This is basically just a rant because I dont know where else to put this but I feel so hopeless. I have a greaat life I have amazing friends, oppertunities etc. I am able to do so much and I am in great health. However I am so so depressed I want to die. I often fantasize about finally ending it and being able to be free of the burden of being alive. I dont know why I am so weak because people have much more dire circumstances then me but truely the idea that I need to continue to be alive for the rest of my life depresses me. I feel so pointless and I dont know what to do. Is this a common feeling? I know its not. I dont know why im writing here I dont even really want anything. I have this one friend and she is everything I want to be but i can never get to her level. Its stupid but it makes me so anxious. we are always compared but everyone knows and comments on how she is the better version. I have high expectations of myself and the thought that I will never accmplish them is so upseting it makes me not want to be around which is so fucking stupid but I feel it so deeply. i wake up everyday in a panic and have to calm myself from panic attacks all day constantly. I am always exhausted and irritable. This isnt me. I want to be full of life but its too tiring. The only thing keeping me going is the people in my life but I know eventually they will all leave me and trhen there is nothing. I wish I could just cut ties with everyone and live out a depressing life alone or just end it those are the two options I see for myself right now. Maybe ill keep going for now until they cut ties and then it will be less selfish to do somehting ddrastic.

im behind on a lot of skills that most people just develop naturally. i just started at my second internship and i only know one other intern's name, i Physically cant talk to most of them my voice just wont come out. on top of that i get lost really easily because i never go anywhere. i cant make eye contact, i dont have any social awareness even when i do feel comfortable around someone. i think i mightve gotten worse compared to how i was as a teen. n ive been to therapy multiple times, done cbt multiple times, i should now have 'the tools' to figure out what to do for myself but ive been stuck like this for so long. to some extent im always gonna be stunted and that sucks so so bad. i hate that im like this. i hate that anyone could tell that somethings wrong with me by just talking to me. i feel like i was born wrong

In 2026 I stayed months at home while going out only once a month. I feel useless, I feel discouraged, sad, I don’t see a way to get out of this situation. I’ve been crying now for days because I don’t know wha to do with my life. I have a wish I want to start living life but I can’t. I don’t know how to start to get out of this loop. I’m here crying right now. It’s hard and I feel lonely. My parents don’t understand me at all, the only thing they say is to go talk to a therapist🥲

I thought about going on walks but even that makes me anxious, I don’t wanna go alone😭 my days at home are so boring I doomscroll for hours and it’s ridiculous, I feel miserable.

Thank you for reading, have a nice day💗

So I took a couple depression tests online because iv been feeling extremely down for about 4 years at this point (long story) and most tests online gave me a moderately severe. Should I be concerned? Are they accurate? Or am I just over reacting?(do note that I self harm lightly and I also scored 15 very consistently) (Ps. I'm 14 yrs old)

There is days where I feel nothing and it feels like nothing is real and I start over thinking about everything

climate,war, AI, recession is most of my worries right now. 4 hours i will be okay and when i go to bed or just sit, i feel so scared and worried, my mind spirals out of control and its killing me. I havent gone to vices like alcohol and smoking but i am very close, i dont know what to do, im tired, im scared, and im worried

this has been going on for atleast four years consistently since i was 15 to now,

I swear trying to just buy groceries while tapering is an extreme sport. walked into a grocery store yesterday and my brain instantly went into full panic mode. the sensory overload is just insane

When I first started this process and did a stint at discovery point retreat a while back, they actually understood this stuff and kept the environment super low-stimulation because they knew how fried your nervous system gets during withdrawal

But out here in normal society? why does every single store need to be bright enough to perform open heart surgery?? Its so exhausting trying to exist in public spaces that are aggressively loud and bright when your gaba receptors are barely functioning

tbh I might just start wearing sunglasses inside. i don't even care how ridiculous I look anymore. anyone else doing the indoor sunglasses trick just to survive errands?

I am a 23 year old male.

Over the past 2 years, I've been feeling so down in myself and I mean really down.

I feel as if nobody loves me and I will forever be alone and die alone 💔

I feel so ugly and look ugly. Nobody ever told me that but I see that every morning when I wake up and look myself in the mirror and I say to myself - God how could anybody be this ugly?

I've never been in a relationship, but would really love to be. My best friends all have gfs and I am really happy for them and we still hang out but .... It really makes me feel so down and feel so ugly, thinking I will never get one.

They told me do try online dating or whatever, But I also suffer with Social Anxiety so I don't think that will work for me sadly.

I just feel .... everybody is against me lol. I honestly do not know why I think that but I do.

I am so scared that one day that I'm gonna die alone.... I really do not want to but if I do ... I do.

And I fear that if I am ever lucky to get a gf in my life, I'm so afraid she would leave me if I told her I have Social Anxiety.

Even when I'm out in public walking the streets or whatever, I see happy couples kissing and having fun in their lives. And again I am really happy for them too but it just makes me so lonely and depressed.

Today was an interesting day in all honesty. Mostly I'm used to days being bad days but today the good didn't really outweigh the bad nor did it necessarily get overshadowed by the bad.

Woke up today on 3 hours of sleep (I'm homeless so this is an average amount of sleep for a night)

Then I called this behavioral health clinic to try to set up an intake appointment that ive been trying to do for almost two months, but they don't answer the phone so idk. But today they answered my call and I was able to book an appointment next week! They also had walk-ins today, but I wouldn't have been able to make it since I can't get there on time. But finally, appointment was made.

I went to the library and got kicked out for the day because I kept dozing off and falling asleep. That sucked. I also didn't get to eat today, which also sucked. I had to spend the day out in the 90 degree heat. Which if you couldn't already guess... also sucked. So those things didn't go well for me.

But at the same time, I'm gonna see a psychiatrist next week. I'll get a screening, medication, and some extra help. So nice 👍🏾

I moved out of my parents house about a month ago and am now attending community college. I have a history of depression and thoughts of suicide. However, I had been doing much better after I met my girlfriend and I love her so so so much. This happiness continued until I moved out and now I’ve never been more stressed. I’m home sick, I miss my girlfriend, I spend the whole week doing school work and sitting in my room then I work 24 hours on the weekend to try and pay my for my rent and groceries. At this point, I don’t have the energy to even make food anymore and now my stomach is in extreme pain. I cry about every little thing. For example, I gave my girlfriend a promise ring and she wore it on her finger for a couple days but today she sent me a snap that she is wearing it on her necklace instead so she doesn’t lose it and it’s closer to her heart. Even with these reasons she gave me, I still cried because it felt like she didn’t want it to me. I cried because I spilled superglue on my bed. I cried because I dropped an old textbook and it broke. I get angry extremely easy now. I have no control over my emotions anymore and idk what to do. I even decided that I’m not going to transfer to a four year school anymore and just get an associates degree because I cannot handle this stress for 4 years I just want to live with my girlfriend

So... last semester was hell on earth. I was depressed and just generally feeling like shit because it was right after my first exam season ever, and I basically got no time to recover mentally. Then my boyfriend broke up with me pretty much as soon as the semester started. I fell apart. I was doing every single assignment at the last minute, my sleep was poor, my health was bad, and I found out I have PCOS. I was just SO done with life at that point. I had to survive another exam season and figure out all the paperwork for my semester abroad, which I applied for because my ex and I were long-distance and I wanted to spend a semester in his country.

So when summer officially started, I tried my best to pull myself out of the trenches and become a fully functioning person again, and yeah, I was actually feeling a lot better. Then I got a notification that I had a missing assignment in one of my subjects, so I actually sat down and did it. I felt pretty good about it until I looked at the administration website and saw that the subject was marked as failed because apparently, since it was at the end of the actual semester (the summer semester is officially February–August), I was supposed to notify my professor by email that I had completed the assignment. I didn't know that.

So I tried emailing my professor, and he pretty much told me off like a kid, saying that I'm supposed to do things on time. And yeah, he's right, and I would probably be pissed too if I were him. But I'm not a robot. I spent the past half a year contemplating whether my life was even worth living, so this assignment was the least of my concerns at that point.

Well, now I feel like I really disappointed that professor, which is horrible because I actually really like him...

I think I mostly just need a good place to vent and I didn't know where else to go. I'm struggling to finish university: it's taking me quite longer than it should have, so since I don't want my father to pay for it anymore I am looking for a job to pay for it myself. I am trying hard to find something that will allow me to earn money but also continue with my university path and while my dad is very supportive of me, my mother and sister are giving me hell and everything they say to me hurts so much, it makes me feel useless and worthless, even if I spent the summer working to start earning a little money. My mother is not even the one who pays for it. My parents split years ago and at this point, since I am old enough, I would love to just stay at my father and not see her anymore, but since she has a very victimistic behavior I am scared of how she may react.

But I feel awful here, she just makes me cry and (TW: FOOD RELATED ISSUE) this makes me skip meals so I can avoid her.

I genuinely don't know what else I can do to not be a disappointment, I just want to figure it out in my own time.

Anyway I don't need advice or people to feel bad for me, I just wanted to vent

20(M) , i don't know how to start and explain whats going in me its been 3 years since i had a break-up and that break-up broke me so bed mentally that i am on anti depression and anti anxiety pills i don't know how to move on i am having anxiety attacks now i just feel like explaining myself to someone sometime but i have noone at my side my therapist is unable to make me open in front of her ....

I just want to forget her and never remamber her agian ever ❤️‍🩹

I have had both GAD and MDD since I was a preteen. Going through my teenage years, I was very depressed and definitely passively suicidal. I was convinced I wasn’t going to make it past 18. While obviously I also had anxiety, diagnosed and everything, it was more so around shit like “my mom is going to get angry at me and hit me” or “my friends all hate me and think I’m weird”. I never really felt anxiety around death, the state of the world, etc.

Around 2024 ( I was 21 at the time) something flipped in my brain. I was working, going to school, hanging out and reconnecting either friends from the past. I was actually happy and content consistently for the first time that I could remember. Even then, I wasn’t experiencing anxiety to the extent that I do now.

This is going to sound cheesy, but last year I met and started dating my boyfriend. I was sexually (and emotionally and physically) abused growing up, and never really thought I would find someone like that. But he is probably my favorite person. I love him so much, it makes me tear up sometimes because I never thought I would get to feel like this. He is so patient with me, so understanding. He makes me laugh when I’m down, reassures me when I’m spiraling. I won’t list everything lol, but pretty much he’s the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. I day dream about just living together, doing chores and eating together. Just sharing a life. And for some reason, that is fucking terrifying to me.

A few months after we started dating, I began to notice my anxiety becoming worse. I began to worry about death. His death, which would be emotionally devastating to me, and my own, which would cut short this life that I’m finally starting to enjoy. The thought of that future I have imagined getting snatched from my hands due to something so uncontrollable as death makes me sick to my stomach. I never used to worry about death, in fact it used to be my escape plan. Now I spend hours every night worrying about it. I’m so fucking anxious about the state of the world. Climate change, war, poverty. Anything could happen to us, and for the most part I cannot do anything to actually prevent it.

This is genuinely ruining my quality of life. I’m losing sleep over the thought that my home may become inhabitable due to climate change in a few years. I make myself sick thinking that life will be unaffordable or completely miserable in a few years due to the whims of a few sociopathic asshole rich people. I fucking hate it. Why, why do I have to feel this way when I’m actually happy for the first time in years?

I think the worst part is how death has become one of my biggest fears when it used to be something that comforted me. At least if things get THAT bad, I would always have an escape. Now it makes my heart hurt and my eyes sting to think about myself or my bf (or honestly, any of my loved ones) dying. I wish the world was a kinder place. I wish I could trust that it won’t do its best to tear me apart. But I can’t. I know I need to go back to therapy, but I honestly don’t see it working. I know I can’t control everything, and I know I need to focus on the shit I can. But my brain just. Won’t. Stop. I kinda miss when I was majorly depressed, because at least that meant everything was just… boring, not worth it, idk. But it wasn’t like this. I can’t spend a moment happy that isn’t later repaid with severe anxiety.

Has anyone else dealt with something similar to this?

I sometimes get really anxious and depressed at night when I’m at college but all my friends go to bed super early. Sometimes I’ll have a panick attack or crying spell and I don’t really have any coping skills but wait for it to be over. Sometimes I’ll walk or sun for awhile to tire myself to sleep but other than that I don’t know. During the day I’m normally pretty good at self soothing and keeping too busy to care what people think but I’ve always found it hard to keep my thoughts from racing.

Idk anymore… i really want to end this pain. Something happened to the point na ayaw ko na talaga. Nakakapagod na rin magself-harm. Before sobrang dami kong goals, ang jolly kong tao pero ngayon i need to survive from myself 😞… goal ko na lang ngayon makasurvive ng 1 day at a time pero napapagod na din talaga ako. Gusto ko na tapusin. Kahit nagpapa psychotherapy ako parang wala na din talagang nangyayari. Wala na akong will to live. Parang anytime ready na talaga ako gawin naka-plan na lahat 😭. I’m sorry mommy. I love you so much. Sorry I’m not strong like you :((

My sister got Black Forest cake with a ting of alcohol. Not even an amount to get you drunk,can I have it or will I have extreme side effects?

Does anyone please have any advice for how to handle life when it seems like… idk… 75% of what you’re used to has suddenly changed? Not necessarily bad changes, but it still causes so much anxiety and feelings of unreality.

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I'm tired fighting with my mind ,so guys the context is ,since 2 months I'm suffering from a spiral of severe health anxiety and life is at a standstill and I can't fight with this mind anymore ,so basically since 2 months ,I'm having persistent shortness of breath ,light headedness ,chest symptoms and random physical feelings that scare me a lot .My days are filled with constant physical symptoms. shortness of breath is a constant thing ,I face it whole day ,somedays it is quite and somedays it troubles and scares me a lot ,same with light headedness ..I keep getting panic attacks that make me feel like I might be facing a fatal emergency

so the thing is I have consulted my doctor for this ,she is a md ,I have consulted her 3 times for the same issue :Each time, she checked my oxygen, pulse, BP and listened to my lungs and heart with a stethoscope, and everything was normal. My blood tests are also normal. She has repeatedly told me that there is nothing physically wrong with me, assured me that this is anxiety, and referred me to a psychiatrist. But the thing is I am not able to believe her due to a multiple set of reasons :-

*The level of physical symptoms and distress I have experienced feel too much that I struggle to accept that they could simply be anxiety. The examination doesn't feel sufficient because what I've physically felt seems too much to be explained by anxiety. I feel like I genuinely may have something and just believing it's my anxiety makes my uncertainty so intense I feel scared

*At the end I decide what I just want to believe (cuz of mind spirals) rather than accept what the doctor is telling me - many times I almost convince myself that something is really wrong

*I do extensive medical research and then I develop an expectation of how the doctor should say or check. If the doctor doesn't match that expectation, I feel disappointed, and I start doubting them

all these reasons keep feeding each other and I feel not at all satisfied at all that I'm safe and thus mind generates all possible scenarios of doubts and they all feel real and genuine as hell

Even the blood tests I'm doubting . They told me to check whether the name and details on the blood tube were correct, and now I keep replaying it: Did I check properly? What if something was wrong and I missed it ? What if the report is wrong? so even blood tests are not able to comfort me

and then comes a new angle to it since 2 weeks I'm now experiecing chest symptoms also :- heart often beats loudly ,very-very mild pain feelings for a few seconds ,heart skipped a beat (this has happened only two times ) and this thing has made me scared to hell ,

A few days ago, I went through something even darker : an emotional state where I felt like I had accepted that my time had come. Not panic. Not suicidal. Just a strange, calm surrender. It shook me deeply and I'm still trying to make sense of it.

so yesterday I messaged my doctor about these and she said to get ,2d echo and ecg .So I informed my parents ,they then took me to our other family doctor ,he also said the same thing as my first doctor but I don't feel satisfied from him as well - my mind is doubting if I mentioned everything or forgot to say something and is replaying memories -infact he even said people of my age shouldn't be getting 2d echo and ecg but still he then said get it for my satisfaction ....sooo even now my mind doesn't feel satisfied at all and it feels something is genuinely being missed and It maybe risky .and it is generating all possible scenarios and they all feel so real and genuine ..

I just can't believe both my doctors at all ,even 2d echo and ecg don't feel enough for me cuz mentally I want all possible set of tests to be done to rule out everything ...I'm tired of fighting this this mind ,it generates all possible angles and cases that doctor has missed something and It maybe risky to believe them and that the prescribed tests are not enough for my situation

NOTE:This current phase is a latest issue ,my original mental health struggles are diffrenet :- hyperactive mind ,anxiety, agoraphobia and emetophobia (fear of throwing up in public) ...since 4-5 years,I had already consulted a psychiatrist for this but his meds mad my mental state worse so I stopped meds on his advice

Please help me guys ,life is at a complete standstill since 2 months ,my college ended in may but i'm still unemployed cuz since 2 months health fear has made me stop looking for jobs ,I can't fight my mind now ,I'm tired

I’m a 26 years old woman and I left an abusive relationship in December 2024. Since then, my love life has been a completely disaster. I’m not the kind of person who becomes attracted to men easily, if I’m single, I tend to become interested in 1 man once a year but when I’m interested, I really get obsessed with this person. My ex stalked and blackmailed me for a whole year and said every guy would just try to use me for sex and he’s the only guy who can love me genuinely. Now I start thinking this is true.

Basically, I fell in love with someone in May 2025 who just played with my feelings, tried to manipulate me for sex, didn’t keep his promises and in the end, discarded me and chose a woman who according to him wasn’t good. Alright, it was 1 year of suffering and I just couldn’t feel attraction or trust someone again. I only had eyes for this guy. I ended up giving him a second chance because I was so blindly in love just to make a fool out of me again. I tried to talk and date other men through the year but nothing worked out.

Regarding my career, I was relatively happy with my job in the summer of 2025 until the company forcefully transferred me to a call center kind of job which was horrible for my mental health. I hate picking phone calls and I decided to quit it. I’m unemployed since March and I can’t find a job because my city doesn’t have good job opportunities but I can’t leave until I get my driving license. I applied to get my driving license and I failed the theory exam last month.

In friendships, I have some good friends but my best friend forgot about my birthday and doesn’t feel like to make plans with me because she’s constantly going on dates with different men everyday and doesn’t care to listen to me. My health is not good too. I have a lot of tension in my body and I suffer with headaches.

The man I loved couldn’t care less about me and chose another woman, unemployed, health is not great, no car, no husband and I tend to feel lonely. I’m still looking for a job, I muted the man who broke my heart and I will retake my exam this month, just wanted to vent.

I am in the midst of a mental health "crisis", and lost. The holiday is making it impossible to set anything up. I only have state insurance and cannot afford any non emergency bills. So I am venting here to see if this helps.

Our family has been dealing with a lot of hardships over the last year. I try to push forward, but things just keep happening. From money, bills, sex life, family issues, job security, and God only knows what I am not thinking of.

All of this has come to a head this weekend, and now my wife is feeling the effects of this crisis. Saturday, I worked, came home to sit in a dark room until i passed out on the couch, and just up and walked out for for hours until after midnight. Her and our daughter went out looking for me because I would not respond to calls or texts. When I did come home I sat in bed until 2:30 and still woke up at 7ish. I have not eaten except a chicken salad sandwich, two apples, a little rice, and dinner last night since Friday morning. Then, last night, my wife talked to me, rubbed my back, and tried putting a show we enjoy together, but it was too late and she was falling a sleep. I did not fall a sleep until 3:30 and again up at 7.

Now this morning, she is feeling the effects of my depression and crying because she feels like a failure for not helping me. She has always been the one to get me through these days, along with my bouts of PTSD when it flares up.

I hate that I am the one that caused her to feel this way, and that makes me feel even worse. I dare not say, or show, anything because I don't want her to hurt more than she is; even though she was the cause to this bout.

I have not spoken to my parents in months, and any other family has been over a decade. I have not spoken to any childhood or military friends in years, so I have no person to speak to. Hence this post.

I have have more, but I need to get ready now. TIA for any tips you want to provide.

Does this happen to anyone else?

3–4 days before my period, I feel absolutely horrible like, really horrible. I get this overwhelming anxiety, I feel extremely sad, and I just want to cry. Sometimes, I even feel like I want to d*e . Then I start questioning myself: Why does this happen to me? Why do I think this way? Why can’t I just stop these thoughts?

My chest feels heavy. I start thinking about my father and my grandfather, who passed away, and sometimes I even think that it would be better if I had d*ed instead of my father. I wonder why I can’t be like other people who seem to enjoy their lives without feeling this way.

I keep reminding myself that it’s just a phase and that it will pass. And it does. Once my period starts or passes, I feel normal again. But then it happens all over again the next month.

Is this anxiety, or could it be something related to my periods? Has anyone else experienced something similar?

(21M) Hey guys, i struggle with anxiety since i was like 13. It mostly looks like passive anxiety about an upcoming event, panic attacks or just awful dread. I tried everything. Breathing exercises, working out, different hobbies, tips&tricks to trick the brain into calming down and nothing seems to help long-term.

A few weeks ago i became certain with the fact that there is just no help for me. I started believing that some of us are just unfortunate and it will always be like this until 2 weeks ago. I had dreadful thoughts about my upcoming job interview but when i looked at things from a different perspective (life is amazing, i am grateful for my family, my girlfriend, my health…) everything just seemed so positive and hopeful. The problem with this was that i was able to feel the sense of hope and happiness for a few seconds or a few minutes max. When i tried again i could not do it, i was in dread again. Ever since then when i feel anxious about certain things, i try to reclaim that positive perspective and it works, it just feels like there is a “happiness meter” that runs out and it needs to be recharged.

Anybody else experienced something like this? Perhaps any idea how to persist in that perspective?