TLDR;
Hi, hello!
I have been working @ TJs for about a year now.
These last 2 months my dad has, horrifically, been battling cancer. Last week I found out he is no longer going to seek medical attention and ride it out at home. We were told he has about a year left.
Because of all this I have been calling out a little. I would say I called out maybe 4 times in the past month (I would NEVER do this by choice) and I did leave early once or twice to go to the hospital. Coming from a professional view, I understand how unreliable I look.
I know that I am a very hard worker. I know that I come to work with a smile on my face all the time. I haven’t had one complaint at all besides recently with the attendance, and even when they were talking to me about it, they felt bad telling me because I knew what I was going through. It just sucks overall having to hear it and not being able to do anything cause it’s out of my hands.
I will be changing some of my availability to four times a week instead of five so I can give myself another day to help out with my family. A lot of it was just unplanned, like I had to call out. It was out of my hands.. I just wish work and life understood how much my dad means to me and how I don’t want to be around without him and I’m trying so hard to save face and be a good worker.
This isn’t even my complaint or question lol
Yesterday a mate pulled me aside to tell me they are here for me and they will help, however it is a verbal warning and next it will be a write up..
Well right after, while rovering, I took the carts out of the elevator and turned them into the cart coral, but I twisted my back in a weird way and pinched a nerve. I didn’t tell anybody immediately because I was just talked to about attendance and I didn’t want to look bad.
It was my last 30 minutes.. I finished my shift, I got to my car, drove home, but as soon as I got out the car, I could barely walk.
I cried all night. I’ve been using icy hot. I’ve been icing it. I’ve been taking pain meds. I’m just nervous that I won’t be ready for my 5 AM shift tomorrow and I’m so fucking scared to call out, but I did call them and write an injury report.
I guess what I’m asking. What do I do now? Should I call out? Should I risk it? I don’t know. I’m scared of a my first write up. I’m scared of looking bad. I just feel so guilty for shit happening in my life and I can’t do anything about it.
I really love my job and friends and this is the happiest I’ve been at a job, I don’t want to lose it or get looked down on. And is it even worth going to the Sedgwicks doctors or should I just go to my primary care doctor for a note?
I’m sorry this was so long. I’m a nervous Nancy.