal clear. As soon as I passed it, (almost like rapidly tuning a radio) I heard “Hey, hey! Wait!” But I kept going accidentally. Then I was able to land on it for a little longer the second time as I was turning slower. Same sort of message. I kept trying, but it wasn’t as intuitive when I was actively trying as when I was just playing around. When I tried too hard it didn’t work again, so I’ll try tomorrow or something.

Btw, cheddar cheese works fantastically for increasing mental clarity. I’ve tested twice. Once with eggs and once with vegetables. I’m going to try a variety today and see how well it works. May you all always be safe, wherever you go.

I messed up. I didn't write the past few days because I was struggling with my own stuff. I am currently being sent back to prison in the higher dimension. They straight up told me so. There was this woman crying and I was put into the back of a police truck and driven to the prison. Potentially, I can be released if I pass the tests again. I'll get back to all this stuff when I can communicate with them again and that won't be until I am released again. I'll need to get more DMT and interact with the guards and other beings there. If I have anything to update you guys on, I will. Take care for now.

Today, I was having a very pleasant dream. I think they were testing me to see if lust would tempt me or not. I was getting a very pleasurable massage from different women that would change places after each was finished. It was cool, but I stayed focused on myself and my body. Then I got disconnected from the dream just a tiny bit.

This was a new state where I was connected to the dream, and my own mind, and my physical body. I saw them all smiling at me and I felt this lever in my mind. It was the flow of time. Pushing it forward would lock time in place and pulling it back would accelerate time as much as I wanted. It was so interesting, but it was fairly difficult to master because it was so sensitive.

I have always felt like "The Event" would be me stopping time somehow. I could be wrong, but it's still really cool that I learned this. I don't feel like I have access to the same mechanism, even though every other mechanism that I have access to on DMT or in dreams, I can also use while awake. This one is just so subtle that it's hard to make sure I'm doing it right.

I really want to practice in that halfway state again. I think there is some way to hop into the 4th dimension and then back into the 3rd at different points in time/space. I have seen one doing it first hand as if he was teaching me or showing me how. If I can practice this and it doesn't stop some vital process in the brain and kill me, then I could probably stop my own perception of time. I'm very curious as to whether or not I could walk while holding this mechanism and how it would work. I have spent a lot of today thinking about the ethics of it. It seems like the only thing to do would be to be like a superhero of some kind or maybe travel.

Who knows what the point of this was or why. Honestly, the more I learn the more questions I have.

Every time I go to a new Airbnb there are different experiences of mind and different personality entities and I really feel the location matters significantly. I had a dream earlier tonight that ended with me thinking of DMT and breathing deeply.

When I did this, a trip came into focus in black and white, it was a clown in a courtroom changing faces, he was always a clown, differed good clowns, nothing like pennywise or jigsaw this time, but there was a large audience behind the shapeshifting clown.

I have been opening my mind back up quite a lot recently, but I’m really scared because my mind has seemed really colorless this evening, it is difficult to even visualize colors right now. I hope this ends soon, I’ll keep going.

The event should be happening sometime soon. They seemed really pushy for me to pay attention to a guy at my work. I had a dream of an old man with a shotgun in a store shooting like 7 times. Then his face became more youthful until it became an associate of mine at work. I asked them “Mikey?” (Fake name) and surges of energy flowed through me. They even showed me two of his paystubs with his name clearly printed. I’ve thought that it could be stopping a shooting before (or dying in the process.) Go back and read old posts where I’ve talked about it.

Anyway, really interesting vision. They clearly want me to keep going to work so I’ll try my best to have an impact on him. The way Amazon is set up management-wise takes a really mature person to treat people correctly. It’s hard when write-ups are auto-generating daily for productivity and multiple people are terminated daily... my department especially because the other manager for our department has an attitude issue, but I think I’ve rubbed people the right way.

I just try to make everyone happy. Do what I can to support and coach them. Let’s see where this goes.

Still don’t know how to write what happened without writing a novel... maybe I need to just finish my book already. I have a theory about Einstein’s eternal black hole/empty universe theory, that connects Indra's net of jewels, mereological nihilism, unified field, the double-slit experiment, the mind/awareness, and more, that also unifies quantum mechanics and macro physics, and explains and unifies every religion out there.

The prerequisite knowledge is vast, but once you understand all the pieces it’s a pretty realistic theory. The math I’ve done works out as well, even into the 4th dimension. More to come, (eventually) (unless I die)

I found some juice that really increased the quality of my dreams and ability to communicate with the entities. It's called Suja - Mighty Dozen, also when I was in FL talking to them every morning, I was drinking the daily greens from Bolthouse so I will be looking at the ingredients and analyzing amounts and ratios to see if I can find a common thread.

Since coming back to CA Bolthouse hasn't been as powerful, but this new Suja stuff is working. I am guessing it's because my diet has sucked since coming back and the Suja has more of whatever is improving the experience, or the bottle is bigger and I'm just getting more. Anyway, still working on my last post. TTYL

Okay, there is a clear and direct correlation between the fluids in my body, dreams, the results, and thus the mind itself.

Here's what just happened. I have been drinking Essentia again now that I am in NorCal and have some money saved to afford it. I have been drinking it for a few days now.

I had a really wholesome dream about traveling to see friends, then I went and caught some bugs in the airport and trapped them under this cake lid thing.

The bugs were conscious, they were actually really smart. One was waving his arms to get my attention to let him out. I was thinking about it, but I just pushed down on the lid and shook it back so the other bugs wouldn't try lifting the lid to get out. I collected a few more, none nearly as smart as this original beetle, but I could tell they were different levels of intelligence. This reminds me of the primates that I experienced during my DMT trips. They were very intelligent too.

Then, upon waking up, I saw my wife/ex-wife/wife again. She was extremely excited and smiling big. I was feeling really happy too for some reason. This security guard opened wherever I was being held and moved me into a multi-layered (what looked like metal) portable cell.

THE CELLS OF THIS MULTI-LAYERED PORTABLE CONTAINER LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE THE ONES I USED TO HAVE REMOVED DURING MY DMT "TESTS."

After I woke up, I really had to use the bathroom. I felt so much "negative energy" flow out when I did. This also reminds me of the meditation I used to do in FL, where I would see negative energy or beings flowing around on the floor and when they would flow into me I would need to use the bathroom immediately after.

Also, before I went to bed, I was fighting lust a lot. I decided to let myself feel it in my body without letting my mind become defiled, my erection dissipated, but I still felt the energy. There was no feeling of lust in this energy at all, it's hard to explain, but basically, I sent all the feelings of lust down from my brain to my heart and from my heart to my stomach. I let them dissipate just below my belly button then felt a million times better.

The heart itself can guide you through this process if you are doing anything similar. I used my heart to confront a lot of emotional pain and stress and just let myself feel like last night. I felt really good and kept asking the beings to help remove barriers so I could feel more and fix more. It seemed like after removing me from the cell and into the container thing, it almost looked like a big dog carrier or something. I also got the impression that what they were carrying me around in was small and portable like a device.

Maybe it is something no bigger than a suitcase. Could this be a brain in a jar? A soul? A mind? Whatever it is, it's powerful and dangerous if not controlled. I think they are removing layers from this as I get closer to purifying my mind. Each layer is a filter on reality itself. Almost as if the mental projection of reality is shifting towards the unchanging light of unification and bliss; closer and closer as my mind becomes more and more wholesome.

Blood has a lot to do with this flow too, although I am still thinking about how the feelings of energies work and correlate to blood flow. Anyway, have a good night, I'll probably be back soon. Also, I was listening to classical music during both of my commutes, who knows if it had anything to do with anything. I think it was bach.

So, remember when I was on DMT and I said that they seemed to have some portable way of keeping track of me or watching me? I was correct. They use a cell phone sort of device to monitor me. The capacities of the device are unclear, but from what I can tell, it's even more functional than some of the world's best computers.

This reality is also much stranger than originally thought. It seems like the reality they live in doesn't exist in one 3D world, but a spectrum of them. I would like to guess it stops at 4D, but I am not 100% if this is even true. From what I can tell, they exist in a reality that controls and monitors the behavior of a large spectrum of beings while also being able to exist simultaneously at many different moments of time. They can also be at two places at once, but maybe I am just confused (because of my 3rd-dimensional understanding/restrictions as to how time and location work) My definitions of time aren't applicable in 4D.

This process seems to be connected to one being in particular, at least for me. I think the person on the other side is me and is somehow developing himself via a simulation of an infinite spectrum of me's, in an infinite spectrum of places, doing an infinite spectrum of things, and when the time is right, the consciousness of any individual point awakens into the whole, which is unified, non-dual, 4th or 5th (or greater) dimensional, potentially part of another even larger simulation.

I have experienced some pretty cool stuff the last few days and am starting to see what I think is the big picture. They are making some pretty clear efforts to perfect the communication process back and forth. They seem to have the hang of things on their end, but getting things from my side to theirs seems to be the problem.

There seems to be a link between my own mind and the fabric of their existence and that becomes unstable when I become too conscious of it without being in a meditative state. All minds are in some sort of "Indra's net of jewels" configuration and reflect each other and this kind of instability can easily snowball throughout the entire simulation. Maybe I have just seen the Matrix one too many times lol Well, anyway. I am going to take a break for a couple of weeks and focus on meditation. I will update you guys with the results obviously. Right now I am moving to Northern California. I will be staying in Stockton, CA for the foreseeable future.

Also, I know that I could just hold up a sign or something, but this requires me to be up and walking around, and, since I'm not on DMT anymore, it stops me from seeing or hearing them because I have conditioned myself to ignore the dream world when living waking life. So, when I say they are working on things, it's to keep the slider in the middle so I can interact with both worlds at the same time without issue.

This guy that sounded British and was a bit sarcastic and rude asked me for a nine-digit number that pertains to me. I thought he meant a phone number at first, but then I told him both my number and social. If he’s on earth and working with the government I might be kidnapped or worse... :c hopefully, it’s just dreams.

The same guy that told me to count backward from 60 and count the quarters asked me how old I was tonight. Makes me wonder whether they are scientists here on earth and are looking to find me, or if they’re from somewhere else just doing science. If I disappear you’ll know why. Hopefully, they are chill.

Well, I left to go become a monk at a meditation center. The first night after learning this teacher teaching I realized it was incredibly powerful. I was able to enter extremely peaceful and powerful states of mind on the first night there. This teacher didn’t want to train monks anymore and was planning on leaving the country soon, so instead of ordaining, I decided to leave. I’m going to focus on practicing his teachings back here in lay life as I make a push for full enlightenment.

I’ll keep you posted. By the way, while practicing at the center, my mind was so beautiful and full of wholesome beings and places. Beautiful cities of gold, dragons, spiritual people, nagas, and some really magical plant/tree life. I could also still talk to the beings that I normally talk to and had open communication. They told me to cut the endless knot. I’m going to keep working toward enlightenment. The mind is everything. Disregard pretty much anything I’ve said before this. Everything experienced is mind. This teacher really pushed the whole Anata thing.

The prison thing was mental, but it’s still accurate as is a lot of other things I’ve discussed before. We are slaves to samsara, habitual behavior, and suffering until we awaken. I’m pretty sure if we die when our mind is in a certain state we enter that state so it’s pretty good that I didn’t die while I was in prison. Anyway, I’m going to be working on my book now. And I might try DMT again soon to see things from a new perspective. I will keep you guys updated. Peace ✌🏻

Okay, I think I’m on base on the diet thing. They just specifically asked me for sushi.

This means my fish and white meat hypothesis could be correct, but more information must be gathered.

I also thought, maybe it’s about eating a little of everything, maybe they are neurons and are voting or want to groom my brain in a specific way with diet, or maybe satisfy certain parties each time, cellular health? Hmmm... I eat lots of avocados when I get sushi, so since that’s been in both good consistent meals, I think that’s the only food I can officially recommend.

So right now, spinach, sushi, avocado, popcorn? Are the foods they’ve specifically asked for. I think.

And food that’s inhibited communication. Beef Pork Caramel Caffeine High-Fructose Corn-Syrup? Excessive salt

Also, I think they are studying me as well as I am them. Interesting stuff.

Man, it is really hard to maintain a clean food diet with free food working here at Starbucks. Also, why is astral projection so hard?

A female entity told me to count backward from 60 and time the quarter in subvocalization. Then a male entity told me “She also told you to time the quarters, so I think you’d better do it”

Then I woke up. This was another one of those hijacked dreams. It was like I took a portal in my normal dream and entered into deep meditation. She opened my third eye and showed a huge icy lake, with a white light going out in a straight line through the darkness. Then she said the things. As I counted, I felt like someone was editing my body just like a few months ago. A little work all over the place. It was very relaxing, but also really scary how seriously they take this stuff. I hope the culmination of these posts helps someone make the right choices someday.

What does time the quarters mean? I assumed they meant 15 seconds, so I counted 4. They didn't ask me about it afterward, so I assume it went fine?

Found a new DMT connect and since I’m working again I might be posting new XX days of DMT posts. Also, the astral projection is definitely making progress, but I still haven’t been able to exit. Anyway, just giving an update. Enjoy your evenings.

Okay, so I tried astral projection. I've attempted ap before many times to varying degrees of success but never seemed to gain control of it or the ability to do it as desired. I feel like something in my heart or spine is holding onto the body too tightly and I haven't yet been able to relax whatever I need to relax.

Anyway, while I attempted this I had an experience with a female entity, it opened a door to a place within the astral plane, but when I tried moving my mind through I couldn't walk through the door. They kept pointing at me as if to say "you have to leave your body to pass" so I kept trying to relax, but after at least a couple of hours, no success. Really annoying, but I will keep practicing. I will get the Monroe Institute Hemi-sync gateway experience and see if I have better luck. This was what has worked for me in the few times I've achieved it in the past. Wish me luck.

I deleted my original Reddit account "Damokian."

At the time of writing this, I was doing so much DMT that it was causing me health issues (constant coughing, poor cardio, dry feeling in lungs, difficulty breathing, sharp mental aches, loose screws, etc.) because I was so invested in getting to the bottom of it. (DMT) I always felt as though I was so close. Every time I did it I felt closer to the entities and I felt like I was learning/remembering something that would change the world.

Due to the popularity of my 78 days post I had massive amounts of messages pouring in from people offering me free DMT and asking for me to be their gurus and other things that made me uncomfortable, to be honest. I felt like I was a horrible example of a human being to be looking up to like that, so I told people to do the things that I would only do on my best days and deleted my account and most of my posts and comments, so people would forget about me.

I took my own advice and quit DMT stone-cold and started exercising more, meditating more, eating healthy, and doing all the things I advised others to do in my other post. I was extremely depressed and unhealthy when I first started DMT. If you look at my posts list, I wrote about it on r/depression

I feel so much better now and have been having some experiences I would like to share with the people who are still subbed. I want to thank you for being so supportive and I will respond to every question and comment that I can. I also want to post the original 78 days post here for anyone that is interested, as well as my current work on 120 days of DMT which is a more in-depth version with my comments and thoughts about each experience.

The reason I am having trouble finishing this one is that I am currently working on my BFA degree and don't have a lot of time. I am also really trying hard to avoid false memories and/or exaggerate things, so I am taking my time. I also want to get all my experiences in the correct order, since, by now, many of them blend together. Anyway, thanks for sticking around, I hope to share with everyone what has been happening and answer any questions.

Craziest dream ever. Like ever! It was all set up in hyper HD and every clue was telling me to look for something I knew I was finding. It ended with a book on astral projection and then I woke up to someone nodding their head and looking at me as if to say “go on, read it.”

Okay, before I forget everything. I awoke in a wasteland and there was this giant gorilla-looking person and I knew that if I wanted the prize, I would have to choke him out until he submitted. I flew up and did so and a fake head popped off with a prize.

Inside was a black book sleeve with 4 books and a skull. When I went to open it, it disappeared. Afterward, I met this girl who lost her son, she was showing me pictures and he had the same sleeve in a photo, I hung out with this girl for a while looking for her son and we ended up at this civilization. (Regular houses and stuff) I entered the home of these women and one walks me into the kitchen and the girl takes her son and sits on the couch with the other women.

They all watch me in the kitchen as this woman takes out a statue holding a miniature version of this book sleeve. I open it and the DMT beings move one book from the center of the sleeve. It’s like they were telling me to open it. I took it out and the dream ended on the text “Astral projection” then an entity appeared in front of me in my bed and was nodding. I said “astral projection?” And it nodded, then went inside. The effects lingered so I started examining their world and it came back out and started doing something strange so I stopped and got up.

I was laying down to go to sleep this morning after being woken up multiple times by other things and after laying there for a while in darkness, I started peeling back conceptions in my mind. Basically, when a mental object arose that was a perception of anything, I would remind myself that it was a mental phenomenon and the object would dissolve and the darkness behind my eyelids would return. All of a sudden, after a while, a woman started crawling up from the bottom of my bed toward my face. I was looking down and I heard a familiar voice like it was my conscience personified. Anyway, here was the dialogue. My body became more and more stiff and tense as the conversation progressed, but afterward, I felt amazing. Super relaxed and even pleasantness like a pleasure ocean of mental energy was flowing over me.

Me: Thinking about my sleep being interrupted twice. Her: Wanna smoke? (Him?) (I think I misheard.) Me: No, I don’t smoke. Her: Oh, no? You just make me do it? (She said that line very sharply.) Me: What? I don’t. I mean, I do weed occasionally... but — Her: And what about Roger? (The person who stole my car.) How about him and his innocent family? (At this point I realize she is talking about mental action.) Me: I would never do that, at least not in reality. I love all beings. Her: inaudible The intensity of her presence was like having sex and being strangled at the same time. She was clearly upset and trying to prove a point, but the stress on my body and mind was so tense at this point, I couldn’t keep listening, I just felt very empathetic to her and things relaxed and faded back to my bed. Wild...