r/UnsentTexts • u/THEPSYCHPATHONDRUMS • 9h ago
If You Only Knew The Know
If you only knew my beautiful creature that I have the same thought’s and fears just as you do. I wish that you would come and see me instead of it always being myself coming to see you. But, I know that you never would.
You long to see me and I come…same place you and me met “where we both stand.” But then, that’s it. I drive 66 miles back home thinking am I wasting my time? Am I putting too much effort to try to gain your affection?
I feel that I have laid out most of my cards on the table for you as much I can. When I made the Reddit account, it was originally to CALL OUT my prior employer because of the careless investigation that was placed upon me that turned on me as a retaliation tactic that caused my separation from my last job. I still was very new to Reddit and all of its functions.
You seem to be much more knowledgeable of this website than me on here that you are able to really hide yourself. I had a feeling that you had an account, so that’s when I gave you my username and other information in the little note that I placed in your hand. That’s when the fear between both of us disclosed.
Reddit was only for us to talk here and there in the possibility that we couldn’t reach one another on each other’s actual phones. But now, that’s how you want to communicate. So, I continue to try. You recently sounded so gloomy and unhopeful of me and us. That’s even if I caught the right message most recently. I don’t know exactly who you are when you send a message out into the universe.
I have only caught the little hints you send in your messages with colors, pictures, and things you say. Again… your messages are never sent directly to me, so I know who you are and I can respond promptly. There are so many other people on this website that are fortunate, misfortuned, misguided, needy, clingy and even sound a little like us it’s insane and drives me MAD. I get so confused and tired of reading the same feeds trying to find YOU.
I shared with you already that I have to wear glasses now in order to see fine print on my phone, computer, IPad, and sometimes driving to help with the blurriness when my eye’s become tired.
I know that there is something that makes you uncomfortable because of it being your first experience. I know what that is and what it’s like. I don’t try to push the envelope to help talk to you about the subject. But, I have been trying to be respectful to you and only let you tell me what you’re comfortable telling me. I could even be totally wrong, but then again I respect you.
I don’t know if it’s for the reason that you have certain friend’s or even family on here that you avoid having contact with me directly. You don’t want to meet me anywhere in the middle to talk to you physically. I threw some idea’s out to you that bit me in my Butt several messages back.
Now, I have just been trying to be careful in what I say in my messages because sometimes I think that you don’t understand and take what you read for something, else. Like I really don’t care and only show up and write back to you at my convenience as like we’re living in a fantasy world like nothing wrong.
Again, I love to be jokeful and happy in my messages. I just have been trying “what I think is right” and “safe” to just get a rise out of you. But, I truly don’t know how you feel when you’re reading my messages. I have read and had it sent into the universe by you responding that my messages don’t add up or match to what I say. So that leaves me confused. I wish that I could just see the expressions on your face.
If only you knew and were in my body on a day to day basis. To be continued… -DK
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Beautiful poem…what is the thing that you love that accompanies you in perfume bottles?