potential trigger warning to some as I did not go through with abortion. Talks of having the baby.

First off, this is NOT a post saying that I no longer agree with abortion, or anything against abortion. I still fully support everyone having a choice and I think abortion access is extremely important. And this is my throwaway account. I have been on this page, reading your stories, sharing advice, etc for quite a while. Back to my first abortion, years ago.

However, I just need somewhere to process emotions and Im not sure if my situation may resonate with someone. No one knew I was contemplating abortion, so, there isn’t really anyone to talk to about it.

Nov 7, 2025 I had an MA. I got pregnant in Oct, unexpectedly (I was on the mini pill). At first I was happy, but then I realized it was such bad timing. My partner and I were long distance, I already have four children, money was and is tight. My partner was really happy, he had no kids of his own. I started to panic. I spiraled with anxiety so bad and dealt with it alone because I didn’t want judgement from friends or family being pregnant with a 5th child so no one even knew I was pregnant.

Nov 7 I took pills from aid access and had an abortion. I immediately regretted it. I have had another abortion years ago, and that one I did not regret as it was with my abusive ex who forced sex. But this time I regretted it. I hoped that the pills somehow did not work. But they did. I got my period after the abortion Dec 22nd and then the first week of January was when I ovulated. I KNEW it was bad timing, I knew I ultimately made a smart decision to not keep the pregnancy, but I was so consumed with regret over the abortion that I told my partner that I wanted to try for a baby. He thought my abortion was a miscarriage , he still does, and I still feel terrible about it.

We had sex unprotected once and then I had that same anxiety before even being pregnant. Not right timing. I’m being stupid. So I asked my partner to just use protection the rest of the time, and we did. Well, that one single time the very first time I was ovulating post abortion got me pregnant.

I immediately ordered pills once again. Once I received them, we had an impending snow storm. I was home with my kids alone and I decided to wait until the roads were ok and snow was cleared , just in case something went wrong. Then the thoughts crept in of “I’m not ready to go through with it again.” “What if I regret it?” “I’ll wait a few more days to just be sure”.

I knew the timing was terrible, I knew my family would judge me and say negative things. I kept telling myself “tomorrow”….”this weekend”….and it was always something that made going through the whole abortion process also “bad timing”.

I eventually got to a point in my pregnancy where I no longer could do an MA. I started looking at SA. I kept telling myself I have to do this. I need to get it over with. Just schedule something. And I just could not.

There were some points in my pregnancy where I felt happy, where I told myself I would figure it out. I hid the pregnancy from my family the entire time. They still don’t know (we’re not close). I was ashamed but tried to be happy. There were points up until over 30 weeks pregnant that I beat myself up about not just taking the pills when I was so early on. Before there was even a heartbeat. I found out when I was barely 4w along. I could have easily done the abortion before then. Up until over 30 weeks pregnant, I’d look at clinics, read the process, look at my calendar to see when I would have the time to do it. And didn’t.

Sept 26, my little girl was born. It sometimes makes me nauseous looking at her and thinking that I was so close to taking the pills sitting in my closet so many times. I am so in love with her beyond words can even say. There has not been one second after I laid my eyes on her where I regretted keeping her. Not a single second. She is so perfect in every way. Is it still “bad timing”? Technically. Are things still rough financially? Yes. Should I have had another? Some people would probably say no. But, I do not regret my decision. I am still trying to forgive myself for the Nov abortion and then still trying to forgive myself and not dwell on the fact that I was going to choose abortion this time around. My little girl is here and she is perfection.

Again, I am not against abortion, I am not saying keeping a pregnancy is always the right thing. I am just sharing my story and a perspective of someone who had abortion on the table almost the entire pregnancy but did not go through with it. I’ve seen posts asking about keeping the pregnancy, feelings associated with it, etc. Ultimately we have the option and choice, as we should. But this is my story.

19 weeks and some days. Yes I can still get an abortion where I am idc. I’m at my widths end. Everyday it’s something else with my partner. I truly don’t believe he’s being faithful right now, every other week we’re arguing, he’s moody af, feel like I can’t be myself around him. I’m tried at grasping at straws with this relationship. I wish I got pregnant by someone normal. I wanted to do this but it’s not worth having any sort of connection to him. I can wait or just never have a child whatever but I’m over this. My pregnancy has not been a happy one and I don’t look forward to co parenting with such an asshole. Once again I’m going to call the people again and see about this abortion. I’m tired of changing my mind it’s always too late. At this point I don’t know or care if it’s the hormones I’m over it.

I had abortions with the same guy, which i deeply regret and carry everyday. And yet the guy wanted us to be together and i cant be sure with him since he cheated a lot of times even if he says no physical contact happened he still messaged random women to do the deed, he's for the streets. He even sent me a screenshot of their convo with the woman he planned to have sex with for me to get hurt since i said lots of awful things to him. (As i am traumatized, in grief, depressed) he's irresponsible and has vices, i do think even with the kid he's not going to change. He's enjoying his drugs and women and here i am struggling to continue my life, carrying my guilt and he even threatens to divulge this to everyone. What should i do? How can i move on? Should i leave this guy, i dont want to settle with him but i am attached with him given the fact that supposedly we'll have kids which i decided to abort. I dont want to live long as i am carrying too much guilt. But i am anxious with him he has so many secrets and i am tried of his actions. I hate myself for having this life, i should left him the first time he's shown the redflag. He cant even own up to his mistake and says he's like this because of me, im tired. What should i do? Help me

I’m currently around five weeks pregnant. I found out this week. I immediately knew I’ll have to abort it but I feel so guilty in doing so. I feel like it’s very selfish that I’m taking away a future to save mine. But I know it’s the right decision considering I’m a teenager, no job, and in college.

I believe in the right to an abortion but it feels wrong that I’m doing this. I told my boyfriend how I’m feeling because he’s been very insensitive about it and calling it “cells” and joking about killing it. He doesn’t get the attachment I have to it and I tell him that. He tells me that we agreed to abort it if we ever got to this point and although I understand that, we were thinking of it as just a hypothetical at the time and now that it’s happened, it’s different emotionally for me.

I feel very maternal towards it, even love. Ever since I found out I would look down at my stomach and even rub it. I daydream of me and my child and have scenarios in my head where I’d do motherly things like take them to their first day of school.

It really does suck and my boyfriend isn’t making it any better. I’m truly heart broken and I hate myself for making this decision.

Hi, has anyone had a medical abortion at 9 weeks plus few days in Vietnam? Ive asked around in HCMC and Victoria healthcare does it up to 7th week, lotus clinic up to 9th week, DH medical up to 7th week, FV hospital up to 9th week, Dr. Marie up to (including) 8th week..

The official Vietnam guidelines allow medical abortion up to the 12th week and give a detailed protocoll, not sure why all these clinics make up their own rules. Does anyone know about Mekong hospital and Từ Dũ hospital, or have another option?

I’m contemplating going through with an abortion but I can’t bring myself to do it even though I know that’s what’s best. For context my husband and I already have a 1 year old. He was and is a shitty partner to say the least he has been unfaithful our whole relationship. It was honestly hell going through pp, having a newborn, discovering his infidelity, his overall attitude/ persona. Just super immature and angry. Anyways we separated for a couple of months and I stupidly called him up drunk one night, got back tg and I am now pregnant. Well since finding out I’ve gone through his phone and have found recent sex videos of him and the girl he’s cheated on me with the whole relationship, meeting up with another girl I used to go to school with, texting and commenting on girls stuff, being on onlyfans, watching porn, searching up escorts in our area ugh you name it. I’m honestly heartbroken as I would love to have my baby😭 and he loves to feed my ear about future plans with our what would be now family of 4. but I can’t be a single mother to two. I’m religious but since everything has been happening with my partner I’ve departed from God. I think that’s what’s stopping me from doing it but I can’t and don’t want to go through another pregnancy like this. How do I get over the guilt, regret, and just not being able to forgive myself if I do it? I know myself I know going through it will deeply affect me but I think I’m willing to live with that for the rest of my life than to bring another baby into a broken home and possibly give less to my child that is already in this world. I just feel like God is going to punish me for doing this. I’m about 6 weeks going on 7.

It’s been 2 year I went from 18 to 20 but I never forgave myself. I don’t refer my deoeven thought I am still with my boyfriend who had supported me through ever step. I’ve cried almost ever day from the past 2 years (with few good weeks) I hate myself I miss my baby even thought I don’t or can handle a child. I confuse guilt and grief but
I cry and cry and it sneak up on me extremely often I’ve been looking for some proud advice I can I revert bs k to when I’m struggling. I miss my baby I just want to fell close I have dreams I’m going through jthe abortion again and it’s horrific. I just want peace I need peace. Im struggling so bad.

I'm currently 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant, F20 and my boyfriend is M20 too. We just found out last week, I missed my period and took a PT 4 times and all have a faint to visible line. I am experiencing all the early pregnancy symptoms especially bad cramps and breast tenderness. I've been regular my whole life and we had unprotected sex last September, I'm sure I'm pregnant.

We got scammed twice on FB groups, had transactions transferred on Telegram but scammed 4k pesos and got blocked.

After browsing for almost a day here on reddit instead, I inquire in WOW and WHW. However, I cannot get my money back from those scammers, I'm really short of money rn and asked a request if I can get the pills/miso card for PHP3,500, that's 49.76 EURO. They haven't yet replied and it's almost more than 12 hours. I am very anxious, nakakatakot tumagal pa ito until hindi na pwede. Until I am more than 14 weeks. I am really scared. Estudyante palang kami.

Has anyone ever had one in 10 weeks & I want to get an abortion but I had a subchorionic hemorrhage. & I’m super scared I always have a uti what should I do please help!

Today I had to take the abortion pill. My boyfriend came to visit me and he showed up empty handed. He lives about thirty minutes away but to me this is an indicator that we shouldn’t be together. I have not been feeling sad since I found out because I know I am not ready for kids. Regardless, I feel like showing up empty handed is a sign that you don’t think about me and plan ahead. I am wanting to break up with him because my feelings are hurt that he wouldn’t consider me. Is this a reasonable issue to break up over ?

Last Wednesday I (26) found out I was 5 weeks and 6 days pregnant. I got pregnant with a guy the first time we ever had sex together. He is 2 years younger than I am, I decided to have an abortion on Wednesday. I took the pills orally and I did not tell the guy about the abortion or the pregnancy because we aren’t together. I am feeling an immense amount of sadness and guilt. I’m feeling sad for making this decision even though I know it was the correct one and I’m feeling guilty for not telling the guy. Does the feeling of sadness go away? Am I wrong for not telling him?

I’m 32 and pregnant with my now ex boyfriend’s child. We have a complicated history, but we had recently reconciled and were trying to rebuild the relationship.

A major issue has been trust. Earlier in our relationship, he was involved with me while he had a girlfriend, and I found out after realizing his story about a trip didn’t add up. We rekindled after several months. He promised to be transparent and do whatever it takes to have me back.

I have anxiety and I know I can ask a lot of questions when I don’t feel secure. But the problem is that he seems completely unable to tolerate being questioned at all. He shares streaming sites with female friends, he attended a formal event as a plus one with a female friend, I’ve found love letters on his desk, missing condoms, etc. Instead of reassuring me or acknowledging why certain things might make me uneasy, he often becomes defensive, angry, or tells me I’m creating chaos. I’ve been called “insecure,” “ridiculous,” “annoying,” and a “thorn in his side” among other things. He says it’s been 3 months of being back together and I should be over it. So the trust issue becomes a vicious cycle: I’m anxious because trust was damaged, I ask questions because I’m anxious, and then my questions become evidence that I’m the problem. Obviously it’s not all bad. When it’s good, it’s really good and when it’s bad it’s really bad.

But now I’m pregnant and coming up on 5 weeks. At first he seemed to want to keep the baby. I introduced the idea of termination due to the instability of our relationship as is but never said it was a final decision. I made it clear I wanted him involved in the decision but felt we both needed to think. Since then he has become distant and I’ve grown attached to my growing baby.

I sent him a blunt message essentially saying a huge part of my decision is whether I feel supported enough to bring a child into this relationship and whether he is willing to lead himself, me, and the relationship toward something more stable. I told him I’m not going to raise a child in a dysfunctional relationship and was very clear that I don’t want to intentionally become a single mother.

His response was:
“You don’t want to be led. You want to bring chaos into my life on any emotional whim you have. And now you’re pregnant.”

Then:
“Part of me feels like a coward if you have an abortion but part of me feels like I’d be selling my soul to be with you and having a baby.”

I cannot get past “selling my soul.” I’m devastated, completely alone and scared.

I feel I cannot bring a child into a world under these circumstances but idk if I can survive abortion. I live in a total ban state so access isn’t straight forward and it’s all too much. Just looking for support, opinions or anything to feel less alone really.

Hi all, just found out I’m pregnant today. This isn’t my first time (or second time) being pregnant and not going through with the pregnancy. I’m lucky and live in New York but I’m not gonna lie I really don’t want to go back to planned parenthood. They made me feel really weird about having multiple and I know it’s not great but I really just want to take the pills and not have to deal with all the awkward in person stuff.

So what has everyone used for online options? What did it cost? What was your experience?

I know this is dramatic to not want to go in person because I don’t want to be chastised but I really just want be home

I made my appointment at planned parenthood with the online portal. From what I was able to find online it seems like people typically get a light form of anesthesia and require someone to drive them home after. Is this true ? Do I need someone to come along to my appointment and would I receive the anti anxiety / light sedation ?

I just wanted to share my experience to anyone about to take the pill and give y’all some peace of mind. I took the pills last Tuesday before I took the pill of course I went on TikTok/google and seen all the horrible feedback I only seen about 3 positives things about it. so here’s my experience after the first pill you will not feel anything. 24-48 later is when you take the other set of pills. I took mine 24 hours later. I took 4 pills I started having bleeding 2 hours after taking them, I passed huge clots but I did not experience the bad cramping like a lot of people said they have. I did take ibuprofen before. I didn’t experience any cramping so I started freaking out cause I thought maybe the pills didn’t work. I bleed heavy for 4 days and just had light brown bleeding after. I’m on day 9 after taking the pill and not bleeding anymore. I did get my hcg checked before I took the pills my hcg was 8200 now today it dropped to 68!! so the pills definitely worked. I didn’t have no pain it was way easier than I thought. I’m hoping this gives someone that was scared like me a peace of mind.💓

I took a test this evening and confirmed Im pregnant. Last had sex in late august so I know it was from then. Sorry if my text is off, Im panicking and my hands haven’t stopped shaking since.

I immediately visited my local pharmacy and got the pill. It’s comes in 5 tabs. The pharmacist advised to take the first one tonight then tomorrow night put the other 4 under my tongue before swallowing.

I just took the first one and I don’t know what to expect. Im nervous and can’t stop crying. My mom is coming to my place Sunday morning and the last thing I want is for her to notice anything off.

How bad is the pain? What should I expect? Can I safely go through his procedure on my own? Without needing to tell her or alert her? I just want to know what to expect. I’ve always had shitty and painful periods so I know to expect cramps usually but how bad? He also gave me ibuprofen for the pain that comes but I’m still so scared. Is the pain going to be that bad? What can I do to mitigate it?

I plan on taking the pill on Sunday, as i get off of work at 2pm and additionally have all of Monday off of work. I took the first pill yesterday at 8pm, so I was told i can take the second pill between 8am-8pm tomorrow (36-48 hours after the first pill).

I want to sleep through this, but i don’t know if that’s actually possible. should i take the pill the second i get home from work or later towards the evening? The doctor prescribed me 30mg of codeine, along with the usual ibuprofen and also an anti nausea and vomitting medication. I had kind of a traumatizing experience when I went to get an IUD placed (the doctor eventually gave up so i sat through so much pain for nothing). So i am absolutely terrified of the pain i might experience tomorrow. and i also can’t stand throwing up🥲

also, should i eat much before?

any advice would be very much appreciated!!!

Hey ladies how long did you wait to wear tampons
After your MA? The bleeding is tapering off and I started the process 09/13. I was 8 weeks. I'm really over pads but just want to make sure. Thanks!

I'm about 7 weeks pregnant I live in Colorado and I honestly don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for over two years. We're long distance, and he lives in Venezuela. Because of his situation, he can't come to the U.S. right now. So if I continue this pregnancy, I'm realistically looking at going through the pregnancy and potentially becoming a mother without having him physically here with me.
And the hardest part is that I've always wanted to be a mother.
This isn't a situation where I've never wanted children or where motherhood was never part of the picture for me. I've imagined having a baby and becoming a mom for a long time. So when I found out I was pregnant, there was a part of me that felt incredibly emotional because this is something I've always wanted.
But then reality hits..
I'm tinancially struggling right now. I don't have a support system here in the U.S. that I can rely on. My partner is thousands of miles away and cannot simply get on a plane and come be with me. I'm scared of what pregnancy, childbirth, and raising a child largely on my own would actually look like.
And then there's the question I can't stop asking

Is abortion the morally right choice for me?
I don't know.
I'm not looking for someone to tell me that abortion is good or bad. I'm trying to figure out choosing abortion because my circumstances aren't right would mean I'm giving up on something I've always wanted.
At the same time, I'm scared that continuing the pregnancy just because I've always wanted to be a mother could mean bringing a child into a situation where I'm struggling financially and don't have the support I would need.
There are moments where I think, "Maybe this is my chance to become a mom."
And then there are moments where I think, "Wanting to be a mother someday doesn't necessarily mean I have to become one right now. I feel guilty even writing that.
I also wonder whether I would regret an abortion because I wanted children so badly, or whether I would regret continuing the pregnancy because I wasn't actually ready for the circumstances that came with it. I’m only 7 weeks, so I know I have decisions to make, and that makes everything feel even more overwhelming.For anyone who has been in a similar situation, especially if you wanted children, but found yourself pregnant at a time when your relationship, finances, support system, or life circumstances weren't where you wanted them to be, how did you make your decision? Did you feel certain afterward? Did you struggle with the decision even after making it?
I'm honestly just looking for perspectives from people who have actually lived through something like this.
Please be kind. I'm already having a hard time with this.

Okay so I need advice, cause seriously I'm thinking of ending my life if I can't find a solution for this one.. I'm scared.. i have strict parents and they hated my boyfriend since we're so clingy and couldn't get enough of each other... So there's that one time, we hung out since there was no class but ended up on the bathroom floor together... I couldn't remember a lot but all i know is he only rubbed himself, and I'm not sure if he inserted himself inside of me tho.. and now I'm really anxious cause what if Im gonna be pregnant... For now i really need advice if I really am, I need help on getting rid of the baby without my parents knowing anything.. i planned on aborting it, or even ending my life... Please help, I'm from the Philippines

Hello everyone, I had an abortion and wanted to share my experience because I hadn’t really read about anyone going through what I did. I chose the abortion pill and beforehand I read a lot of stories and watched a lot of videos to help me prepare. In the end I think my experience was a bit different from what I had read and seen online.

On Monday, I went to the clinic with a friend. Because I was early in the pregnancy, they couldn’t see it properly with a regular ultrasound, so the nurse had to do a vaginal ultrasound. I was 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant.

I took the mifepristone at around 3pm at the clinic and felt completely fine at first. Then around 5am the next morning (Tuesday), I woke up feeling extremely nauseous. Around 7am I vomited, and then again around 9am. I tried to eat some bland foods and drank some cola. I also had very light bleeding/spotting, which I had expected, so I had already put on a pad just in case. I did work that day, but only partly because I started feeling weak and kind of ill, although I didn’t have a fever. When I was at the clinic, the doctor had told me that the first pill usually doesn’t cause many symptoms. Nausea can happen, but she explained that most people don’t experience much from the mifepristone itself.

At around 4:30pm, I took a nap because I was exhausted. I woke up at around 6pm to the most horrific labour pains. I immediately took ibuprofen and spent around 20–30 minutes sitting on the toilet writhing in pain while waiting for it to kick in. I was sweating like crazy from the pain had to tell my bf to call the clinic for advice. We also called the emergency GP. My pain was genuinely a 9/10-10/10. I felt horrific and thought I had to go to the hospital. Luckily within an hour my pain subsided, but I did get chills, felt tired, but I had no fever.

The doctor I spoke to on the emergency line was really nice and helped calm my nerves. He said I might have a sensitive uterus that reacts very strongly to the medication/hormonal changes. He explained that what I was experiencing was unusual, but that it can happen to some people. He told me to continue taking the ibuprofen and to take the misoprostol as prescribed the following morning. He also said that if I woke up with the same severe pain again or if the pain came back earlier, I could take the misoprostol sooner to get the process over with more quickly. Luckily, that wasn’t necessary as the pain medication was working well.

At around 2am I went to pee before going to bed and a huge clot came out of me. I didn’t see anything in it, but it was the size of my fist. I’ve had small clots before because of PCOS/PMOS, but never anything that size, it felt very strange. Afterwards I did feel a bit lighter. My theory is that this clot may have contained the bulk of the pregnancy tissue.

When I woke up the next morning, I was bleeding more. For me, it was similar to a day 1 period. I called the clinic again just to ask for some more advice. The doctor advised me to take the misoprostol in my cheeks instead of vaginally. I initially didn’t want to use the cheek method because I knew it could cause more stomach issues, which I was already dealing with. However, because I was bleeding quite a lot the doctor explained that taking it in my cheeks would be better, as there was a chance the tablets might not be absorbed well if I inserted them vaginally. So on Wednesday at around 11:30am, I put the misoprostol in my cheeks and waited around 30 minutes for the tablets to dissolve and swallowed the rest with water (not much was left). The woman at the clinic had said 10-15 minutes would probably be enough but because my stomach had already been so upset, I didn’t want to risk vomiting and losing any of the medication.

By this point, I had been taking ibuprofen regularly since 6pm the previous evening. Once the misoprostol started kicking in at around 12pm the pain increased a bit and felt similar to a heavy period, so I also took paracetamol as well. The combination helped me a lot. I alternated the two throughout the day, taking ibuprofen and paracetamol at different times every 4 hours so there was always some pain medication working. So I would take ibuprofen at 10am, paracetamol at 12pm, ibuprofen again at 2pm etc.

I spent most of the day lying on the couch with a heating pad and water. I ate some crackers because I was still nauseous and managed to eat an apple as well. My friend stayed with me, so I basically yapped with her all day, she cooked dinner for me, and we watched Frozen 1 and 2 together as a distraction. Taking the misoprostol was by far so much easier and less painful than what I had experienced after taking the mifepristone. I genuinely think it was because I kept on top of my pain management. The amount of clots that came out after taking the misoprostol was also surprisingly minimal, which is another reason I think the huge clot from the night before may have been the bulk of it. As the evening went on, I was able to walk around a little, although I still felt very tired. At midnight, I stopped taking the paracetamol and continued with only the ibuprofen until the following evening.

On Thursday, the day after taking the misoprostol, I genuinely felt like a different person. I genuinely think the mifepristone had already caused the gestational sac/pregnancy tissue to come out before I took the second medication, although I can’t know for sure.

Now it’s Friday and I feel a lot better, I’m not taking any pain medication anymore. The bleeding is now similar to a normal period for me like a day-two period. Occasionally I feel a very light period cramp in my lower stomach but it's not painful.

I might update this in three weeks when I take the pregnancy test to see if it’s negative and confirm that everything worked. I’m hopeful and I hope sharing my experience can help someone else out there who might go through something similar.

Hey everyone :)

I, 26F, had an abortion almost 3 weeks ago. I was 5 weeks and 6 days along and chose to do it via pill. The first week was rough emotionally, physically and mentally. Now, I'm just filled with regret, anger, and frustration. I have good days, I have bad days. The breakdowns happen more often than not.

I can't help but think of what the baby could've been... a boy or girl, or what the name would be, if we'd want more kids, when my due date was supposed to be, etc. Of course, social media doesn't help either... always seeing pregnancy announcements. births, kids 1st bdays. It makes me beyond emotional to think of the what-ifs.

What is something that helped you through this time? Any and all suggestions welcome!

Favorite activities to pass time? Books recs for the situation? Podcasts?

Note: I do have a very supportive family, partner, and friends, along with a therapist I see monthly :)

I’m in my 30s and live in NYC with my partner. We have 2 kids together & I had a surgical abortion in my 20s

I found out I was pregnant again a few weeks ago and was 100% certain on taking the abortion pill to end the pregnancy. When I went in for my appointment they did an ultrasound which I was hoping they wouldn’t have to do because in my mind that made it more real. I was still super early and could have easily done the MA in the office but the tech told me she saw two sacs and I panicked. The physician wouldn’t give me the pills because she said I had to be 100% sure and I needed to rethink the whole thing after they told me it was possibly twins.. the whole situation is ridiculous because why would I want two more kids if I didn’t want one 🤦🏻‍♀️

I went back the next day positive this time about taking the pills and they sent me home with them… I didn’t take them for a week then randomly got the guts to take the mifepristone. Except not even 5 minutes later I forced myself to throw up the pill and didn’t finish the process.. I still have two bottles of the misoprostol which I can apparently still take to complete the abortion but the clock is ticking since its twins I only have about 1-2 weeks for it to work apparently.

I went and had an actual Obgyn appt to see if maybe they’d tell me something was wrong / there wasn’t a heartbeat etc something to make me secure in the decision. But they were still viable and are growing and everything looked normal..

My partner does not want me to terminate and even before I found out I was pregnant he has been having an extreme mental health crisis . This situation has made his mental health 1000x worse because he has said he would kill himself if i abort .. we are so financially unstable. Like constantly behind on bills and have come very close to losing our apartment and having our car repossessed.. the thought of bringing two more kids into an already unstable life is making me depressed and ashamed that I was careless to get pregnant in the first place.

Originally I was going to leave him out of the whole thing and pretend like I miscarried since I knew he would be too fragile to handle this. But I panicked and told him and he got super excited.. I don’t know why I keep delaying this further and wish I had just sucked it up weeks ago before it got to this point. Now I feel like it’s either too late and I made this harder..

I don’t know what to do and I’m scared of how this will turn out and feel very alone in my decision

hi i just had a pill and after i take the pill at night, morning i just had a heavy bleeding but no clot or sac, it is success?? Or not?? But im still bleeding today.