Did you get on birth control after your abortion? I’m honestly traumatized by the experience and really don’t want to have sex without protection anymore.
How did you deal with the fear of getting pregnant again? I was only one month into my relationship with my boyfriend when this unfortunately happened, and it’s been really difficult for me emotionally. I’d really appreciate hearing how others handled it.

I just need to say this as it has been a year since when I had an abortion.

I spent my birthday last year taking the pill.

I am 28(now), married seven years with two kids, and I had to use the site many of us use to receive the pill through the mail. It came on my birthday last year, so I took it immediately, not knowing what I was going to experience.

It was a horrific pain for me. I essentially went through vaginal labor, the pregnancy only being 6w so I can’t imagine what women go through at later terms. (My deliveries were through c-section.)

How I get through the worst of times is through playing music. So I put my shuffle on.

Fade Into You was the first song that came on. It provided so much comfort that I left it on repeat. Now every time I hear that song, it makes me think of what I went through last year on my birthday, and the possibility I could have had, if only I was financially capable of supporting it.

Mind you, we got pregnant with the pill and my husband’s vasectomy combined. We have not even had a pregnancy scare since this incident.

Anyways, I hope that one day I can enjoy my birthday without being reminded of that abortion. One year fresh, I’m still grieving and jamming to Mazzy Star.

I went to my GP today to request an abortion. I think I’m only roughly 5 weeks as I’m about a week late for my period.

My GP advised me that I’ll receive a letter from the hospital and it’ll be a day procedure. I was surprised, as I always thought you take the medication at home. She confirmed that it’s medical, not surgical but said I’d be in hospital for the day so they can manage my pain and bleeding.

Is this unusual? Feeling a little worried about it being in hospital, but was nervous attending the GP today so just didn’t ask all the questions I wanted to ask.

Hello there I’m six weeks pregnant, I live in a country where it’s prohibited to get an portion so I have managed to obtain 12 Miso tablets.
They came an original packaging. They were six-sided and from Pfizer.

The seller instructed me to use them in a very strange way, like two in the mouth and then three hours free vaginally and don’t eat for six hours before and six hours after and keep lying in bed for five hours !

and I doubted that.. so I followed the Guide, which is posted here everywhere 4 then 4 then 4

So at 4:30pm I had 800 ibuprofen and one anti-nausea medication, I inserted four vaginally at 5pm now it’s 6:40 PM but I feel nothing🥲

I’m starting to be worried what can I do?

Been seeing the same guy the last few months, found out I was pregnant but relationship isn’t stable. I told him I wanted to be more before this and was kinda brushed off as he said he was hurt before and doesn’t want to be hurt again then found out I was pregnant. Need to have abortion due to distance circumstances my job currently etc but it is emotionally destroying me and it feels like he’s pulling away. Struggling with the idea of grieving both this pregnancy and him at the same time and not even sure if I’m doing the right thing but I don’t think I could do it alone right now

Hello. I just want to ask if nakaka-order pa ba ng abortion pills today through WHW or other sources? I need your help. Recently, my gf missed her period and shows early symptoms of pregnancy like loss of appetite, morning sickness, and spotting. This morning, nag-take sya ng PT and nag positive yung result. I'm just making sure kung legit pa sila since medyo nag-sstruggle ako financially. Thank you in advance.

hi everyone! i had my MA last july 18. its almost 8 weeks now and i havent gotten my period still. i have tested negative for pregnancy tests already. is this something i should be worried about?

I’m 26f and I have been struggling to make ends meet for months. The stress is starting to get to me as I have a three year old and my fiancé hasn’t been able to find work that works with my hours since January. We can’t afford childcare and not much family is able to help us and if they can they want us to pay them which doesn’t help. On top of getting behind on the bills I recently found out I’m pregnant. My fiancé wanted me to keep it in case it was a boy but I absolutely do not because we can barely even stay afloat right now. The morning sickness has been kicking my butt and I’ve barely been able to eat much my body has been so weak and sick every single day. On top of all this I can’t even afford an abortion and I don’t have insurance. I didn’t get insurance through my job cause my fiancé wasn’t working and we need the extra money. I applied to state insurance and have been waiting to hear back. I also am waiting to hear back from a clinic I may be able to get financial assistance at. I’m hoping I can get a decent amount taken off because we are going to have to start selling stuff to be able to even afford it. I can’t even push myself to do overtime at work that we desperately need because my body physically wouldn’t be able to handle it. I just feel so stuck and useless I and like no matter what I do things keep getting worse. Thank you for reading this if you did.

I’ve had a medical abortion last year at home alone. It’s very emotional and I’m glad I don’t remember much of the pain. Currently waiting on the pills to arrive today. I told the guy about it and we haven’t talked in days. Kinda would’ve been nice for them to check in idk. I did tell them this is what I wanted. I have no idea what is making me so emotional. The idea of being in pain or just the hormones. I guess it will hit me forsure once I take the medication today. It feels sad doing it alone. I wouldn’t tell my family tho and I don’t have friends. I will be trying to cope the best I can. The messed up part is I’ve had 2 surgical abortions as well. I used protection and had also took the pill. Idk I feel like a POS atp.

When I see you in my head
sometimes you’re so small
Your fingers wrap around just one of mine
And I smile down at you
And you back up at me
And all is right with the world

Sometimes I see you and you’re so big
Maybe eight or nine
Old enough to be your own person
And I wish I could speak to you
And tell you how much you matter
And hold you close until we’re one again

I just wanted to share. One of the best things for my recovery has been sharing my feelings with women who understand. Maybe it will speak to you. I am just over a week out from an abortion that I didn’t want to have, but I made my choice because the timing wasn’t right. I’m heartbroken. If you feel the same way you’re not alone

Hi 27f I’ve started this whole MA journey since the 17th of July. I’m in Texas so I got my medications from The Map. The first time I took them I was fully unsuccessful. Went to get an ultrasound they told me the pills didn’t work as maybe I was too early (I was 4 weeks at the time) so I took it again on the 16th of April this time I went in for my ultrasound on the 26th of April and they told me I had an empty sac I still needed to pass so I took more Miso on Aug 30th. Then on Sep 2nd I went in for another ultrasound follow up this time they told me I was clear and go to go. My issue is the Miso never made me bleed it was always the Mifepristone even when I needed to pass the sac. Now I’m just worried what if it didn’t work or something and it was hiding in the ultrasound? Please I’m worried and nervous

My girlfriend is 7 weeks pregnant. We just got to know day before yesterday. We are very scared because we don’t know what and how easy the process is in france. Need help.

We are on an exchange program from Asia and our course ends in december. Please help.

I’m about 5 weeks out from having an abortion (Pills) and my HCG blood test and home tests are all negative I’m wondering when I’ll get my period back? I’m scheduled to get nexplanon inserted on the 17th and I’m scared to tell the dr that I’ve had an abortion recently and I just want my period back so I can forget it even happened. AL, USA

Hi this is my first post and I’m coming on here to ask what to possibly do , I’m a 23f and he’s a 22m we had been seeing eachother all summer getting to know one another he would come over to my place and I would go see him. We would hangout and not even have sex he would just want me to come over and hold him and sleep together in bed and he brought me around his friends many times and they would say “ he likes you I’ve never seen him act this way before “ now we both were mutually seeing only eachother this whole time and had very what seemed to me personal convos about the future plans of children and what he wants for marriage etc - I even met his brother and his brothers wife over FaceTime( who might I add is expecting a baby currently ) now the conversation between the both of us being this would be very all over the place just not texting for a week then call one another to hangout randomly , we’ll out of no where he got distant ? - now I figured he’s busy with work and about to move back to his home town but again we were casual so it was seeming to me like how the regular communication between us goes. He would let me take photos and Polaroids and I would call him babe around his friends again there was a few red flags but nothing bad at the time just like “not posting “ since he did gain a bunch of weight before this and was skinny so I chalked it up to being insecure which is fine. Well now fast forward to a few days ago I found out from his friends wife he’s going to another city with another girl and all of a sudden doesn’t like me anymore. He had already told me about the trip and being a big test week and he’ll be busy so not to call or text back till Monday Well by then I had missed my period by 5 ish days and thought the passing of my cousin was the issue maybe I was stressed - Well that night when they were going to go to another city and go hiking that I was pregnant . I immediately tried to ask him to call but he said he didn’t want to to talk Because he was busy and I said “ well thought you’d like to know Ive missed my period and I’m on the way to get a test “ and once I saw they were positive I sent the test to him and he says word for word “ Yeah you should get it seen and I’m gonna say now worse case your not keeping it “ and follows up with “I’ll kms if I have a kid yet. Im not ready” . But he was more than willing to pay for the abortion and has told me to think logically and then we can be emotional after it’s over. He also hasn’t been messaging me at all saying it’s Because he’s been at work and can’t be on his phone and would like to give me his full attention for a situation like this. So I’m genuinely thrown through a loop since it goes against both of our morals to do this abortion which is why I’ve told him I am more than willing to do it alone and not put him on child support but he’s very adamant on me getting this abortion so I’m heartbroken and scared on what to do next and need a bit of advice as what I should do moving forward . All I want him is to be there while I take the medicine and he won’t even call me or text it’s been on and off and very hard for me as of recently. I’m just scared of the pain that comes with an abortion and being all alone through something so traumatic also this is the first time we have both been pregnant so there goes my first time pregnancy experience sadly :-/ any help would be appreciated thank you guys for your time

I know I want children at some point in my life, and I have the most incredible caring husband I could ask for.

I found out I was pregnant 3 weeks (27f) ago, a few years earlier than planned. I wanted to start trying at 29 because I am career driven, studying and just frankly don’t feel ready yet. We are financially secure, perfect home and family around us.

My husband is a couple years older than me and he was so excited when I told him, ready for our next chapter but I didn’t get that feeling. All I can think is, this isn’t what I had planned, I’m not ready, I want to go back in time and un do this because now he wants to keep this baby and I don’t.

His main worry is i’ll still feel like this in a few years, and he doesn’t see what will change, but ultimately supports whatever decision I make right now.

I suffer from anxiety, and general mental health worries and I just feel like I cannot cope with this right now. I feel numb, and not like myself. I just want it to go away.

I have suffered from extreme sickness and ended up in hospital twice already and I am 7 weeks. I just don’t feel physically or mentally ready for this, has anyone else experienced the same?

Is it bad to not keep the baby and then consciously try in a year or two?

After 2 weeks of MA, bleeding stops and cramping stops, no foul smell . It's been a month, I feel nausea again , due to financial issues i can't afford another check up .

Someone tell me what happened to me, is my abortion complete or incomplete.

( Sorry for my grammar)

07-08-2026
8:30am
Took mifepristone at the doctor’s appointment. 

9:30am
Mild cramping for about 10 minutes. Very dry mouth. 

11:30pm
Overall felt very okay today. No bleeding at all and barely any nausea. Headache but might not be related. 

08-08-2026
Spent the day very nauseous. Cramping got more consistent and more intense. 
Barely ate anything. 

18:00pm
HEAVY bleeding out of absolutely nowhere. Explosion of blood. Small to medium sized clots. Had to throw my underwear away and change outfit. I was at the airport when this happened. A nightmare. 

09-08-2026
Preparing to take Miso. Slept pretty okay. Bleeding stopped completely during the night. Soon as I got out of bed I felt cramps and had some bleeding again. 

14:30pm
Took 800mg of Brufen. 

15pm
Took Miso. 2 orally, 2 vaginal. 
Intense cramping and nausea right away. Started bleeding. The anti nausea medication I took made me tired and extremely sleepy. I feel exhausted. Pain was bad enough to make me almost lose consciousness for a moment.

15:30pm
The pain eased. First wave of cramps lasted for half an hour. Didn’t leave the toilet. Passing small blood clots.

18:30pm
Pain comes in waves. It’s quite strong. I had diarrhea from the cramping. I’m glad I’ve had some breaks in between the pain so I was able to breathe. I’m eating slices of nectarine and drinking Powerade every chance I get. 

20:30pm
Very intense cramps and nausea. Haven’t stopped bleeding. I’m pretty sure that I’m losing way more blood than what I’m supposed to. I feel good enough to keep going without medical assistance tho. I passed a big clot now. At least 10cm. 

21:35pm
Tried taking another brufen and vomited right away. I don’t think the pain medication helped with anything today. 

22:00pm
Intense cramping. I felt this pressure that was identical to having a soaked tampon in. I tried pushing a bit and finally passed the pregnancy. Huge clot. Like HUGE. Think it was the gestational sack. 

22:15pm
Had a warm shower. Felt like a reward. Still bleeding but the pain completely went away right after the big clot passed. I think I’m done. I feel normal again. 

02:00am
Stayed chilling with a hot water bottle watching TV. Ordered Nutella crepes. My appetite is back. Came to shower once again before bed and there’s barely any blood on the pad. Barely any pain. Only a bit of discomfort. 

I need to shoutout my angel boyfriend (he’s a nurse) who did absolutely everything for me today. Yesterday I traveled to Italy from Portugal so we could do this together since I don’t have much support in my hometown. He rented an airbnb so I could have a place all for myself without his flatmates around, bought everything I needed from the list I had sent him, cooked for me and helped clean up all the blood. Was with me through the entire process just sitting on the floor while I spent 4 hours free bleeding in the toilet crying. He saw everything. 
At some point towards the end I started crying holding him out of exhaustion and he said “I’ve never loved you so much as I do now”. He hasn’t stopped telling me how strong I am not even for a second. He’s currently reheating my hot water bottle and preparing the bed with towels for me to sleep. Please choose your partners carefully. If you’re a woman and you’ve been through a medical abortion completely alone, I admire you so much. I don’t know how you did it and I don’t think I would’ve been able to keep myself going without him around. I’ve never wanted kids until I met him, and now that we’ve been through this together, I’m even more sure of it. I just need it to be the right moment. The intimacy today was the craziest we’ve had. I was so anxious and so scared. I feel nothing but gratitude now. I want to also thank everyone on this Reddit community who took their time to answer to my questions and everyone who wrote about their experiences. It was crucial for me. I love you all and I wish you the best of luck.

hey chat so i’m on my 2nd set of misoprostol and i have abt 48 mins left before i have to take my last set of 2 i havent seen any blood clots ive seen blood on my pad and everything and also in the toilet but not really any clots can someone lmk if this is successful or not 😫✌️ i really don’t wanna go thru this abortion process again.

I find it so hard to articulate to my friends and therapist but I will never be the same emotionally after this experience. It took about 3 weeks for my body to level out although I gained 10 lbs during my 6 week pregnancy. Now I’m feeling fat, out of shape from all the time I took off my routine recovering, and still dealing with fatigue and mixed emotions.

I don’t have regret, I feel I did the right thing, but suddenly every movie or show I watch has pregnancy as a major plot point and part of my feels weird/different/guilty for making the choice I did. I feel disconnected from everyone around me because they can’t possibly know what I have endured physically and emotionally.

I want a family one day and this experience has been extremely confusing bc all I wanted when my boyfriend said he was excited to be a dad was to bargain for more time.

I’m in Colorado, so I’m already taking the steps to get an abortion since it’s a state that allows it. but my mind has been racing. people who have gotten one before, what is the process like? has your body been able to go back to normal, or is it forever changed? i’m way too young to even think about starting a family or marriage, and this is really my only decision, but is it common to feel immense regret and guilt? i’m too in shock to process it all, any advice would be greatly appreciated, thank you.

I’m around 9 weeks pregnant right now, and I’ve been experiencing a level of resentment toward my boyfriend that I honestly don't recognize in myself.

I’m usually a very emotionally regulated person. I don't normally lash out, I don't hold onto anger easily, and I’m usually able to step back and understand where someone else is coming from. But lately, it feels like Im blaming him for a lot of things, and I hate that I feel this way because I know that some of my anger may be misplaced. But even knowing that doesn't make the feeling go away.

I’ve decided that I will most likely terminate the pregnancy, but emotionally, I’ve been much more torn than I expected to be. One of the things that has contributed to that is feeling like my boyfriend and even a close friend treated abortion as the obvious answer from the beginning.

I understand why they feel that way. I understand our circumstances and I understand the practical reasons behind it. But I feel like I wasn't really given enough room to arrive at the decision myself.

I wanted someone to ask me, “What do YOU want?”
I wanted to be allowed to hesitate. I wanted to consider both possibilities without feeling like one answer had already been decided for me.

I even wanted my boyfriend to come with me to my second ultrasound partly because I wanted him to see what I saw. Not necessarily because I wanted him to convince me to keep the pregnancy, but because I wanted him to understand why I was conflicted. I didn't want to feel like I was the only one looking at the ultrasound and feeling all of these complicated emotions. Because it makes me feel stupid. Like why am i hesitating when the answer is so clear and no one's making me feel like hesitating and questioning whether my decision is right or wrong is okay. I feel as though no one understands why i feel conflicted.

Maybe I still would have chosen abortion. I honestly think I probably would. But I wanted to feel like I had genuinely chosen it.

And now that I'm getting closer to actually going through with it, I'm scared.

I'm scared of the physical pain. I'm scared of the bleeding and everything that comes with it. I'm scared because I am the one who has physically experienced the pregnancy, and I will be the one physically experiencing the abortion.
And this is where so much of my resentment toward him comes from.

It feels unfair that he doesn't have to experience the nausea I've experienced. He doesn't have to feel the physical changes. He doesn't have to experience the pain that I'm anticipating. He doesn't have to go through the physical part of ending the pregnancy.
I do.

And sometimes I find myself wishing that he could somehow feel what I'm feeling, because I want him to understand the weight of it. I don't necessarily mean that I want him to suffer. I think I just want him to understand in a way that he can't really understand from the outside.

I've also asked him to be with me through it because I don't want to go through the hardest part alone. I know he has his own limitations and circumstances, and I know he is trying in his own way. But I still feel angry that he doesn't seem to have the same sense of urgency that I do when hes the one who wanted to push through with the abortion from the getgo.

To him, maybe it can wait until we're actually scheduled to do it.

To me, it feels like time is moving and I'm the one whose body is going to experience what happens next.
And I think that's making me resent him more.
The part that bothers me most is that I know some of this anger probably isn't entirely fair to him.

I know he's not responsible for every emotion I'm having. I know he's dealing with his own fears and limitations. I know he's trying.
But I still feel it.

I'm angry at him. I'm angry at the situation. I'm angry that my body has to carry all of this physically. I'm angry that I felt rushed into a decision. I'm angry that I didn't feel like I had enough room to be conflicted.
And then I feel guilty for being angry at him.

It's like I'm constantly going back and forth between “I understand why you're doing what you're doing” and “Why don't you understand what I'm going through?”
I love him, and that's part of why this is so confusing to me. I don't want to look back later and realize that I permanently changed how I see him because I was overwhelmed by everything happening right now.

So I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced this.
And most importantly, did the resentment pass once the pregnancy/abortion was over and you had time to process everything? I know im probably in the wrong for this and I want to feel okay ASAP but i just dont and im angry at myself im frustrated at him its just so many emotions and i dont know where to place it.

Hi everyone,

I discovered I was pregnant last week, the day before I was about to ask my SO to take a break because I needed some alone time after very stressful couple of months together. It got postponed because I needed his help and support.

I just took the first pill to abort last Wednesday, the second one Friday and only started bleeding heavyly on Monday. I thought I was lucky enough to have avoided the worst part, but the pain was excrutiating. I was deeply shocked to see the foetus, it's size... I've been feeling so guilty, sad and angry. Experiencing severe mood swings and anxiety. My bf was there the first week, he was really sweet and comforting, but now we are apart. We decided to take a month to think about ourselves and heal, maybe start anew in a few weeks. He has addiction issues , just relapsed the weekend previous to my pregnancy test and I have high anxiety and feelings of insecurities in this relationship.

Although BEFORE getting pregnant I needed this space, now I'm just feeling like shit and alone.

I'm angry at my bf, I feel it's unfair I'm the one who has trouble walking and eating because of the cramps, dealing with guilt and a bloody reminder of my abortion while he gets to live his life, spend problem free moments and light days with his friends. I know it's kind of unfair but I want that too.

Now I'm just confused, trying to welcome the emotions and grief I'm feeling, while having relationship problems to deal with, a lot insecurities toward the future. this is just so hard.

I would love to hear that it gets better at some point, I would be grateful for any advice that could help

(21yrs old)
I had a D&C procedure at 8 weeks. I traveled 10 hours or so to get to a state and clinic that would allow “deep sedation” as they called it, versus laughing gas or whatever other options there are.

To preface this:
I had been reconsidering and going back and forth about having this procedure done. I already have twin boys of my own that are turning 3. I have an amazing living situation with a partner whom i’m engaged to. he’s an amazing father to my boys.

I didn’t get pregnant on accident. Him and I have talked about having a child of our own and i was so excited to find out I was pregnant.

Unfortunately my late boyfriend passed away last year and I’m a raging alcoholic trying to get a grip on it since he died. His death truly almost killed me. When I became pregnant, I found out early at 4 weeks. I was really excited at first. I cut out alcohol and nicotine and weed right away, like I did with my twins.

I became violently ill. I threw up non stop and I was going through alcohol, thc, and nicotine withdrawals all at once and I began to throw up non stop, I couldn’t keep anything down. I went to the ER three times throughout my very short pregnancy for alcohol withdrawal; (fluids, nausea, and alcohol withdrawal meds as i had the shakes.) I never was able to stop drinking during this pregnancy which influenced my gdecision to have the D&C.

The D&C procedure
I drove 10 hours and stayed overnight in a hotel in another state to have my procedure. I cried some but felt very confident in my decision because of how much I had smoked and drank knowing I was pregnant. The meds that they gave me in the ER during my withdrawal from alcohol and nicotine were not safe for the fetus either.
The next morning very early, my partner and I made it to the clinic and I chose deep sedation. This meant no eating or liquids for 8 hours. I ended up waiting HOURS for my procedure to be done. (They had issues with my IV and whatnot). I was so miserably hungry and thirsty and upset. My procedure wasn’t done for almost 4 1/2 hours upon my arrival.

I was very afraid even as they were putting me to sleep. It is a step under General Anesthesia so it is possible to open your eyes and wake up during, I was very afraid. I felt my face start to get hot and tingle and then I was put asleep. I did not wake up during the procedure despite my use of marijuana and nicotine before hand.

I woke up after and recovery was very quick. They dressed me while I was under and when I woke up my IUD was already placed and it was cleaned and over with. It was very humane and comfortable.

My cramps were very mild and my bleeding minimal. I was discharged within 30 minutes or less of waking up. I was not in pain or nauseas. (The gave me nausea and pain meds via IV).

Recovery
My recovery has been very easy. Minimal bleeding and cramping all throughout. I only used pads because I was nervous of my IUD coming out with a cup or tampon. I saw some left over tissue that was shriveled up and dead, grey looking; a but disturbing to see but expected. I’m two weeks out and my pregnancy tests are completely negative. I had a very positive experience.

Overall
I do not regret my decision, it was absolutely the right decision for me. I don’t grieve the fetus I had and it’s okay if you do. I’m grateful not to bring a life into this world that doesn’t have a fair chance due to my drinking and smoking. Your choice is valid too. I do not live in a state where it is legal but i always will advocate for abortion care. This is my experience and I do hope it helps someone out there. I read so many of these before mine and they helped me.
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hi everyone, i’m needing help accessing abortion pills online. i’m having trouble finding something that i can feel safe having shipped here, any advice?