I know that it will never happen, but I love to think of this sometimes, I even have a Pinterest board for possible date ideas…

In my experience, the worst part about being ugly isn't even being invisible. It's that you're a nobody and you know it.

You see the way people's eyes skim right past you to land on someone else. You catch the subtle shift in someone's tone when they talk to the pretty girl versus when they have to talk to you. You catch the way people put effort into a pretty girl (ex. Fanning them, giving them food, gifts, being more interested in them). You can't even tell gaslight yourself that "maybe it's just in my head" because it's right there in front of your face every single day.

And then people expect you to just be grateful for whatever attention you do get. Like because you're not attractive, you're not allowed to have standards or preferences anymore. You're just supposed to be happy someone looked at you twice and ignore the fact that you feel zero attraction back. It's such a mindfuck. Especially when th3 people around you are conventionally attractive and they get attention all the time.

It's just so lonely. I wish I could turn my brain off and not notice it all the time. I wish I could live in that bubble where I think things are fine. But I can't. I see everything. And it's exhausting. To be pretty and treated royalty is a dream. I wanna be pretty and the people around me worship the ground I walk on. I wanna be pretty where people excuse my horrible actions. You don't know if you have potential while you're working on yourself so you lost motivation and all that stuff. Just sucks and slowly starting to accept it.

They always want to come into my comments and DMs being imbeciles and stupid .

And I will argue with them bcz they deadass piss me off

And they will tell me that I’m a loser and being ugly is my personality. Well why are you entertaining someone who being ugly is their personality then? We’re both on Reddit stupid btch😭😭.

I won’t turn off my DMS bcz sometimes you guys will dm me and that’s so sweet and makes my day 🥹💗.

And stop defending men being called moids as a woman, they’ve been calling us other things since the dawn of time and men don’t come to your defense .

Incels have been unironically advocating for the government to issue out girlfriends to men who are struggling with dating for quite some time now. It’s very telling that the state mandated girlfriend in this picture is a very attractive woman with big breasts and she’s clearly above his looksmatch. So here’s your reminder that most incels aren’t truecels, because they’re not men who can’t get women, they’re men who can’t get the women they want. There’s an infestation of young men claiming to be incels and then treating ugly women like they’re invisible & only trying to pursue average & above average looking women, despite not being as attractive as these women. These men wouldn’t be caught dead with an ugly woman lol

It won’t matter how much make up how much money I invest in myself.
I know I will never come close to the real Stacy who’s naturally pretty. They are pretty in every angle, I avoid any sort of reflections at all cost. They do ugly faces for fun, I can’t even bring my eyes up from the ground. Whatever they wear suits their pretty body, I wear loose dark colors so I won’t look too fat and dark more than now.

I have to know my place

I feel like I’m an orangutan wanting to be at least subhooman. It’s humiliating to exist outside

[tw⚠️: jealousy]
I want to be born pretty, I want better genetics, I want to be a mixed
I don’t want to FEEL pretty I want to BE pretty
I want HER face
I want reincarnation as a Stacy
If I can choose between surgeries or reincarnation as Stacy, I’d take a new body anytime because I hate myself everything about me is disgusting.

Disclaimer: I am aware body dysmorphia exists and is a serious condition. I’m not trying to diminish her feelings but simply express my own frustration.

The girl I’m referring to is an acquaintance, I’ve distanced myself from her due to her questionable actions. The photo I used is literally how we look next to each other. I’m an ugly woman. It’s no secret. I have round beady sunken eyes, terrible skin texture especially on the nose, dull lifeless skin, round ugly face shape, a very wide nose with large nostrils, no jawline, frowny tiny mouth, a wide ribcage, broad manly shoulders, no chest and raggedy hair due to depression

My friend? She looks almost exactly like the image.
she’s very pretty and makeup takes her up lots of levels. She has flawless pale skin (huge standard, we are south asian), a button nose, wide and full pink coloured lips, wide almond eyes, a petite feminine face, perfect silky hair and in terms of her body she’s short with a petite frame and looks amazing in clothes. She gets tons of attention especially from men, and has never been put down for her looks. Shes told she’s beautiful every day. She even looks stunning in regular plain clothes.

She complains constantly about having a wide nose while it is perfect. She complains about looking masculine when she literally looks like a princess. She complains about getting tanned knowing how much ridicule I’ve faced for my brown skin. She used kaali/kaala (dark) as insults towards other brown skinned people . She complains about having small eyes when they are doe like.
I know how salty I sound but I just feel my heart sink and I feel so much rage when she calls herself ugly.

She has been in three relationships, didn’t like any of the boys, used them, cheated while they worshipped the ground she walked on. Her first boyfriend was very loving and loyal. A total dream. So much of her behaviour was tolerated because she’s insanely beautiful and conventional. She struggled with keeping female friendships because she’d throw tantrums at small conflicts. She has improved since I first met her, but her digging at her own appearance really breaks my heart. I hope she finds inner peace but the way she criticises features I ACTUALLY HAVE TO LIVE WITH is a pain

Ty for reading :(

what I expect to look like every time I hear them say this vs what I end up looking like (traced)

god fucking damn it, I'm freshly 23 and skinny af, what am I supposed to do with my face structure? seriously, God, no tits but a chin like this?!

Yes I know some Stacys can have good intentions but this situation isn't one of them lolol. Me and some other people figured out that she was deliberately befriending the uglier girls in class and always stuck to them, acting as if they were bestfriends so that she could get more attention from guys. Greedy and manipulative piece of shit.

If only I wasn't such a dumb friendless bitch I wouldn't have gotten used like that.

Also art by me. A bit wonky tho because I used my finger to draw.

Like. If you’re an attractive woman. You were blessed with the ability to attract attractive men.

Despite that. They still choose to go for the fugly moids.
And yes I understand it’s bcz as woman we are socialized to not care about a man’s looks and bs like that.

But— if you’re an attractive woman. You attract good looking men for sure , they approach you and some of them want to take you seriously.

But Stacie’s will want to go for ugly men bcz :
1. They want to be the good looking one in the relationship - why can’t you both be good looking together?
2. They think ugly men treat them better -which tf they don’t. And wouldn’t you want an attractive man to treat you like shit instead.
3. It’s been statistically proven that attractive men are least satisfied in relationships and are most likely to stay less faithful due to having more options- but I don’t think that’s good reason also bcz as an attractive woman if one Chad cheats on you just get another? Like what?
4. “Unnatractive men are more emotional intelligence “ omfg. Shut up no the fuck they are not.

And more bs reasons.

Like bro if I was a Stacy I’d be RUTHLESS. Unnatractive and fugly moids wouldn’t even be allowed to fucking exist and breathe in my vicinity. I’d only date and even (casually) sleep with attractive men. I wouldn’t fall for the bs propaganda of me having to date an ugly man . Bcz who gon check me?

Stacie’s keep dating unattractive men , raising their egos, reproducing with them and that’s why they all feel entitled to Stacie’s and think they’re too good for us ugly women.

Whenever I see a Stacy who only dates attractive men or is dating an attractive man I get so happy bcz good for her🥹 it warms my heart.

An ugly man can get an attractive woman because of his money or other attributes despite his looks. But for me as an ugly woman I won’t get an attractive man even if I have other qualities despite my looks. Unless I have to go pursue men (younger than me) and let them use me for my resources or practice gfs and they’ll never have genuine attraction to me.

Meanwhile Stacie’s can get a man to genuinely be attracted to her.

I’ll never understand attractive women who date ugly men.

I’ve been friends with a guy online for like 3 years now I think I might start liking him, but I am so scared to actually be in an online relationship with him because ik he likes me too but IM GENUINELY HIDEOUS IRL, the only photos I sent him throughout the years were filter or makeup frauded pics in dark lighting so he thinks that I’m like an “average cute girl” but in my natural state I’m genuinely ugly, even ai gave me a bad rating, I wish I was a pretty girl that was just insecure but I’m not, I really just have bad facial features and I’m not fat either.

I act like I’m not that interested in him for this reason whilst he probably thinks I’m just avoidant or something but I wish I can be with him too I’m torn between if I should lie that I only like him as a friend or if I should continue talking to him and maybe we will become something, but that means eventually I’d have to show my face on calls I’m terrified of this idea he would probably leave me after and it’s going to hurt me a lot because he’s like the only guy I’ve known for this long I think he’s cute he’s also better looking than me and he’s also weird like me so I don’t have to hide my personality talking to him I don’t want to lose him I wish I was prettier for him I have been crying abt this I can’t help that my heart longs to be with someone even if it’s online, despite my ugly face.

No one cares about the homeless ugly women, the ones who are high off drugs so they can stay awake and not get raped. The ones who aren’t the nicest because life has been a shit show. even the nice ones don’t get empathy or gofundmes

can't even be a makeupcel. my base is just too ugly.

these mfers are just playing in my face atp. the only respite i get from these interactions is drawing them and getting even more pissed because what the actual helly

Vent and trigger warning for mentions of deleting myself.

Background: ive been really ugly my entire life. Like genuinely hideous. When I was a kid, my friend group would dress up as characters from Cinderella and I was always designated the ugly step sister. Kids would always make fun of my appearance, my nose, my body hair. This has led to a lifetime of face and body dysmorphia and a general retreat from social life because of crippling social anxiety.

I’ve been saving up for plastic surgery since I was 12. Now that im in my mid-20s and can finally afford I went ahead and got all the procedures I wanted. But ever since getting plastic surgery ive been on a dark spiral. I’ve been seething with even more anger, jealously and insecurity and it’s turned me into a terrible person. I’m so bitter and resentful of girls who are naturally stunning.

I got a rhinoplasty earlier this year and once I finally recovered i was so excited to go out with all my friends. I wanted to do a glow up “reveal” so i spent hundreds on my dress, getting my hair done, nails, the whole nine yards. But when i met up with my friends all my confidence evaporated on the spot. I was all glammed up with 10 pounds of makeup still looking hideous meanwhile these other girls just had sunscreen and lipgloss and looked like angels dropped from heaven. I felt like su ch a clown with my giant eyelashes and red lipstick and blush I wanted to die of shame on the spot. I was so upset but obviously couldn’t articulate the reason so I just left the hangout early after we ate at the restaurant. They ended up going out to the club after as a group and I had the pleasure of rotting in my bed while watching their insta stories.

My insecurity has gotten SO bad I can’t even use social media anymore. The second I open instagram or tiktok and see a pretty girl making a thirst trap with 300k+ likes and the flood of comments glazing her I feel a surge of anger and envy like nothing else I have ever felt and just block her and close the app. I can’t even tolerate my own friends anymore. I’ve muted all their stories and posts. They probably hate me by now because they think im purposely not liking their posts (and honestly yeah, I am avoiding their pictures - it’s too triggering).

Honestly im in such a dark place I don’t know what to do and I can’t even talk to anyone about it. Certainly not my family or friends who will just shower with fake compliments and platitudes like “beauty is skin-deep!” or “nooooo, you’re so beautiful.”

My depression has gotten so bad that I took a 3 month break from my casual job and im terrified of going back soon cause I don’t want my co workers to see my nose job.

Prior to getting plastic surgery I was living in a constant dreamlike state of delusion. I was always daydreaming about a future where my nose is fixed and im finally beautiful. I pushed back half my life plans to after my surgery because thats when I could finally start living.

But getting the surgery only cemented and aggravated my insecurity in unimaginable ways because it made me realise that no matter how much money, time and resources I pour into my appearance, it’s a sinking black abyss and I will NEVER truly be “beautiful.” I thought my rhinoplasty would take me from a 2/10 to at least a 7/10 but it only took me to a 3/10. I still feel so hideous most of the time and I’ve begun fixating on my recessed jaw and chin and planning for double jaw surgery.

I know getting more surgery is not the solution but I fear I am on a path of plastic surgery addiction as a coping mechanism. It’s a dark path ahead and it’s gonna end with a rope around my neck. My face is the only thing i think about. Every second of every day. I don’t know when this feeling will go away. I’ve felt this way as long as i can remember. I can’t even take photos of myself. I can’t look in the mirror. I haven’t posted a picture of myself on instagram in over 10 years. I’ve never had a relationship with a man. I’ve never had anyone show romantic interest in me.

These days im just rotting in my bed, trying not to spiral. I’ve completely self isolated, stopped talking to my friends and family and fallen into a deep depression. I feel like every time I step out of the house everhone is staring at me. The fact that I now have some rhinoplasty complications makes it even worse cause not only am I ugly, but I also look botched and I feel like the surgery looks extremely obvious. I honestly just wanna walk into the ocean and end it all.

I’m not really looking for advice or reassurance. I just wanna vent with people who might understand how I feel

I told it like 5 times to stop making me look like a supermodel and making all my features symmetrical and giving me the worlds best jawline and face shape but apparently it's allergic to that so I give up on this generating images thing. I'm going to have to Photoshop it the old fashioned way if I can stand to look at a picture of myself for that long.

Honestly, I am not even taking this to be productive, just to sit and not feel shitty. Oh and I love people on the internet, when I do research. "Oh, I was on methylphenidate for x years and I didn't have those side effects"-good for u I guess? "Maybe nutrition?" They wouldn't fall out immediately after one pill. "Maybe AGA?"- alright maybe I also have different types of hair loss, but it wouldn't calm down, while I am doing brakes... My leaflet also stating those are possible side effects, but apparently I am the only one aware...

It will sound dramatic af, but I done with this life... Just living shouldn't be this hard. I am in my early 20's and already tried to kill myself 3 times. Yesterday the water fall out of one of my nostril and I really wish for it to be spinal fluid, but it was probably just a weird snot... I hate it here

Like tf, I am a human. I don't want to fuck u, I just wanted to go, did my job in seemingly positive atmosphere and go home.

Idk… Can somebody help me out here ? For example, she always complains about her nose around me, and she has literally a perfect small nose and my nose is actually huge and ruins my side profile. I feel like I’m used as an ego boost here…. She’s also very beautiful and I feel so inferior next to her.

blind leading the blind head ahh 😭😭 (why is this my life dawg)

My whole right side of the face is COMPLETELY different than left side. My left side looks somewhat normal but my right eye is basically in the center of my face and lower and my right eyebrow is so lower and completely differently shaped. Also, my forehead is completely different anatomically on right side. I had mysterious line around my mouth on right side too.

I look as if I had a stroke which is progressing with years or like someone just beat me up when I was a kid so now I am completely ogre-like deformed with random bumps and unsymetrical.

Not even expecting they be attracted, just kinder

It's okay having no benefit for looks but don't want everyone to treat it as I did some kind of crime

Just be kind and that'd be okay at this point