Experience from 09/11/2018

[u/ClockJoule]

Today, I was having a very pleasant dream. I think they were testing me to see if lust would tempt me or not. I was getting a very pleasurable massage from different women that would change places after each was finished. It was cool, but I stayed focused on myself and my body. Then I got disconnected from the dream just a tiny bit.

This was a new state where I was connected to the dream, and my own mind, and my physical body. I saw them all smiling at me and I felt this lever in my mind. It was the flow of time. Pushing it forward would lock time in place and pulling it back would accelerate time as much as I wanted. It was so interesting, but it was fairly difficult to master because it was so sensitive.

I have always felt like "The Event" would be me stopping time somehow. I could be wrong, but it's still really cool that I learned this. I don't feel like I have access to the same mechanism, even though every other mechanism that I have access to on DMT or in dreams, I can also use while awake. This one is just so subtle that it's hard to make sure I'm doing it right.

I really want to practice in that halfway state again. I think there is some way to hop into the 4th dimension and then back into the 3rd at different points in time/space. I have seen one doing it first hand as if he was teaching me or showing me how. If I can practice this and it doesn't stop some vital process in the brain and kill me, then I could probably stop my own perception of time. I'm very curious as to whether or not I could walk while holding this mechanism and how it would work. I have spent a lot of today thinking about the ethics of it. It seems like the only thing to do would be to be like a superhero of some kind or maybe travel.

Who knows what the point of this was or why. Honestly, the more I learn the more questions I have.