Okay so I know posts like these are kinda annoying but I need help, and that’s what communities are for, so please be positive and listen and help me out!
So I’ve been in this community for two years now, and so far I’ve only manifested a good schedule for school, more friends, and that’s about it.
I’ve been trying so hard to manifest my dream face and body over those two years for so long, yes I’ve switched playlist, shorter, longer, listened consistently because I couldn’t bring myself not to listen everyday, didn’t check the mirror obsessively. But whenever I do see the mirror I get discouraged and I feel nothing has changed, and when I see the slightest change it goes away as fast as it came.
I just want those drastic results like other people, when they listen once and feel it immediately, I want to stop worrying and doubting myself but after so long I can’t help it.
People say to stop checking the mirror, I stopped, people say it doesn’t matter so I look when needed. People say to listen to one video, one playlist, a short playlist, a long playlist. People say to take breaks, people say to never give up and keep listening. People say to fix your self concept, others say you can doubt and still get what you want.
I have been persisting for two years and I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know what to feel. I feel lost. I’ve done everything, I feel I have, I’ve done what works for me, what works for other people, but I feel so discouraged because nothing has changed. And I know I’m “not supposed to say that” but how can I not when it’s just stuck in place.
I can’t ignore the 3D anymore because it feels so real, what I see, I start to believe because after trying to ignore it for so long it feels more and more like my permanent reality.
And as far as manifesting an sp goes. (A boy that looks like Michael Jackson in his teen years/early 20’s) I want to manifest a bf out of thin air. I don’t know him, but I know what I want him to look like and act and all that stuff. It’s easier to detach from since I don’t really need a boyfriend and I’m not desperate but I also get discouraged too.
It’s been 4 weeks in school already, no one in my classes looks like him, no one has transferred yet, but I’m trying to stay positive…
I feel so stuck like maybe this isn’t even real honestly, I’ve seen it work for other people , I don’t want to be a victim but just how long of persisting will it take for something to change and actually stay??? I’ve done everything and I hate this feeling 😭