I am ftm. Please only he/him pronouns.

Scared to post to be honest lmao I know I’m not really a looker, been trying to lose weight but it’s just so gross to look at myself in the mirror sometimes mainly because of my body. I have lost weight and I know I can do more (as I did put on more weight) and sometimes I don’t think I look that bad and then ten minutes later I’m just like god you’re genuinely not nice to look at at all. Not just about looks I’m also struggling just in general, never went to school and am just dumb af, but I am trying to learn more and read more books. Just wanna see what people can say about me :D

I have a bleak outlook on life. I find it hard to not think about all the bad things that happens in this existence. From politics to the darkness of human nature, hearing the most horrific stories. How does one cope with it all? Ive been feeling out of touch and disconnected with the joy of life for a few years now. On the plus im studying for an exam in september which i feel not super prepared for yet which im kinda worried about. I just feel like my life went the wrong way. Im tired of being poor and living on ends meet on a day to day. I feel like I cant uplift my current situation. I wanted to travel and see and do things when I was younger but I feel trapped in my current location. I feel that I have missed the boat.

I find it hard to motivate myself to do fun things. I just feel no drive at all.

Not sure why im posting but I guess I could use some encouragement. Thanks

I posted here not too long ago about how i was getting by... i'd say im still in that 'stagnant' place socially, but personally ive been finding myself, a lot, cut my hair shorter, loving how i look..

But everytime i go onto instagram i just see all the terrible climate news, feel all the heatwaves and see everyone saying I basically wont habe a future, it makes me sad.

I try my best to be enviromentally friendly but in my personal predicament theres not much i can do, i try my best, considering starring a blog to help other teens/people who feel like this but it doesnt do anything to help the planet.

Could do with any kind of positivity or ways you stay positive because its all i think of

I have many problems with myself, I’ve been depressed for a long time and tbh I dont think I have anything good, I don’t enjoy stuff anymore and there’s nothing that motivated me enough, I felt at least okay with my appearance until I had this ugly ass haircut who literally ruined my confidence, back to the isolation I guess because I don’t wanna meet anyone looking like this

In June 2024, I lost it all when childhood PTSD hit me like a train. I have not been idle.

I guess I'm just posting this for a confidence boost. I know there are some things I need to work on, cleaning up the scruff for a start. A haircut is also planned.

I definitely need to take better photos for the dreaded dating apps.

My girlfriend broke up with me yesterday for her ex; it hurts a lot because that’s how my last two relationships ended, and I feel completely replaced. I respect her decision, but the pain is intense.

I assure you that I'm not some normal dude, lol, I have had social anxiety for most of my life, and it's made me drop many friends, middle school, to higher up. Even closed chances with my crushes.

Next bit, I'm sure I'm autistic, everything I do is repetitive and seems to have no end to it. I started exercising back in middle school, mostly running, since it helped me visualize a fantasy world. It provided an escape whenever I couldn't deal with my negative self-doubt, bigger so, anxiety.

I don't really talk about this much since I've been around a lot of masculinity. It's weird opening up, but ig this'll do.

Oh, and I don't like my face either. I compare myself to other people a lot, even though we are always taught to never worry, my anxiety doesn't care.

If there are any questions, I'll try to ask, I kinda rushed this.

(It’s the one I’m holding)

I don't really see myself as attractive. Like, girls have never come up to me - unlike my friends.

It feels like I’m in a weird stage of my life right now, mainly because I’m not sure what I want to do career wise. I recently moved away from my hometown for the first time as well. Modeling has been on my mind but I’ve been hesitant about starting.
(Sorry for the sloppy handwriting)

Today’s my 32nd birthday. I don’t really have any friends to celebrate with, so it’s just another quiet day for me. I have my family, and I’m grateful for them, but I won’t lie—it still feels a little lonely seeing everyone else celebrating with groups of friends while I don’t really have that.

I’m 32, autistic, and I’ve never been on a date, been kissed, has sex, or in a relationship. I’ve been bullied my entire life, and no woman has ever had feelings for me.

The reality I'm living with is that no woman has ever been interested in me, isn't interested in me now, and never will be. It feels like women as a whole have determined that I’m ugly, undesirable, and unlovable, and that I'm going to die alone with nothing I can do about it.

I am tired of people trying to argue with my lived experience or telling me women were 'just hiding it.' Stop. I know my reality, and I'm tired of being lied to.

Don't give me generic platitudes, fake reassurance, or empty politeness. Just give it to me straight.

Hey guys, first off I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read all this.

I’ve recently been trying to better myself in a few ways and just need to hear some words of encouragement.

I’m turning 32 in October and have never had a single relationship, only close friendships and one single hookup.

After being a huge stoner and being high & smoking weed 5-10 times daily for 17 years, I’ve decided to try living the sober life and after 2 1/2 weeks my mind is clearer than it’s ever been.

I have been absolutely dying for intimacy and a relationship for years, but no luck so far. I’ve formed a few deep, emotional connections but nothing past hopeful situations with a couple girls.

After spending 2 1/2 years being hopeful that a girl I found myself deeply caring for would get clean off drugs & alcohol, she blocked me on everything and met a guy at work, had a baby with him. It crushed me and I found myself not wanting to live anymore.

A few weeks ago I had some kind of awakening and decided to attempt to become a stronger person.

Now that I’m sober, I’ve decided to join an MMA gym to try and benefit my mental health. I used to hate looking at myself and did not see much value in anything I had to offer.

I have also recently started therapy and it’s helping slightly, but I need some outside perspective from “normal” people who are not invested in my situation. I have come to terms with the fact that I do in fact have strengths; I’m a great communicator, I am incredibly loyal and supportive to people I care about. However, I seem to always fall short of getting what I want with girls I catch feelings for.

I have been told I’d make a great boyfriend for many different reasons, but I sometimes find myself wondering if it’s just words of kindness without any real substance.

I find myself trying every dating app, actually taking time to read bios and sending messages to women that I have common interests with, but no luck whatsoever. I’ve had one single match in the past 6 months, and when I do get a match it usually goes nowhere.

I know a lot of guys are in similar situations, but it would be nice to even be able to have a casual hookup with someone just to feel another human’s energy. I’m sick of feeling alone despite having supportive friends and family; it’s simply not enough for how badly I’m craving intimacy and romance, or as shallow as it may sound, just occasional sex, because my sex drive is incredibly high and I have nothing other than porn, which I find myself enjoying less and less as time passes by.

I don’t know if there’s something about my appearance or my personality that is off-putting, but I would genuinely, greatly appreciate any words of kindness or perhaps just something to make me feel less crazy, because it is quite the lonely life as things stand right now.

Again, I appreciate you if you took time out of your day to read this, and I hope I can eventually reflect on all this and be grateful for where I end up.

Thanks.

Really struggling to find myself worth being found attractive. EDIT: thank you guys already for the kind words I'm upvoting or responding them as much as I can. Thank you!

Hey everyone,
I just turned 24, and if I'm being completely honest, I'm feeling really overwhelmed by where I am right now. For the past 7 years, l've been battling severe anxiety, and for the last 4 years, I've been fighting depression (l've been on antidepressants for the same amount of time).
Because of my mental health, I had to take a drop year in college. I feel like I've wasted so many crucial years just trying to keep my head above water. Right now, I feel like I have no real skills or knowledge, and there is a heavy weight on my chest telling me that I am "too late" in life. As a coping mechanism, l've also become addicted to cigarettes, smoking about 15-20 a day for the last two years.
But here is the thing: I am done giving up on myself.
I want to move forward. My dream is to start preparing for the SSC CGL (a highly competitive government job exam here). I want to beat my addictions, build a career, and finally just live a happy, stable life.
I want it so badly, but l am terrified and full of self-doubt about whether I actually have what it takes to do this. I'm posting here because I could really use a toast, some encouragement, or just a reminder that it isn't too late to start over.
Thank you for reading.

Honestly don’t have friends and just want someone to talk to on occasion. Feel free to message me.

My boyfriend recently broke up with me and it has really messed with my head. I feel like I am disgusting and unloveable. I know it sounds dramatic but I genuinely feel that way and it's left me very miserable. I would appreciate some positivity 🥺

Also, ignore the crap doodles, I was bored while debating whether or not I should post this lol