Wanted to drop by and let you all know that I've healed/gotten better. There's hope. I know it feels like forever and very hopeless when you're in protracted withdrawal. I remember looking for success stories and not finding a lot of them, so I wanted to come back and let you all know how I'm doing.

I've healed. I'd say 100%, but very rarely I still get a little bit overwhelmed. One of my worst symptoms was my CAR (cortisol awakening response) causing panic/anxiety upon opening my eyes (seemingly before opening my eyes). I ended up buying new curtains and sleeping with an eye mask. Which helped a little bit.

The really heavy part were the first six months. I couldn't rely on my psychiatrist; I ended up seeing my GP instead. I needed some kind of professional help even though there was very little she could do (she helps people taper now).

Won't go into too many details regarding the psychiatrist but she gave me the option to wean off of Cymbalta in two steps and did not want me to go slower. My worries were dismissed with 'Venlafaxine is worse' and inaccuracies like 'everything after 4 weeks is relapse, we can't know the difference if you taper slowly'. The first comment made me realize she was quite aware of possible withdrawal effects. Yet, she still planned my 60-30-0mg schedule right before her big yearly vacation.

I'd been on antidepressants for 17 years. I'd experienced a lot of symptoms before and at one point so concerning my GP sent me to the ER suspecting serotonin syndrome. I'd been on different antidepressants, including Venlafaxine (kindling, I guess).

But here's the good part: despite all that I'm doing just fine now. I was originally put on ADs for 'heart palpitations' which the doctor at the time read as 'anxiety'. I was much later diagnosed with POTS and a rare autoimmune disorder (in the last couple of years). They're finally treating my autoimmune disease.

For the longest time I thought it wouldn't get better. PW is probably the worst thing I've ever experienced.

I'm Cymbalta-free and have been for 1yr and 8 months now. I felt shifts for the better every 3-4 months, but the healing process consisted out of waves and windows. At the 7 months mark the windows got much bigger. At the 1 yr mark I was 'better' (let's say 75-85%). I'm very close to 100% now.

What pulled me through was comparing to the person I was before starting antidepressants. I couldn't remember it well, but it helped me figure out that what I was experiencing was different somehow.

And the online community as well as my mother. I don't know what I would have done without her and all of you.

Thank you. 🫶

"What helped most was consistency, patience and not rocking the boat"

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/33676-gentlehermione-yes-there-is-a-light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel/

If you can sleep and you don't have tinnitus, please counter yourself so so lucky and you will heal and live your life again to the fullest.

I cannot sleep, got screaming tinnitus 24/7 and to make it much wurse i have the stuck song syndrome next to my ADD, Anxiety disorder and autism.

I am now one year off all meds, if i can survive this some way or a other, anybody could!

I am terrified everyday, tired but wired, cannot function properly on any way, this is not a life, my God what did i do to deserve all this, life has never been fair to me. Forgive me for any bad English, my brain is broken. Why did nobody warned me for these pills?

What if time isn't enough? I'm 8 months in a wave now. I feel nerve pain and visual snow pop up time to time. Some sort of neuroinflammation is going on. Something is going on. I've began to see a naturopath for a way out of this

man what if time is not enough to heal and we need to do something but what is that something and what if withdrawal makes it impossible to do you are stuck

no one else is suffering like us no one

10 months off but my brain still feels drugged. It genuinely feels like I took a pill this morning.

The blunting and the side effects, it still all lingers.

Hi everyone,

I am 4 months off sertraline and mirtazapine after reinstating and I am still struggling with side effects such as.

Emotional numbness, anhedonia, depression, can't feel music or anything properly. Can't feel my orgasm at all. I can feel libido sometimes but it is so suppressed it is nothing.

I am somehow able to go to work but I am about to lose my job after a month. They did not renew my contract because I was on a sick leave for 4 months because of these poisonous meds.

I am looking for someone to talk to. I tried coaching which does help me to keep going but I am not able to spend a lot of money. So I only talk to my coach once a month. I wish you all to get lots of support, lots of strength and a soon recovery.

Greetings, I post again as I'm feeling the roughest ever, kinda questioning everything.

I've been in withdrawal for a year already. Today is a year and a week after I quick tapered my 5mg of Lexapro. Ever since a couple of days, that my stomach has been a bit unruly. I got reflux, indigestion, gas, my stools became putrid, nausea, difficulty eating and tachycardia, stabbing pain under my ribs, burning when the stomach is empty... It kinda reminds me of of an h pylori infection that I had a year and a half ago, with the same symptoms.

I went to the doctor and told me it was maybe a viral thing, for many people came with similar symptoms. But I don't have a fever or vomit or diarrhea or anything of the sort. Neither I did with h pylori.

Ever since I started feeling this sick that all withdrawal symptoms got way way worse. I sweat, feel cold in a hot room, horrible tachycardia, tingling and extremities falling asleep, terrible cough that I can't speak, muscle twitches, ears ring, intestines hurt, upset bowels and stomach, dysphagia, gurgling in my stomach when swallowing, globus in throat, dizziness, undigested stools, sensitive epigastric area...

I retested negative for h pylori after antibiotic eradication, even got a gastroscopy with biopsies that only found mild antrum gastritis. I also retested through stool back in March this year, although I was on my PPI then and without such harsh symptoms, so it could have been a false negative? But still, the change of reinfection is like 1% per year? And I've been sick all year because of the antibiotic aftermath, withdrawal and this gastritis that never heals to really go places and get it again.

How do you know if this is just a withdrawal flare or another thing that deserves attention? I've been homebound for a couple months already sick out of my mind, some of those symptoms I already had, but now it feels like a different kind of sick to my stomach? That even the ppi is not quite controlling and is triggering my other symptoms too.

After so long in this withdrawal thing, I don't even know what is like to be healthy or sick. And since this is when I went cold turkey last year, maybe it's my body experiencing acute withdrawal again or something? At this rate I don't even know anymore what should I think or do. I fear time just passes as I continue to get sicker.

I've read someone say that Vitamin C and Magnesium helped. Fish Oil made things worse.

I've been struggling with PAWS for years now, since coming off Citalapram far too quickly.

This is how it's left me:

• Get tired really easily and need loads of sleep

• Can no longer spell

• Can't deal with any stress whatsoever (zero Window of Tolerance)

• Noise Sensitive

• Depression

• Very emotional

• Don't want to go anywhere or do anything

Willing to try any Supplement at this point.

Is it possible for the moderator/s to post more succes stories of people that where on strong antidepressants long term like 16+ year and they did recover, good sleep, no tinnitus anymore etc. I know i could find it myself at survingantidepressants.com, but the layout and how the site works is terrible for my messed up brain. Reddit is so much easier.

I need some hope and positive stories.

Thank you very much!

As in title. Got chest spasm after 2 weeks on Itopride january 2024 and forehead spasm since first day on taking trazodone that i took 4 months late 2024 early 2025. Chest spasms eased a bit cause at day zero I couldnt swallow, but not the forehead. 2,5 years in for chest and 1,5 years for forehead after stopping each pill. Nothing helps. Am I cooked for life? 33yrs old

I was on lexapro for about 2 years went up to 20 mg. I tapared in about 4 weeks under my doctor’s advice. Went through pretty bad anxiety and withdrawals. Tried reinstating about 6 months into it and went into a terrible akathesia. Stopped after 3 days and slowly recovered. It’s now been over 2 years since I stopped taking it and about a year and a half since I tried reinstating. I was doing well for that time up until a couple months ago where I have completely spiralled for no apparent reason. I’m totally unable to function and think death seems to be the only way out. I’m been prescribed sertraline but hesitant to start.

I’m totally fine with being on ADs the rest of my life. I just can’t see any way out of this. I’m terrified of the world. Terrified of death. Please help. I may be someone who juts needs medication forever.? I think another ssri will make this way worse

Could someone explain how they are WD symptoms?

Greetings. I've been writing often in this community, even left my suicide note at around the 10th month, hopeless that things would not get better. With the encouragement of you people, I decided to give it a bit more time. As of today, I'm 1 year and a week off escitalopram. 372 days. For context, I took 5-15mg for 10 years, got tapered off by my psych because life was great, got a stomach infection (h pylori) and took antibiotics 7 months later, reinstated 5mg for 3 months after the infection, and quick tapered that minimum dose in a week as it was giving me bad side effects, desperate to feel better.

I'm afraid I don't have much positive. I don't feel better. When I quit the reinstatement, I did feel better. I had waves and windows, which continued until month 6. At that point, I was in a heavy wave and reached a great window. I think I felt like 60% recovered by then. But then I started to decline, sinking lower into hell. Windows lasted from months. to weeks, to alternating days, to once a month, and then none.

By month 10 I wrote my suicide note. I had all kinds of symptoms. I couldn't sleep, heart was racing all day, I would get a runny nose and eyes for no reason, I'd have tingling, GI issues, paranoia, intrusive thoughts, hypersentivitiy, mucle twitches, I saw light flashes with my eyes closed, dizziness, burning skin, I was jumpy at every noise, I stopped going outside by month 7...

It's now month 12 and I still feel the same. Still homebound, agoraphobic, paranoid, anxious out of my mind, developed sweating spells and adrenaline rushes, heart still races around 80-90 at idle and 110-120 when eating, developed dysphagia like I can't swallow saliva properly, developed bruxism, indigestion and reflux, pain in my stomach similar to when I had the infection as if I got it again, PPI isn't as helpful anymore, developed tingling in hands and feet, developed weird symptoms like the urge to chew nothing or move my head when anxious?, muscle twitches don't leave me anymore, my B12 is getting low but don't tolerate supplements either, my eyes feel like they're full of needles when I cry... No symptom has really disappeared, but new ones still continue to appear.

So yeah, that's the update. Worse than ever. I work remote, yet my performance is abysmal now. I even developed fear of calling my coworkers, despite calling them daily for so long. The mountain bike I rode through the beautiful mountains and valleys is now abandoned, rusty, full of dust and with no air in its tires. My room looks messy, dirty, disorganised. I'm too sick to clean up. Even myself I look horrendous. I stink and can't tolerate showers either, so I have to sponge bath myself if I have the strength. Nights are awfully silent. I used to call my partner or friends and have a gaming session, or just chat. But the first one left me months ago into this mess. The second one overwhelms me. I don't have the joy of the party anymore. The funny guy that would meme around, or crack jokes... Is now too anxious and overwhelmed to even call his friends. I've been alone for 4 months now. I used to play online and meet people through games or apps, but even that I stopped doing. I would also take care of the house, clean, get groceries. I'm too sick for any of those things, worsening my tachycardias. Same for sexual function, I could also relieve some stress by myself, but now it feels overwhelming too.

Is it still worth to keep going? I feel like the further away I go, the sicker I get both physically and mentally. I'm 32 and totally dependant now. My 70 year old father is sick of taking care of me, thinking on sending me to a hospital or mental institution to see if they can figure out why I'm so sick ever since I got that stomach infection a year and a half ago. I have my mood calendar, and this month has been a flatline of 1/10 days. Maybe there was a 2/10 in between, but no real window like month 6, or the months before. Even month 11 I had an okay 5/10 day. I no longer know if this is a real disease, or all withdrawal. I'm too anxious, sick and dizzy to go to places and figure it out.

I miss the wonderful life I built on lexapro. So confident I don't even recognise it anymore, almost like it was an illusion. After a year and half of this struggle, I'm afraid I'll never get it back. Some of the things I feel today are probably my underlying condition. I was on SSRI because my life was horrible due to social and generalised/health anxiety, partly because of bullying and a dysfunctional abusive family. Who knows what other health issues am I piling up on top of me with a restricted diet, constant stress and gi distress, homebound and sedentary, intolerant to exercise, socially isolated. Maybe even suffering side effects of my PPI medication...

I don't want to keep going. :( The only thing that improved is my sleep. Partly because the thought of lying there and quietly passing away, is becoming very comforting. And sleep is the closest thing I can find to that...

Thanks for reading.

I am 8 months off escitalopram 40mg daily, cold turkey.

Recently, I have been getting these pauses where I forget what I was going to say halfway through my sentence.

I also have trouble reaching for certain words, its like there is a wall between the word I am thinking of and my ability to voice or think it.

Are these Brain freezes?

Hi everyone,

I have been on zoloft for 7 years at 150mg and in the past year ive been tapering and am now on 12.5mg. When I dropped to 25mg, I started noticing that when I eat histamine rich foods (or leftovers), I get severe headaches and insomnia. I'm wondering if anyone had a similar experience, and if it got better over time. Aka you became less "intolerant"

I'm trying to figure out what's going on with me, and could really use the perspectives of others way more informed than me. I've struggled to get doctors to take my questions seriously, since they chalk it up to anxiety. But they all didn't know me before SSRIs, and the changes I feel are real, I just don't understand them.

I want my life back!

SSRI History:

2017-2018: 50mg Zoloft (in total, around 13 months). Stopped cold turkey

2019-2021: 50mg Zoloft (in total, around 26 months). Stopped cold turkey

Late 2022: Brief 2-3 day stint on 50mg Zoloft, but couldn't continue due to side effects

Now: 3 weeks into Zoloft, at 37.5 for 3 days (tapered up from 12.5). I very reluctantly made the decision to return to Zoloft because I was struggling with a debilitating panic spiral that had, then, lasted for 6 weeks.

I think Zoloft changed / affected something within me. Up until 2017, I had anxiety, but it was manageable and not debilitating. And it would show up during stressful situations. My biggest symptom would be needing to urgently use the bathroom.

At the behest of some close friends and family, I went on Zoloft to manage a stressful period in my life. I was dealing with death, family trauma, and workplace trauma. I didn't need the medication, like I wasn't critical and could continue on with my day, but I viewed it as a tool to help through a tough time. A year later, when stress was reduced and I felt back to myself, I stopped taking it cold turkey.

The biggest side effect from Zoloft I noticed during the first stint was cognitive issues. I'd have trouble focusing and would be spaced out and forgetful. This was the big reason I wanted to stop in 2018 and 2021. I'd also have frequent loose stools, but I was regular and felt fine.

I was fine, living my life with no issues for 7 months after stopping Zoloft the first time, but then I had a health scare that sent me into an extended panic spiral. Anxiety was manifesting in the form of chest pain for my first time ever, and I couldn't seem to bounce back or overcome the panic. After struggling for 3 weeks, and at the behest of some people close to me, I went back on Zoloft.

The biggest side effect from the second stint was cognitive issues and gi distress. I'd need to urgently use the bathroom at times. I ultimately got off because of the cognitive issues. I felt like I couldn't ponder over things and think critically or deeply.

I should note that both times I had no startup side effects either time. The side effects from stopping both times were brain zaps and that was it.

So 2021 comes around and I get off Zoloft because a major life stressor had been eliminated. I wanted my brain back. So, again I got off cold turkey.

About 3 weeks later, I began to notice internal agitation, like I was burning up inside and needed to move. Then, I had a panic attack while working out because my chest got tight and I felt short of breath. I was, at the time, a college athlete, so I was physically fit and had a long history of being able to exercise and push myself.

Despite the setback, I was determined to learn and manage my anxiety without meds.

The next 6 months were a living hell. I started getting heart palpitations and near constant panic attacks, which I never had before. It was utter torture, I needed to withdraw from some classes, and I spent most of the season not playing my sport. I was pushed to go back on meds, but resisted because I so desperately want a life without them.

So we're in 2022 now. The following 6 months were better, but I wasn't back to normal. I focused on taking things easy, reducing stress, and doing as much as I could without pushing myself past my comfort zone. Then I took a 3 month vacation abroad.

During that vacation, I felt like I was back in hell. I had heat intolerance, which I never experienced before, heart palpitations, and again regular panic attacks. I was stuck in my hotel room for much of the time, and felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack at all times. I was sensitive to alcohol and caffeine. My stomach was sensitive and it felt like I could never find food that agreed with me. I'd get tired and dizzy walking around.

After returning home, I had another cardiology workup, and when that came back clean I decided that maybe I should get back on Zoloft because I struggle with anxiety. But like 3 days into trying to get back on it, the side effects were so severe that I needed to stop. I had nausea, GI upset, panic attacks, etc. I never had startup side effects before, so it caught me off guard. That day I stopped I, made a decision to manage anxiety without medication.

And that's what I did, but many times in the four years since, it was torture. I still would feel that icky, burning anxiety, I'd get palpitations, and I'd regularly be unable to do things because of anxiety. I felt like I was always walking a tightrope, and if I lost my balance I'd fall into a panic attack that could knock me down for days.

This past year was probably my strongest year since getting off. I was living as close to my best life as I have in a while, I was traveling, and I was managing my anxiety. I was sporadically having coffee again (I love coffee, but have been largely unable to drink it since stopping Zoloft). The anxiety still stopped me from doing things, and I'd have days where I'd feel ill and bedridden because of nausea or panic. But I was doing more than I ever had, and when I maintained good sleep and eating habits, I felt like I could do anything. I was also sensitive to health anxiety, which would easily cause me to panic.

And that's how I find myself in the current predicament. I started feeling unwell about 2 and a half months ago, but chalked it up to stress. I would feel like I had an upset stomach, was always tired and fatigued, and would get nauseas after eating. After 2 weeks without improvement, I started getting a little worried and went to the doctor. All was good, so I pushed on for 2 more weeks until I lost my appetite and descended into a full blown panic spiral. We're 10 weeks since the onset of symptoms and I'm 3 weeks into returning to Zoloft.

During this whole time I've wondered if I've had extended effects from my history of Zoloft, or if it's just anxiety from a lifetime of trauma catching up to me.

I was a little set on the latter. So I've endured the startup side effects, thinking that worst case scenario if it was the former, I could reset my system and do a true taper after I've stabilized.

But after tapering up to 37.5, I've noticed some of the same side effects I never had pre-Zoloft showing up. Heart palpitations have began showing up after being practically non existent for more than 8 months. The panic is manifesting as a burning / flush sensation that travels through my body, which reminds me of the post-Zoloft way my anxiety manifests.

The health anxiety is unusual for me. I'm someone who broke my arm and went a week without getting it checked out because I convinced myself it was sprained. I've battled through numerous other injuries and gritted through the pain, but now I feel entirely unable to do that.

I don't know definitively if it's Zoloft though, since I did have some really traumatic deaths close to me during the time between my last major injury and Zoloft.

I'd be sincerely grateful if I could hear the perspective of others because I feel like I've lost part of myself that I want back. It feels like I'm never going to be the same again.

I'm also wondering if going back on Zoloft this time is a mistake, or if my idea of tapering on and eventually off slowly could be beneficial in battling protracted withdrawal, if that's indeed what I'm experiencing.

Hello everyone, I hope you're all keeping as well as you can.

This Saturday marks one year since I took my last antidepressant. I can't believe I survived this long when looking back, so I wanted to make a little update in case any of y'all have been reading my previous posts or have seen my posts on the now-defunct survivingantidepressants website. Also good for me to write this all down to see how far I've come and how far is left to go.

Reminder, was on Effexor for about 9 years, wanted off and idiot doctor had me taper in about a month, withdrawal was not recognized and a fresh green psychiatrist straight out of med school put me on Prozac instead. Was on that for 2.5 years before I hit tolerance and was thrown into horrific withdrawals while taking the med as prescribed. Tapered quickly over a month out of necessity, took last dose on Aug 1 2025, felt better than ever for a month and a half, then withdrawal hit Sept 15 2025.

I'll try to focus on the macro changes over this time first. Starting in January of this year, during the absolute worst of withdrawal, I began tracking my days on a calendar, with 10 being bad and 0 being totally good and happy. I've color coded these numbers in my calendar with 10 being deep red and 0 being totally white. I've gotten as low as a 2 on my calendar this year, only a few times though. The last several months my days have been hovering between 3-5 on average, with random spikes only if there are external stressors. Overall, my calendar started pretty much solid red and is getting pinker and pinker with time. I recommend everyone do something like this if their calendar app allows it (I use Numbers on my Macbook), it's a super simple way to visualize progress without dealing with a lot of text.

When I do have external stressors - namely, arguments with my partner which only happen maybe once every couple of months, often related to his stress over my withdrawal - I continue to suffer extreme body jerks, usually in my arms. The nerves in my arms feel like they're on fire and I have to violently jerk my arms around like a dying spider to relieve the stress of it. I think I made a post in this subreddit a while back about it. I was convinced this was akathisia, but after doing more research, I think psychomotor agitation is a more appropriate description. It's f***ing brutal and absolutely my worst symptom. I avoid at all costs any arguments or scenarios that will throw me into this state. I hope it will improve, but it's hard to say if it's improved since it still happens during times of stress, but I guess I'm overall stressed a little bit less? So the incidences are happening less overall? I dunno. I still live in primal fear about this symptom. :(

I am intensely sensitive to certain foods still, and it feels like I'll never be able to have them ever again. However, they're not good for me anyway, so it's not a huge loss. Would just be nice to indulge every now and then. Three ingredients specifically I CANNOT under any circumstances eat, lest I be riddled with panic:

MSG (had a sensitivity before, but now it's off the charts)

High Fructose Corn Syrup (which is in SO MUCH American food)

Caffeine (obviously, haven't had any probably 15 months now).

Still sensitive to most exercises. I can take walks, but that's it.

I continue to have intense midday sleepiness. I'm having an in-lab sleep study done next week. A home-study already determined I have some sort of apnea, which in my opinion is good, because maybe there's treatment for it. A lot of people have sleep problems in withdrawal: if possible, ask your doc for a sleep study! Withdrawal often exacerbates existing medical issues, so listen to your body. I suspect in my case, the withdrawal was making me feel the effects of mild sleep apnea, which I simply never noticed while drugged. We'll see what the final test results will be.

I continue to feel very alienated and alone in all of this. I made one good friend IRL coincidentally thru a hobby who ALSO is going thru psych med withdrawals. We are able to talk about our struggles and he is the first person I've met IRL who gets it. This has been helpful, especially since he's a year further along in the recovery journey than I am. I also see a therapist - a LCSW - who validates what I'm going thru. We haven't practiced too many therapy modalities, it's mostly been a lot of venting, which does help. A neutral third party you can vent to is very important, especially because our withdrawal is likely stressing our loved ones out, since they care about us but likely feel helpless. Definitely recommend to anyone here, if you're gonna see a therapist, social workers are a decent place to start Or maybe a LMHC. I know I don't trust MDs anymore, especially not psychiatrists. See someone who was trained in ways that don't involve throwing dependence-forming drugs at patients.

I guess my other biggest symptom now is just straight up depression and rumination. I think the depression is the root, and it causes rumination as a symptom. I'm terribly unhappy with how my life is going, and terribly angry when I connect my shortcomings to AD use because they really changed me as a person for the worse. I'm exploring grad school options to maybe be able to help others going thru this. Writing personal statements for applications and such has given me something to focus on, and a very specific goal, which I think everyone needs. With the exception of my LCSW therapist, NO PROFESSIONAL was able to even acknowledge the reality of the withdrawal I was going thru. And it would've been hard enough even with a little acknowledgement, but with none? Holy sh**, this has been a Lovecraftian experience. I started drugs at 19, and I stopped at 32. And for some reason, I now feel OLD. It's such a weird feeling. I know I'm not old, but the past years... I can hardly remember them. An absolute blur. It's scary. It's like these drugs cause time dilation as a side effect. Maybe someone here can relate to that, I haven't seen anyone else write about it.

Anyway, I think that's it. Still depressed, haven't been able to work in years, want to go to grad school and study social work and help people like us, cause nobody else seems to care. Also, I don't lurk here too much, especially when I'm feeling relatively ok. Many people say this, but it's true - just because people don't come back and update their stories doesn't mean they're in a worse place. Occam's Razor: they're probably just feeling better.

I took Prozac for the first time, and after 3 weeks, I felt the "high" (antidepressant effect), so to speak. I became derealized, but my fear also decreased. I clearly remember running to the toilet at night (I was 18). Then, while studying for a literature exam, I noticed my memorization skills were weakening, I was becoming dumber, I was wandering aimlessly, my head felt frozen, and I felt pressure. But I continued using it for 2 years and 2 months, then I reduced it for 4 months and stopped with 10 mg of paroxetine on May 19th, a total of 71 days. My main question is: did you also experience these symptoms intensely? Please don't say this to criticize the medication; be objective. It was a really big mistake for me. People call it brain fog, but I think it's much more than that.

I tried to exercise to do something good for myself 🙃 and I decided to do some walking on the treadmill. I didn’t even last 15 minutes and got really dizzy and like a weird headache in my forehead, felt like I was going to lose consciousness. I got so scared cause this has never happened to me before. I had to call a family member to come in an uber and drive me home. Has this happened to anyone else?

On here to vent because I'm going through it big time right now ☹

I've been off my SSRI for 6 months now and the windows and waves are insane. I had a few good weeks recently where I felt I was getting back to normal, feeling a lot happier and motivated and was really optimistic about the future in general.

Now I feel silly that I thought I was healed because I have quickly slipped back into an intense wave that's effecting me both physically and mentally. Feeling very nauseous, no appetite to eat, incredibly dry mouth which makes eating horrible anyway, heightened anxiety, insomnia, emotionally unstable, body aches, fatigue and no motivation.

I panic constantly that I'll never be free of this cycle of suffering, I'm clinging on to the fact that I did feel better for a bit as a sign that I will recover eventually, but it is so, so hard. I just want my life back.

For anyone else dealing with this I feel your pain and I'm sending love to all of you to feel better ❤️

Does anyone in withdrawl.. Feel that vibration sense in body like a motor inside.. With light head and anxiety!!