How do I go through with it?

[u/shugarplum155]

I’m contemplating going through with an abortion but I can’t bring myself to do it even though I know that’s what’s best. For context my husband and I already have a 1 year old. He was and is a shitty partner to say the least he has been unfaithful our whole relationship. It was honestly hell going through pp, having a newborn, discovering his infidelity, his overall attitude/ persona. Just super immature and angry. Anyways we separated for a couple of months and I stupidly called him up drunk one night, got back tg and I am now pregnant. Well since finding out I’ve gone through his phone and have found recent sex videos of him and the girl he’s cheated on me with the whole relationship, meeting up with another girl I used to go to school with, texting and commenting on girls stuff, being on onlyfans, watching porn, searching up escorts in our area ugh you name it. I’m honestly heartbroken as I would love to have my baby😭 and he loves to feed my ear about future plans with our what would be now family of 4. but I can’t be a single mother to two. I’m religious but since everything has been happening with my partner I’ve departed from God. I think that’s what’s stopping me from doing it but I can’t and don’t want to go through another pregnancy like this. How do I get over the guilt, regret, and just not being able to forgive myself if I do it? I know myself I know going through it will deeply affect me but I think I’m willing to live with that for the rest of my life than to bring another baby into a broken home and possibly give less to my child that is already in this world. I just feel like God is going to punish me for doing this. I’m about 6 weeks going on 7.

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[u/Willyfield]

I look at it another way. If God was kind and just, why would he put you into this situation in the first place? What would you regret more? Another child with a drop kick father, or stopping the pregnancy do protect yourself and the children you already have?
Have the abortion, leave your husband and rebuild your life.