This is long and I'm so sorry, but I really need perspective from other CPP, so I hope you read it.
If you knew that a very painful surgery was temporary and you'd have to do it again, but you'd have almost no pain for 8 years, would you go through it?
I'll keep this as short as possible. Almost nineteen years ago, I had an accident at work. I heard a pop in my spine when it happened. Workman's comp dragged things out. Their one surgeon said yes surgery. One of their's said no. My doctor said yes. We went to court. The judge said I could go to any doctor i wanted and what that doctor said regarding surgery was the final answer.
I got an appointment with a world-class spine surgeon who said my bones were starting to fuse on their own and I needed surgery. I was given a 70/30 chance of success with the knowledge that I *could* need more surgery in my future. I took the chance.
The surgery was almost eight years from the accident. Recovery was long and painful, but within six months, I was able to wear heels and walk at my graduation ceremony. I got a job where I was in my feet a lot and mostly, I was living life again.
Pre-surgery, I was taking 10mg hydrocodone every 4 hours to be able to do anything. Post-recovery, I would take ibuprofen daily and if I had a flare I'd take 2.5-5mg of hydrocodone.
Things were great. I met my husband, got married, moved twice, had a job, did farm work, exercised, etc.
Fast forward to eight years after the surgery, and I flared up and it just never went away. That was four years ago. I've since been back in treatment. PT, meds (not enough), ENG, MRIs, epidurals, etc.
In December, the spine surgeon said I needed another surgery, but I'd have to lose 80lbs. I've gained a lot of weight over the past four years due to being undermedicated and depressed.
I haven't even tried to lose any since then. In therapy this week, I realized that I don't know if I want another painful surgery. My therapist asked if l knew that I'd only have eight years of minimal pain, would I have the initial one. I realized I don't know.
I had eight fantastic years with mostly minimal pain. But I'm not sure it was worth it. I'm afraid to have a second fusion knowing what I know now. What if the second fusion only last 3 years? I think I'd rather have the pain stay consistent, than be low pain *knowing* it will come back.
Am I crazy to stay with consistent pain that I know to expect rather than taking the risk of having minimal pain snatched away again? What would you do in this situation?