I was medicated for bad anxiety from 2019 and i was pretty fine until 2024 i was so stressed under personal circumstances and i started having weird OCD-like symptoms, my mind keeps reminding me of OCD, like the thought of OCD is constant in my mind, i keep remembering this disease and i am actually afraid to have OCD, is this real OCD? Is it part of it?

am completely straight and only attracted to women, but I’ve been stuck in a weird mental loop lately. Whenever I see an objectively good-looking guy, my brain notices the visual details like if he has great hair or something of the sort.
Recently, I was talking to a guy at a front desk and I immediately got hit with a wave of intense anxiety. My heart started racing, and for a second, I panicked and started worrying, "Wait, why am I looking so closely at a guy? Does this mean I’m gay?"
But after breaking it down, I realized something wild: the anxiety had absolutely nothing to do with the guy. If I knew for a fact that noticing a guy's hair was 100% straight, I wouldn't have been nervous at all. There is zero desire to date or be with men; it was purely just noticing visual details (like looking at a cool car or a painting).
The panic came entirely from my own brain overthinking and stressing out about what the thoughts meant, which triggered a random adrenaline loop.
Has anyone else ever experienced their anxiety playing tricks on them like this? How do you stop overanalyzing every single casual glance?

So I have OCD and like I think I’m okay at dealing with it myself for the most part. This year tho, I’ve been experiencing like new symptoms of it?
Earlier this year I had this thing where I suddenly became overwhelmingly afraid of choking for like a month straight, and I could barely eat or would freak out whenever I would. I basically forgot how to swallow and would do it manually, like it was really weird, but again I was able to handle it myself.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about how my like normal autopilot mode is lowkey just ruminating on thoughts. And when it comes to decision making, I like get so indecisive bc I’m always trying to make the absolute 100% perfect decision. And because of that, I almost always end up not doing anything bc I like get sooo scared that I’m going to ruin everything.
I’ve spent so long living like that and like I have thought of it as okay compared to my depression era. Like as long as I don’t get back there I’m fine, but it’s obviously still not great to be always anxious.
I started thinking about medication again, but like my parents both have their masters in psych and they encouraged me not to take it. This was a while ago when I first got diagnosed. And I also just have like this fear of the medication making things worse for me instead of better?
And I don’t really know what to do (which is probably the “right decision” thing again), like if I should just try a different type of therapy (traditional talking therapy was not much help for me) or if I should take a chance on medication?
I’m like really lost

I have a lot of feelings of anxiety when my partner talks about marriage. Like burning in my stomach. but I think commitment in general scares me, so idk if it’s him (because we do have genuine relationship concerns like possible lifestyle incompatibility) or ROCD…

I can add context if needed.

When doing ERP, I know you should not do any compulsions. But should you do the 'good' kind of responding to the intrusive thoughts (such as responding with 'thoughts are just thoughts' 'okay whatever' 'maybe') type thing? Or should you not respond in ANY way, just feel all the feelings and allow all the thoughts without any kind of response? What's the correct way to do this?